How has the internet affected your crossdressing?

[girlygirly]

Prior to discovering the online network of crossdressers seven years ago, I was wearing panties 24/7 and had an overflowing lingerie drawer. I also owned several nightgowns and short nighties, and always slept in one of them. I had a dress, bra, wig, etc, but tried going out dressed a couple times, and wasn't willing to get the facial and vocal chord adjustments I would require if I wanted to have even a prayer of "passing". I also have tanned in a bikini bottom since I was in my early twenties, I like my girly tanlines. I had a couple pairs of Levi's casual fit ladies jeans prior to discovering other CDs on internet, but that was also very convenient because they fit me better than their male counterpart. I like being a guy, and have clearly defined feminine leanings, as well. I'm not willing to give up the male side of me by allowing my female side to be exposed, and I realize the genie can never go back in the bottle once she's out.

Since discovering the online world of crossdressing, I have purged nearly all my male clothing, and spend nearly every wardrobe moment trying to push the envelope as far as I can without accidentally exposing myself to family and friends.

I think the internet has been an enormous factor for me, there is a certain "dare" factor which seems to exist, and it always seems like there are always at least a few trying to push others to go further. I also find myself having more difficulty exercising good common sense at times, and have to constantly remind myself that the "real world" can be very real.

[SamanthaS]

I know the internet has allowed me to grow, and realize I'm not the only one into this.

[billie earls]

The internet has allowed me to understand myself more and not feel as if I'm the only one. Reading the messages and stories on this site and others has allowed me the opportunity to connect with others whereas before it was hard to connect with anyone.

[Wendy_Marie]

The internet for me has been a fabulous tool which has helped me to realize just how prevelant crossdressing and transgederism is in our society.

Until this time I felt as if I were a member of a small group of persons who suffered from some rare ailment which caused me to want to dress as a female...and to top it off... Prior to this I always felt kinda like a freak even when in the company of other weirdos.....!

After I learned how to sift through all the Bull Crud and steered away from all the pornography sites that seem to invade my search engine...I relaized that there were hundreds of thousands if not millions of others out in the world who like me were not encumbered by being associated to just one gender classification...so maybe I wasn't so strange after all.

[Anna Bee]

From make up videos on youtube to reading posts on this website, it has made a huge difference for me!

[Suzy Parker]

I know what it's done to my bank account with it being so easy to get nice things from the comfort of your own home. Shop shop till your PC melts.

[KarenCDFL]

Until I got on to Compuserve back in 1978 I had no idea that there was anyone else who felt like me. I can't express the feelings that came over me to find out I was not alone anymore.

I know CIS was available before the public Internet but still on On-Line Service that had a very informative LGBT area before it was called LGBT!

SO THERE!

[anonymousinmaryland]

SamanthaS has it covered for me: ( and many, I am sure)
I know the internet has allowed me to grow, and realize I'm not the only one into this.

[Nikki A.]

Through the internet, I've realized I'm not alone. I've also met quite a few like minded people and have started going out with them

[lilmissjenny]

the internet has helped me realize that im not the only one who crossdresses and communicate with. this site is a big help in that :)

[Karren H]

I was already into makeup big time when I discovered what was available online. Still have all my makeup books to prove it. But the biggest thing for me was finding makeup talk forum and getting accepted there and becoming a moderator. Super mod and finally a jr admin before I retired. They had never had a male crossdressing mod before and the admins had to talk the owner into it. I still have a bunch of FaceBook friends I made on MUT! And the owner has emailed me a few times asking me to come back. :)

[Alice B]

The internet was a major factor in learning just who I am and coming to an understanding, not only for me but also for my wife. The internet has allowed me to explore what I want to be, how to go about it and I've many good friends as a result. I also think the internet is expanding the understanding of cross dressing, not just for the dressers, but for the general population as well.

[deebra]

I feel the same way you do, there is a continuous strong desire to keep pushing and wearing more girl clothes in public and not be caught but experience the exiliration and satisfaction of dressing and going out as a girl is so fulfilling and rewarding The ones that pass 100% and can do this any time they want are oh so blessed.

[sometimes_miss]

The past twenty years of online discoveries have allowed me to learn all kinds of things about how and why we crossdress, as well as the vast differences involved for all of us. It was kind of surprising, really; I guess like many others, I kind of felt (hoped) there were other people just like me, who did it for the same reasons, and yet found that even though there were lots of other crossdressers out there, each had his own story to tell, and what led us to it were usually very different paths.
Literature involving studies about crossdressing up to that point was very difficult to come by, even in the NYC public library there wasn't much to find. But in 1991 the world opened to me, with the discovery of Compuserve and it's forums, then quickly onto the Usenet groups. Initially inhabited only by computer 'freaks' like myself, with the explosion of the WWW more and more information became available, as well as online support groups which I never knew existed. I finally found others like me, dealing with the same problems. I was alone no more.
But I was still very distrustful of men in general....I still am, to some degree, but I think it had something to do with the men I associated with as well.
I was never able to dress how I had wanted to; I suppose that was part of my frustration with crossdressing, while it felt like the right thing to do, I never felt exactly right when dressed. I do now, because I'm wearing exactly what I feel like I'm supposed to be wearing, no matter that society would think me nuts for wearing an adolescent female school girl type uniform outfit, not to mention the long haired wig with cutesy butterfly barretts or hair band with it.
And, of course, my discovery of a tremendous amount of great music I had never heard before, sung by beautiful women from half a world away.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UPQyOJVItrM
Here's a treat, from Fine Killing Liberty, AKA Fin.K.L of Korea.

[Angiemead12]

Most of the things I have learned in my life is because of the internet, It has developed my mind to what it is today.

[Sharon B.]

Wished I had it over thirty years ago my life might have been different, probably wouldn't have gotten married and divorced.

[prene]

Helped me get out.

Gotten me to this site .... which is great.

Allowed me to start buying more feminine clothes cheaper/ forms and corsets.

Make friends.

Find therapists. lol

Have fun

[Charleen]

Yeah, just about all of the above! Most important is that I found me.

[VioletJourney]

It allowed me to start. Finding this forum made me realize there was nothing wrong with me (well... with crossdressing anyway, everything else is up for debate!), and allowed me to discreetly buy things online before I worked up the courage to go out shopping in public.

[kimdl93]

I don't know if its all attributable to the internet, but 20 years ago, I was living in the closet...wearing pantyhose under my clothes, and occassionally wearing panties. Many other things have gone under the bridge, including a marriage and several years of counseling. However, 12 years ago, I met my future wife on the internet, came out to her before we were engaged, and have gradually grown more involved with my CDing with each passing year. I know that the experiences of others has influenced me...made me even more anxious to go out in public. I don't think the internet made me do it - it just gave me access to information about people like me, a few new skills, and the will to be myself.

[marny]

please tell me what several years of counciling does?

[larry]

I think the internet has been an enormous factor for me, there is a certain "dare" factor which seems to exist, and it always seems like there are always at least a few trying to push others to go further. I also find myself having more difficulty exercising good common sense at times, and have to constantly remind myself that the "real world" can be very real.
That pretty much sums it up for me. hehe

[wino_tg_girl]

I know the internet has allowed me to grow, and realize I'm not the only one into this.

this! I learn to get better at it, and don't feel nearly as alone

[Jane G]

The internet is just amazing. Without it I think I would still feel alone and lost and unaccepted. But all these things have gone, as a result of finding friends and sharing our thoughts, on the net, with like minded people.

I've known how I am all my life, but since the internet I now know who I am and that it's just fine to be me.

[Cynthia Anne]

From thinking I was so different to learning I'm not so differnt afterall! I have you and many others like us that I can relate to everyday that don't judge me for being me! For this I love all of you! Hugs!

[Patty B.]

opened up the world, back in the 70's did the research available where I live, real backwater, and all that was available was mostly clinical studies. Not much help up here and with the internet so much information that is real world.

[AmiFL]

When I started dressing at 15 I thought I was sooooo weird and the only one that did this..... but I could never stop. The internet from it's infancy showed me I was not weird or alone. I cannot dress to easily now, but I can share Ami as a vitual beauty thanks to www.taaz.com and www.faceinhole.com. Plus I have made such wonderful cd and tg friends that I can bare my soul and share my deepest feelings with.

[charlytuna]

The internet realy open my eyes. I was putting women clothes since early teens but never understood why & why I need to dress in women clothes. But since I got the computer [about 6 yrs ago] I came out my shell and I understand why I need to dress and it help my wife understand me & charly better. It made a huge drifferance in the way I dress and the style & help me hugly with make up. The internet transformed me into who I am today & will contuine

[JillyNylonz]

ANy of you younger girrls out there can never feel alone like the older ones from my era did. We each thought we were the only weirdo's on the face of this Earth, and surely we would be damned. The internet opened up the door to let light in on us and our lifestyle.

[Nicola]

I also used to think I must be the only crossdresser on earth. I did see CDs in the city centre at night but they were often gaudily "dragged up" and I never wanted to be like that. I have always had difficulty in expressing my softer emotions and although I love being a man and doing man things I also need to be Nicola sometimes.

The comming of the internet has shown me that I am not alone in my feelings and actions. I don't feel as weird anymore.
Consider this, I viewed the internet about CDing for many years before I joined this forum - I wonder just how many other people there are out there like us, but not counted?

[Nolwenn Elizabeth]

The internet has shown me that there are all kinds of CD: from men who just CD to men who are TG. 15 - 20 years ago I thought you had to be TG if you wanted to crossdress. I also thought it was weird and deviant and "bad." Now I can see that it isn't; that other men like me do it; and many men want different things from it. I'm more at peace with it.

[suit]

The INTERNET allowed me to lurk at the edges of on line groups so I could watch what nuttiness ensued . by passing the local Liberians prudishness on what they allowed on the shelves of the local library gave me insight to the vastness of what is kink, perversion and just the same old . the information used as reflection helped with centering, shedding unhealthy feeling based on innuendos from comments made by inebriated elders.
why local high school libraries don't have 1/4 of their books on what is human sexuality is and how to manage it , is a disservice to all .

[Lunchbox]

Considering my age group is part of the internet explosion, I would have to say a significant amount. I find myself looking up things in google that I dont fully comprehend. While I was a kid I expermented with womens cloths and found a liking to them. Fastforeward ten years to my second girlfriend. Girly girl all the way, and I loved the way she dressed. I realized at one point that I wanted to look as good as she did. When this thought first crossed my mind, it scared me. But, after doing alittle research and finding this site and some others ive come to the conclusion theres nothing to be afraid of, I just like to look pretty in some clubwear, heels and makeup. I love being me and me is all I ever want to be, a guy. I just wish my girlfriend would understand that.

Besides that, buying stuff without seeing anyone is a big plus.

[Lee Andrews]

The internet has made me feel good about myself. Realizing I am not the only one that does this was a great relief. You could be hetro and still like doing this, I always thought I must be homosexual but I had zero interest in guys that way. That had me all screwed up.
CD'ers come in all shapes and sizes and from all walks of life. That was the eye opener for me.

[Lunchbox]

Fortunately I have understood my sexuality since I was a child. Im not attracted to guys, im not attracted to girls. Im attracted to both. I love the looks of a girl, and the masculinity of a guy. It may be 55/45 girls/guys but either way I like both. Ofcourse If you threw some random attractive guy infront of me and put him next to my girlfriend, I would pick her every single time. The same cant be said for two random beautiful people though.

[countrygirl]

I have realized that I am not a freek and crossdressing is a normal part of me and who I am. I also realize that I am not alone in the aspect of me.

[Claire96c]

Hi, my name is Claire and I have only just joined this group so I am very much the new girl here.

Of course, the internet has had a marvellous impact on my cross dressing which is why I am a member of this group. It is wonderful to know there are lots of other girls like me out there and I no longer feel ashamed for wanting to dress as a girl and to be feminine and submissive.

I am hoping that this forum will help in my development as a girl and allow me to accept what I am. I have had the desire to dress as a girl since I was a little boy and now at 23 it is stronger than ever. I love to dress in different roles but especially as a little girl and I feel as though I am a five year old girl trapped in the body of an adult male. But I also like to dress as a maid and as a normal girl of 23. I have lots of cross dressing fantasies which I hope will be come reality with time.

Love,

Claire

xx

[TGMarla]

Well, prior to the internet, I thought I was all alone in this world, the only man in existence who liked to wear dresses and high heels. I dressed only in closed, locked rooms, using borrowed clothing, and stuffed socks in a bra to emulate breasts. I wore no wig, had no shoes to speak of, and owned only one or two items of feminine attire.

Since then, I have been on an adventure of self-discovery and learning, finding out that there is an entire segment of the world's population that is just like me in many ways. I now can dress in a way that closely emulates an actual woman, so much so that I can nearly pass in public, I have a nice wig and a set of real breast forms, and a wardrobe that.....well....that is way too big, really. I've been out several times in public, made many new friends, and learned to accept myself for who and what I am. And that's the best part of it all.

[Jess Marie]

Its hard for us to judge the impact of the internet. Everything mentioned prior to this post would have happened in our lives. We would have furthered our dressing to going out or wearing a wig and hanging out in the house. All of these things would have eventually happened. I think the only impact on our lives the internet has made, in terms of dressing, is we see the success others have had doing what we desire to do, and we think we will succeed too. The internet does not push us farther than we are willing to go, it just speeds up the process.

[Roxann]

I think has help my a lot and hurt me a lot, the more i find about dressing, makeup, and crossdressing, the more i get in trouble sometimes but my wife and are learning a lot

[LolaDD]

It got me to this site and has helped me learn more about myself and besides that I have been able to buy everything I need to become a woman very discreetly. Lola

[christina s]

It's helped me tremendously. I realized i wasn't the only one out there and you can be a normal guy with a secret hobby :)

[girlygirly]

It's helped me tremendously. I realized i wasn't the only one out there and you can be a normal guy with a secret hobby :)
This says it best for me. Thank you for posting this!!!

[Chrissy.Sexton]

LOL - The Internet is, for me, the only source for high heels in my size!

[Tina B.]

I go way back to the 50's when I started dressing, the 70's I was doing make up and had wigs, full wardrobe, and I read a lot. I remember Christine, and Renee Richards, sos I knew there was others out there, that had the same type of desires I had. I had found all the books at the Adult book stores on the subject of Transvestites, and Chicks with d...(you know the rest).But never knew how to find another person like me, then my kid turned me on to the INTERNET, it took a while before I learned enough to use it to find my first CD site, not only was I not alone, there where thousands of us, maybe millions, and the freedom to talk about something I had never had anyone around that could truly know what I mean when I say I have to dress, I don't want to, I have to. I wish I could have been a John Wayne type, but I'm more like Bea Aurthur, so be, that's who I am. All of you, and another site like this I used to belong to have helped me realize, this is who I am, and I like me, just the way I am.
Tina B.

[Jennifer B]

The Internet has educated me about something that no school or other establishment would ever do and that's had a hugely positive effect on my well-being. And it means that I no longer have to buy ladies lingerie in the local department store with my face beet red and heart pounding.

[Jenny Doolittle]

It has been great to know I am not alone.

I have meet some truly wonderful people on line in sorted chat rooms with this common bond

I have read others experiences and used them as a challenge, comic relief, and as a confirmation that it is OK to be who I am in life.

I pray that others use the net to learn that we are just people like everyone else.

[Mrs Roads]

The internet, specifically this forum has greatly encouraged me - I find it very comforting that I'm not the only heterosexual male that loves to also be a woman a good part of her time when home. If fact, thanks to the internet, I found that there is a significant amount of straight males that cross-dress and is quite normal. As result, I have fully embraced my feminine side and I think its made me a better or mentally healthy person overall. Funny though, even though I see myself as a straight CD, there is also a strong desire that at times I really wish I was born a girl - I really want to feel fully what it means to be a woman, emotionally and physically (I REALLY want to feel and experience sexuality from a female perspective) - if that makes any sense....

[eluuzion]

hi,

Well there is this concept called the "Disinhibition Effect" that affects us on the internet, where we tend to share too much, trust too much, distort reality too much, expose too much...etc

The way it affected me...

Have you ever seen a two-year old around a X-Mas tree the night before Christmas? Now, imagine leaving that kid alone for a couple minutes, and watching what he does...

kinda like that...lol

E

[Veronica Lacey]

From the days as a teen without a computer to my first forays into the internet and email in the early 90's (2400 baud modems = patience testers!) I wondered why I felt as I do. Shopping in person was treacherous for my nerves but I managed to purchase and squirrel away a small collection of lingerie. Still, I dreamed of much more from what I had seen on television and on the streets and had no access to such fineries.

In the last five years the internet has shown me a variety of sites to order from and fulfil my earliest wishes of wearing colourful and exciting clothes and for this it has been wonderful. Learning vicariously from so many like-minded people and reading the extremes of this facet of life has been very rewarding and hopefully I have managed to give a little back along the way.

Almost 20 years later the internet has been a incredible game-changer. I wonder what the next 20 will do with our crossdressing worlds?


I know what it's done to my bank account with it being so easy to get nice things from the comfort of your own home. Shop shop till your PC melts.

[Andi.Devine]

I thought for many years that I was alone in my wanting to wear sexy womens clothing. I felt as though no other man would want to dress in womes clothing for the feel and how I felt they looked on me. The Internet made it possible for me to search and find many sources of information on the subject along with this site. I now feel much more comfortable in the clothing I wish to wear and also have received help from the words I have read here that make it easier for me to go out and purchase a wider selection of items to wear.