coming out

[Sara82]

So roughly two years ago I thought i was going to begin the process of transitioning, but struggled with many issues in my relationship to my SO, as well questioned many of my own internal feelings on what I thought I wanted, and who I thought i was.

today I realized that while I don't look in the mirror and say "I hate myself, I hate the penis i have, and I forsake this body I was given" instead I look and see this pretty girl who so desperately would love to come out, be shown the world, learn and live through the spirit within me. There was never really an internal struggle but rather a series of awakenings. There existed only an external conflict with the one person who means the most to me (my SO), when I expressed my feelings about myself to her. Her sadness and anger caused me to question myself, because i care so much about her, and hate seeing her upset. I realize I only have this one life, and I might as well live it the way i choose. I regret so many things in my life and dont want to live the rest of my days with regret, and stuck with thoughts of what could have been...

I realize now that I most likely will have to through this alone. I've begun to reach out to professionals who can help me with the entire process. I've come out to my female friend, and plan to come out to my mom tonight when she calls back.

wish me luck!!

love

[Amber99]

Good luck! Hope everything works out for you.

[boardpuppy]

I also wish you luck and hope things turn out the way you want them without to much conflict.

Alice

[satin n lace]

Good luck hope everything works out, i'm going to see a doctor next month to start hrt can't wait. You only have one life so you have to be who you are the feelings will never go away

[Sara82]

thanks for the support. i told my mom tonight as well, and she is very supportive. it actually made me feel so much better.

[AllieSF]

I also wish the best for you. On a very positive note, you recognized by yourself what you really need to do. I also believe in putting forth the best for an SO. However, if one is not being themselves and start to live with frustrations, anxiety, confusion and all those other unwanted feelings, then it is time to think about your own health and sanity. You are better for yourself and for others as a happy satisfied person than a conflicted one. Thanks for sharing.

[Aprilrain]

glad to hear mom is supportive ! thats big! in time your SO may come around then again maybe not either way you need to know your doing what's best for you which will work out in the long run

[jaqueline1]

since your mom is supportive maybe she could talk to your SO? your SO will come around and support you it will just take time

[Jorja]

Strange things happen when we come out. Some we lose, some we gain, some we find that we never knew we had. You know where you are headed and you know where you need to go. Follow your path and don't be deterred by fear or doubt. Reach within then reach out to those who support you for the strength and understanding you need. It won't be long before you are the person you really are, the person you need to be.

Good Luck

[Amber99]

It's really great that your mom supports you! I don't know where I would be if my mom wasn't supporting me.

[Sara82]

It's really great that your mom supports you! I don't know where I would be if my mom wasn't supporting me.

hey amber yeah, my mom is actually being really awesome and supportive. she just wants me to be happy regardless of what i choose. having her support and also my female friend is really giving me strength right now.

[Jenn868]

hey girl im so happy for u! i came out to my mother as well and she was great about it, just wanted me to be happy. i am fortunate to have 2 friends who tottally support and help me in my decisions to be a cd/tg...good luck hun u look great!