Persephone
09-04-2011, 12:26 AM
I suddenly realized that this "first" occurred and it was a super high for me!
On Wednesday I went shopping in L.A.'s Fashion District with four other women (GG's). One was my spouse, one a friend of ours, and two were relatively new acquaintances who, to the best of my knowledge, only know me as just another woman.
On the long trip back and forth we discussed many things but from time to time we'd share stories of our past, mostly funny things that we could all giggle at.
Often, probably like most of us, my stories of my past are adapted from things I've done as a male. So my "When I was a little girl" is usually really something from when I was a little boy.
But while telling some stories about shopping trips and other recent stuff from the last few years it suddenly dawned on me, and kinda hit me like a ton of bricks, that the stores were about things that I've done en femme, not when I was "him."
It was an amazing first for me to realize that I was telling about real events as a woman, not adaptions of "his" stories and "his" adventures.
I have a past! That makes me feel real! I have a past and a now and a future! I really exist!
It felt amazing!
Have you had any experiences like this? Did it effect you in the same way?
Hugs,
Persephone.
On Wednesday I went shopping in L.A.'s Fashion District with four other women (GG's). One was my spouse, one a friend of ours, and two were relatively new acquaintances who, to the best of my knowledge, only know me as just another woman.
On the long trip back and forth we discussed many things but from time to time we'd share stories of our past, mostly funny things that we could all giggle at.
Often, probably like most of us, my stories of my past are adapted from things I've done as a male. So my "When I was a little girl" is usually really something from when I was a little boy.
But while telling some stories about shopping trips and other recent stuff from the last few years it suddenly dawned on me, and kinda hit me like a ton of bricks, that the stores were about things that I've done en femme, not when I was "him."
It was an amazing first for me to realize that I was telling about real events as a woman, not adaptions of "his" stories and "his" adventures.
I have a past! That makes me feel real! I have a past and a now and a future! I really exist!
It felt amazing!
Have you had any experiences like this? Did it effect you in the same way?
Hugs,
Persephone.