marlaNYC
10-03-2011, 08:55 PM
i honestly believe i've come to a point in my life where being 'found out', while still scary and daunting...well, i just don't care any more. while i've been subtly wearing women's clothing in public for several years, all of a sudden i have begun to push my own envelope. today, i was essentially outed twice. excuse the upcoming babbling, i don't want to bore you...
late at night and really early in the morning, when pedestrian traffic is thinner, i will go to my stoop for a smoke (mornings it's coffee) at least partially dressed in something far more outré than my day to day wear. a skirt. a skort. short shorts, a blouse. something...
while sitting on the stoop having coffee this morning, wearing a Gap body hoodie and sweats with a new pair of wedges, a neighbor walked by and said hello, engaged in conversation for a couple of minutes and then moved on. this was the first time i've been 'busted' in obvious female attire on my stoop. i acted myself, did not once try to cover the (very) obvious female shoes (the hoodie and sweats could easily pass for unisex). and aside from my initial 'oh no' flush, it did not bother me one bit.
at work, i set my new purse on the counter next to my desk. mostly no one ever notices my bag next to me. a colleague sits down with me to go over a project, notices, and asks "who's purse?" and without missing a beat, i tell her it's mine. i don't point out the VS car coat that she's seen me wear countless times over the last year, just tell her that i like to challenge the norm.
so. my question to you ladies of far greater public experience than i. is this just something that happens, that finally the hiding and concealing becomes too much and you either quite deliberately or 'subconsciously intentionally' out yourselves?
i really look forward to hearing your thoughts.
late at night and really early in the morning, when pedestrian traffic is thinner, i will go to my stoop for a smoke (mornings it's coffee) at least partially dressed in something far more outré than my day to day wear. a skirt. a skort. short shorts, a blouse. something...
while sitting on the stoop having coffee this morning, wearing a Gap body hoodie and sweats with a new pair of wedges, a neighbor walked by and said hello, engaged in conversation for a couple of minutes and then moved on. this was the first time i've been 'busted' in obvious female attire on my stoop. i acted myself, did not once try to cover the (very) obvious female shoes (the hoodie and sweats could easily pass for unisex). and aside from my initial 'oh no' flush, it did not bother me one bit.
at work, i set my new purse on the counter next to my desk. mostly no one ever notices my bag next to me. a colleague sits down with me to go over a project, notices, and asks "who's purse?" and without missing a beat, i tell her it's mine. i don't point out the VS car coat that she's seen me wear countless times over the last year, just tell her that i like to challenge the norm.
so. my question to you ladies of far greater public experience than i. is this just something that happens, that finally the hiding and concealing becomes too much and you either quite deliberately or 'subconsciously intentionally' out yourselves?
i really look forward to hearing your thoughts.