steffie39
10-16-2005, 05:37 AM
Hi girls,
Today was truly a Jeckel-Hyde day!
I went out on Saturday twice but it began much worse than it ended. I took a ride to Bridgewater Commons mall. I wore a long greenish tweed skirt with beige top and heels. I walked through Lane Bryant and then Bloomingdales. At LB I caught 2 sales ladies snickering after I walked past them (I turned around) (the first time I ever encountered anything like that at LB). Then at Bloomingdales I caught a floor walker laughing with others (they were definitely talking about me as I have excellent hearing even for far away). Needless to say, these 2 experiences were humiliating and I was a little down and decided to go home. I never ran across this before (so overt).
I know there are many jerks in this world (more than we can tolerate sometimes) and being human (as well as extra sensitive), I know it bothers me more than it should sometimes even after 2 months or so of going out. You would think I would have everything figured out by now but I guess I still have a ways to go.
After going home (after changing back) I subsequently became determined to try again! I want to continue to try and end my days of CDing with positive experiences. For someone like me that is important. You would think that by this time (2 months) the fear would be gone but it is still lurking in me sometimes (especially after bad experiences) but I will not yield to it!
This time I changed into black ladies jeans, a light green top and some black shoes (lower heel than before). and snuck back out of the house in my usual way. It was close to evening now. I went to Avenue, Payless and Wal-Mart. I found one pair of nice half-boots at Avenue. At Payless I found some nice shoes and boots. There were a 12 but fit pretty well. The boots were black and brown. I also found a gorgeous pair of pumps that had black and lavender/blue in them and had some sparkling small studs on them. I also found a purse to match the shoes! The cashier lady was very nice and helpful; she asked me if I needed any pantyhose or stockings and was the one who told me about the purses. She found me the one that matched those shoes! The shoes, like the purses, had a buy 1 get one-half off the second one so I also got a brown purse. I thus got 2 pairs of boots, 1 pair of pumps and 2 purses as well as a pair of boots for my wife all for $99. Not too bad! I then hit Wal-Mart and got a pair of blue jeans (12 tall) as well as a green sweater and 2 beige tops and a pair of panties. I tried on the jeans, sweater and tops in the ladies dressing room. Lastly I went to Shop-Rite as my wife wanted me to pick up a coke and candy bar for her. Some may have stared in Shop-Rite but it didn't bother me as much as earlier in the day. At least this time I was dressed more appropriately and I don't think as many people stared. I guess the important thing was I didn't let the people at Bloomingdales and LB ruin the rest of my day in the long run. Sorry to ramble on but I just wanted to tell you about my two-part day. I don't want others to get down like I did at first so I figure that ending with a happy ending will give other girls encouragement. Better to fall than never to have tried at all. Take care and good luck for those girls that are thinking of going out.
Steffie
Today was truly a Jeckel-Hyde day!
I went out on Saturday twice but it began much worse than it ended. I took a ride to Bridgewater Commons mall. I wore a long greenish tweed skirt with beige top and heels. I walked through Lane Bryant and then Bloomingdales. At LB I caught 2 sales ladies snickering after I walked past them (I turned around) (the first time I ever encountered anything like that at LB). Then at Bloomingdales I caught a floor walker laughing with others (they were definitely talking about me as I have excellent hearing even for far away). Needless to say, these 2 experiences were humiliating and I was a little down and decided to go home. I never ran across this before (so overt).
I know there are many jerks in this world (more than we can tolerate sometimes) and being human (as well as extra sensitive), I know it bothers me more than it should sometimes even after 2 months or so of going out. You would think I would have everything figured out by now but I guess I still have a ways to go.
After going home (after changing back) I subsequently became determined to try again! I want to continue to try and end my days of CDing with positive experiences. For someone like me that is important. You would think that by this time (2 months) the fear would be gone but it is still lurking in me sometimes (especially after bad experiences) but I will not yield to it!
This time I changed into black ladies jeans, a light green top and some black shoes (lower heel than before). and snuck back out of the house in my usual way. It was close to evening now. I went to Avenue, Payless and Wal-Mart. I found one pair of nice half-boots at Avenue. At Payless I found some nice shoes and boots. There were a 12 but fit pretty well. The boots were black and brown. I also found a gorgeous pair of pumps that had black and lavender/blue in them and had some sparkling small studs on them. I also found a purse to match the shoes! The cashier lady was very nice and helpful; she asked me if I needed any pantyhose or stockings and was the one who told me about the purses. She found me the one that matched those shoes! The shoes, like the purses, had a buy 1 get one-half off the second one so I also got a brown purse. I thus got 2 pairs of boots, 1 pair of pumps and 2 purses as well as a pair of boots for my wife all for $99. Not too bad! I then hit Wal-Mart and got a pair of blue jeans (12 tall) as well as a green sweater and 2 beige tops and a pair of panties. I tried on the jeans, sweater and tops in the ladies dressing room. Lastly I went to Shop-Rite as my wife wanted me to pick up a coke and candy bar for her. Some may have stared in Shop-Rite but it didn't bother me as much as earlier in the day. At least this time I was dressed more appropriately and I don't think as many people stared. I guess the important thing was I didn't let the people at Bloomingdales and LB ruin the rest of my day in the long run. Sorry to ramble on but I just wanted to tell you about my two-part day. I don't want others to get down like I did at first so I figure that ending with a happy ending will give other girls encouragement. Better to fall than never to have tried at all. Take care and good luck for those girls that are thinking of going out.
Steffie