cassandra54
10-15-2011, 10:55 AM
like many of us on here, i've crossdressed on and off most of my life. my sisters dressed me up when i was 5. i never really go into it really seriously or thought about why i did it too much. it was mainly a sexual thing until the last couple of years. my SO and i were talking about going to the drive through at Dairy Queen while i was en femme. then i suggested going to a movie. she told me to do more research and find out places that were safe around where we live. this is how i found out about this site.
up until that point i thought i was just a guy who crossdressed. i bought lots of clothes, wigs, glasses, makeup and breast forms. so i would dress up sometimes on the weekends, usually on sunday afternoons and i thought it was all good. i remember the frustration of not being able to be done with everything i needed to do at around 3 in the afternoon so i could get dressed.
but then i discovered that more than likely i am transgender. now it get serious. i feel that i need to spend at least half of my free time en femme. what that means is right now i spend about 45 hours away from home working and about 45 hours a week sleeping. that leaves about 78 hours a week, which i've decided to split betweeen my male and female halves. that takes work.
dressing during the work week is tough. sometimes i go out and do things in guy mode, but it's a lot of fun. sometimes on the weekend my SO and i road trips or do things while i am in guy mode. she is not ready to go out with me in public while i am en femme. so sometimes the weekend is hard too.
so i have to push myself to do it sometimes, but what is wonderful is there is no immediacy. i am not frustrated if i don't get a chance to be cassandra. i try to dress more on weeknights and nothing special. this week i did a dress, wig, and just foundation/ lipstick on thursday night. i have some chores and shopping to do today, but the rest of the weekend until i go to work sunday night will all be for cassandra. i hope. i've had to really master time management and work at things harder. for example when i come home from work in the afternoons, i usually unwind for a couple of hours, shower, make dinner etc. but now i find i must shower and get dressed immediately when i get home from work. it's the little things like that, that make things so much better.
yes it's getting serious now, since i keep two people and two lives going, but serious FUN!
i don't always feel the desire to get dressed if i'm tired, or there's not much time, but i always feel better after i've "prettied" up.
up until that point i thought i was just a guy who crossdressed. i bought lots of clothes, wigs, glasses, makeup and breast forms. so i would dress up sometimes on the weekends, usually on sunday afternoons and i thought it was all good. i remember the frustration of not being able to be done with everything i needed to do at around 3 in the afternoon so i could get dressed.
but then i discovered that more than likely i am transgender. now it get serious. i feel that i need to spend at least half of my free time en femme. what that means is right now i spend about 45 hours away from home working and about 45 hours a week sleeping. that leaves about 78 hours a week, which i've decided to split betweeen my male and female halves. that takes work.
dressing during the work week is tough. sometimes i go out and do things in guy mode, but it's a lot of fun. sometimes on the weekend my SO and i road trips or do things while i am in guy mode. she is not ready to go out with me in public while i am en femme. so sometimes the weekend is hard too.
so i have to push myself to do it sometimes, but what is wonderful is there is no immediacy. i am not frustrated if i don't get a chance to be cassandra. i try to dress more on weeknights and nothing special. this week i did a dress, wig, and just foundation/ lipstick on thursday night. i have some chores and shopping to do today, but the rest of the weekend until i go to work sunday night will all be for cassandra. i hope. i've had to really master time management and work at things harder. for example when i come home from work in the afternoons, i usually unwind for a couple of hours, shower, make dinner etc. but now i find i must shower and get dressed immediately when i get home from work. it's the little things like that, that make things so much better.
yes it's getting serious now, since i keep two people and two lives going, but serious FUN!
i don't always feel the desire to get dressed if i'm tired, or there's not much time, but i always feel better after i've "prettied" up.