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GirlieAmanda
11-26-2011, 04:44 PM
It has been exactly one year since I left my house and wife for a chance at a more genuine existance. This Thanksgiving I give thanks that I am able to embark on an epic journey. It's called gender transition. It sounds so serious. It really is if done for the right reasons. When I do something I like to do it right and with my full heart. I am trying my best to learn from others and do it as right as I can. This week I made some huge steps.

On Tuesday I went to the doctors to get my final evaluation and my first hormone prescription. I felt so nervous and so exhilarated. I sat in the room and just soaked it in. He handed me the script and I got a huge smile. I finally got what I needed. I will be ceremoniously taking my first pill next Wednesday I believe. I have the pills but I want to take it in a special place and time when I return home to South Carolina. I want my sweetheart there too.

I have to wait because I had to return to Pennsylvania to go to the county courthouse to start the process of name change. I only screwed up one element and that was trying to do it the day before Thanksgiving. I was directed by my county prothonotary to fill out a petition for name change and to get my fingerprints taken. The fingerprinting was kinda cool actually. I had to put my fingers on a mini scanner and the trooper rolled it like it was in ink. The scanner picked up the print and placed it in a box. Each finger was the same. Very CSI. I also filled out a petition to waive court fees because of my unemployed status. That judge was there to sign that but I missed the name change judge by two hours. Dang! Now I have to stay till Monday here stuck in guy mode because I have not come out to my relatives. Only did to mom and bro so far. It it extremely tough to break my full time streak for this but I suppose it is for the greater good. I want to tell my extended family but I don't know if it's time yet. So here I sit waiting impatiently for Monday. The judge will sign my petition and I will get a court date. Then get the heck back home to be with my love starved sweetie, take my medicine, and get to my electrolyigist and esthetician pronto. No time to waste. It's my Christmas present to myself.

Pamela Kay
11-26-2011, 05:27 PM
Congratulations Amanda! Glad to hear you have begun your journey of transition, I can only imagine how emotional it is to finally get started. I assume from your post that your SO is on board and supportive. I hope it continues to go well for you.

Inna
11-26-2011, 05:54 PM
Hi Amanda, the most precious of things in life is acceptance! You are walking the path of truth and such can only lead to acceptance, and such is not the one for others to do the accepting, many may not, but it is of you accepting your truth. Pain and sorrow are inevitable, tears shall fall but they are an instrument of happiness!
I know it sounds quite contradicting, but I have been there and still walk the path til my final day. Truth hurts and often more then a comfortable lie, but through this pain comes joy of self, unobstructed, pure and beautiful.
You will know in your heart when is the time to let the truth infiltrate onto your love ones and friends, and don't give in to the logic which quite often drives our lives complicating, positioning, profiting and sensible but never wholesome if not for our hearts.
You are already beautiful and through transition things shall change so much that you will giggle to the mirror in disbelief of how far you have gone.

Be always true, regardless the cost, at the end purity of self will carry you over any obstacle with lightness and no regret.

Love, Inna

Melody Moore
11-26-2011, 08:14 PM
It has been exactly one year since I left my house and wife for a chance at a more genuine existance.

I ended my relationship with my girlfriend and moved out in May 2010 for a number of other reasons, but
deep down I knew what I had leave her in order to grow and better myself. 3 Months later I started on
hormones and it was a whole new beginning for me in my life & up until then I never thought that was
possible. I have no regrets whatsoever and the amount of really cool people now in my life that accept
me as the person I truly am is amazing. Even though at this point of my life I am still single, I no longer
feel lonely. The independence and the inner strength I have gained is mind boggling. I have thought about
this all my life and here I am now living my dream as the person I truly am & there is no greater feeling.

You really have a lot more really great experiences to really look forward to.
So congratulations & Happy Birth Day for the first day of your new life! :hugs:

Marissa
11-27-2011, 01:18 AM
Yes, it has been a year..and a roller coaster of a ride in the year since I came to know you.. I'm happy for you.. especially on taking that first step to end a marriage that was holding you back from being you..and a bit unhealthy for you.. its not always a good thing to end a marriage but sometimes...its the only best answer..

I'm proud of you.. and happy for you.. good going girl.. your almost there to conquer the world :)

GirlieAmanda
11-27-2011, 01:19 AM
These are the best posts I have ever gotten. So beautifully put. That is why I come to this section. For the reality and the spiritualness. You understand my thoughts. This is not pretend, this is raw, real life I am facing. There is no closet here. The closet has been destroyed and I am free. I will succeed.

StaceyJane
11-27-2011, 09:26 AM
I'm so happy for you and the steps you have taken.
Starting HRT is such a big step. I remember when I first picked up my prescription I was so excited. The first thing I did when I got home was make a video of me taking that first pill.

Sometimes Steffi
02-12-2012, 03:12 PM
Amanda

You were so girly when I met you about 9 months ago that some of the GGs were even jealous.

I'm sure this is the right move for you. Good luck to you.

Don't forget to visit us all when you're back in DC.