Myojine
12-03-2011, 06:42 PM
So I finally got to talk to the doctor today, and he wanted to put me on some meds and stuff and I talked to him a bit about my history and blah blah "meds dont help this" "therapists no money that"
So we talked about meds and he wants to give me lithium and... im still in disbeleif but he said he will perscribe me a set of hormones...
im a bit shocked, but now i have some things to do.
I need to find a follow up with an endocrinologist... for tests and stuff ofc.
Also positive number 2. I contacted my biological mother, and told her about me. didnt phase here even for a second.
Infact she went and listed me as her daughter on her profile
here.
<3
18 hours ago
Diclonius FranBunny Viera
Well... first off im sorry it took so long to finally contact you but i wasnt sure who was lieing or who was telling the truth.
I no longer have contact with jerry, he pretty much told me he didnt care if i lived or died.
Why im in the hospital might be something you will have mied feelings about, and jerry didnt react very well to this either.
Im in the hospital because i was going to commit suicide... but the sherif brougth me to the ER before i could do anything.
I was born wrong... in the wrong body. I am transgender, i wasnt supose to be your son. I was supose to be your daughter. and every day that im alive its just so much pain that its a struggle to even get up off the floor or move away from my computer.
the depression of this is so severe that i've chosen to greet death instead of cherish life.
This isnt the first time either... this is my 5th hospitlization over this issue.
Im literally alone, no family, no friends, not social circle and i have no one to turn to, no one that cared.
I finally worked up the courage to finally look past all the lies and stories and actually contact you.
there so many lies and mystery about my past and i want to know the truth.
Im currently in jacksonville North carolina.
Has anyone at all relayed any infomation about any of the problems I have? or have you been kept in the dark all these years?
..
15 hours ago
Leah Simonson
After your father and I divorced, I had a hard time keeping up with you and Alyssa. I was on welfare and had just lost my job. He offereed to share custody and take you physically (to provide insurance and he had remarried) and we would share back and forth. When I got back on my feet and remarried to Rick, I asked for custody to be reversed. You spent before Christmas of 1994 with our family in Reno, NV and I returned you to your father for Christmas day. I went to pick you up two weeks later at the apartment for our visitation but you and the family were gone. That is the last time I saw you. Your step mother Elizabeth told me that you were so upset at your sister's death that you never wanted to see me again!
At the time I was pregnant with your sister Leah and strugling to finish my college degree. We had no extra money to get an attorney to make your father honor the custody arrangement. We didn't even know where you were.
When you were twelve, my MIL told me of your priesthood ordination and I went to the 26th ward for services. I recognized Kevin and Kristy in Primary with Jacob and Leah. I left primary and found Elizabeth to ask her if I could see you. She said I could after the meetings. I waited until then but she, you and the little ones were gone. Then next time I heard about you was in 2006 when I was teaching in a Texas school district.The Utah authorities contacted me saying that your father had reliquished custody to the state and that they demanded child support. I asked them to please send you to me. Your grandparents even bought plane tickets for us! But Utah said it was up to your case worker and your therapist. The case worker had Texas do a home study and the therapists still refused to talk to me. Often the case worker didn't call me back. I sent letters, pictures and gifts. Finally the case worker said to stop that you refused them all and didn't want anything to do with me.
Then your aunt Michelle posted pictures of you on her facebook and occassionally answered what information she knew when I asked. That is the last I knew except to post this birthday wish on facebook.
Your father hasn't had any contact with me to tell me truth or lie. I just haven't known anything about you for years.
Please don't make me loose you forever. I do love you no matter what. Son or daughter matters not, I love my children all the same and would give the world for each one of you. I do have a special affection for you though because you have been lost to me for so many years. I am just so glad that you have chosen to reach out to me now. I love you.
..
Im not sure, but i feel happy a bit... im not sure how to react.
So we talked about meds and he wants to give me lithium and... im still in disbeleif but he said he will perscribe me a set of hormones...
im a bit shocked, but now i have some things to do.
I need to find a follow up with an endocrinologist... for tests and stuff ofc.
Also positive number 2. I contacted my biological mother, and told her about me. didnt phase here even for a second.
Infact she went and listed me as her daughter on her profile
here.
<3
18 hours ago
Diclonius FranBunny Viera
Well... first off im sorry it took so long to finally contact you but i wasnt sure who was lieing or who was telling the truth.
I no longer have contact with jerry, he pretty much told me he didnt care if i lived or died.
Why im in the hospital might be something you will have mied feelings about, and jerry didnt react very well to this either.
Im in the hospital because i was going to commit suicide... but the sherif brougth me to the ER before i could do anything.
I was born wrong... in the wrong body. I am transgender, i wasnt supose to be your son. I was supose to be your daughter. and every day that im alive its just so much pain that its a struggle to even get up off the floor or move away from my computer.
the depression of this is so severe that i've chosen to greet death instead of cherish life.
This isnt the first time either... this is my 5th hospitlization over this issue.
Im literally alone, no family, no friends, not social circle and i have no one to turn to, no one that cared.
I finally worked up the courage to finally look past all the lies and stories and actually contact you.
there so many lies and mystery about my past and i want to know the truth.
Im currently in jacksonville North carolina.
Has anyone at all relayed any infomation about any of the problems I have? or have you been kept in the dark all these years?
..
15 hours ago
Leah Simonson
After your father and I divorced, I had a hard time keeping up with you and Alyssa. I was on welfare and had just lost my job. He offereed to share custody and take you physically (to provide insurance and he had remarried) and we would share back and forth. When I got back on my feet and remarried to Rick, I asked for custody to be reversed. You spent before Christmas of 1994 with our family in Reno, NV and I returned you to your father for Christmas day. I went to pick you up two weeks later at the apartment for our visitation but you and the family were gone. That is the last time I saw you. Your step mother Elizabeth told me that you were so upset at your sister's death that you never wanted to see me again!
At the time I was pregnant with your sister Leah and strugling to finish my college degree. We had no extra money to get an attorney to make your father honor the custody arrangement. We didn't even know where you were.
When you were twelve, my MIL told me of your priesthood ordination and I went to the 26th ward for services. I recognized Kevin and Kristy in Primary with Jacob and Leah. I left primary and found Elizabeth to ask her if I could see you. She said I could after the meetings. I waited until then but she, you and the little ones were gone. Then next time I heard about you was in 2006 when I was teaching in a Texas school district.The Utah authorities contacted me saying that your father had reliquished custody to the state and that they demanded child support. I asked them to please send you to me. Your grandparents even bought plane tickets for us! But Utah said it was up to your case worker and your therapist. The case worker had Texas do a home study and the therapists still refused to talk to me. Often the case worker didn't call me back. I sent letters, pictures and gifts. Finally the case worker said to stop that you refused them all and didn't want anything to do with me.
Then your aunt Michelle posted pictures of you on her facebook and occassionally answered what information she knew when I asked. That is the last I knew except to post this birthday wish on facebook.
Your father hasn't had any contact with me to tell me truth or lie. I just haven't known anything about you for years.
Please don't make me loose you forever. I do love you no matter what. Son or daughter matters not, I love my children all the same and would give the world for each one of you. I do have a special affection for you though because you have been lost to me for so many years. I am just so glad that you have chosen to reach out to me now. I love you.
..
Im not sure, but i feel happy a bit... im not sure how to react.