Tracy Lynn
01-16-2012, 11:14 AM
Hello Ladies,
I haven't been on here in a very long time due to not having internet access so I thought I would re-intorduce myself so to speak.
When I first joined crossdressers way back in 2005, I wasn't really sure who I was. Was I a crossdresser, was I a transexual or was I bisexual or homosexual. I didn't know where I fit in and there were oh so many labels.
This past year I found the answers to all of those questions. I stopped looking for a label that fit and just decided to open myself up to new experiences and let life take me where I had to go. Along this journey I discovered things about myself that I never knew.
In January of 2011 I found a therapist who really helped me along. She made me face all of the things that I had been afraid to look at. My life, my marriage, was I happy among others. I am a MTF transexual, I know that now. I decided to embark on the journey of my life. I came out to my wife and we decided to try and work things out. We told a few family members but chose the wrong ones. I was outed to her and my family in the blink of an eye and my world spun out of control. I never had the chance to talk to family members one by one and explain what I was going through and what being a transexual was all about. Needless to say I hardly have any of them left although some of them do surprise me from time to time. My parents are very accepting and I love them so much for that.
During the course of the year, my wife left me for another woman. She said that know matter how hard she tried, she could only see me as the MAN she married. That really hurt and has taken some time to get over but hey, I'm a big girl. So we are now in the process of getting a divorce.
I had been living in Delaware for the past 7 years. I lost my job back in October and have not worked since. I decided to move back home to PA because the job market is better. I am living with my parents now until I can get back on my feet, like I said, they are soo supportive.
So thats where I am now. I live 24/7 as female but have not started hormones or anything yet due to my finances so hopefully things will turn around soon. Thanks for listening.:hugs:
I haven't been on here in a very long time due to not having internet access so I thought I would re-intorduce myself so to speak.
When I first joined crossdressers way back in 2005, I wasn't really sure who I was. Was I a crossdresser, was I a transexual or was I bisexual or homosexual. I didn't know where I fit in and there were oh so many labels.
This past year I found the answers to all of those questions. I stopped looking for a label that fit and just decided to open myself up to new experiences and let life take me where I had to go. Along this journey I discovered things about myself that I never knew.
In January of 2011 I found a therapist who really helped me along. She made me face all of the things that I had been afraid to look at. My life, my marriage, was I happy among others. I am a MTF transexual, I know that now. I decided to embark on the journey of my life. I came out to my wife and we decided to try and work things out. We told a few family members but chose the wrong ones. I was outed to her and my family in the blink of an eye and my world spun out of control. I never had the chance to talk to family members one by one and explain what I was going through and what being a transexual was all about. Needless to say I hardly have any of them left although some of them do surprise me from time to time. My parents are very accepting and I love them so much for that.
During the course of the year, my wife left me for another woman. She said that know matter how hard she tried, she could only see me as the MAN she married. That really hurt and has taken some time to get over but hey, I'm a big girl. So we are now in the process of getting a divorce.
I had been living in Delaware for the past 7 years. I lost my job back in October and have not worked since. I decided to move back home to PA because the job market is better. I am living with my parents now until I can get back on my feet, like I said, they are soo supportive.
So thats where I am now. I live 24/7 as female but have not started hormones or anything yet due to my finances so hopefully things will turn around soon. Thanks for listening.:hugs: