Danni Renee
01-21-2012, 03:06 PM
It has been a little over a year since I came out to my first person and finally accepted that I was different and that it was okay. It was a new time for me and after some research and careful thought I decided I would pierce my belly button as a promise to myself that I would never again go all the way back in the closet. It was also a promise that I would have a different life once I retired from the military (males cannot have piercings in the military and although I should not have pierced my navel, what people cannot see they do not know about).
I pierced it myself and took such pride in taking care of the hole to make sure it did not get infected. I bought beautiful rings – it was the one piece of truly feminine jewelry I could shop for and know I could actually wear out so a new belly ring was always so special. My rings brought me great inner peace. No matter where I was or what I was doing I could always touch my belly and it would bring me a little joy knowing my other half was there too.
I looked down today and saw my ring barely hanging. I took it out and looked close and there was no denying my body was finally pushing the ring out. The hole had healed to the point that only a paper thin piece of skin was holding the ring in. One little tug would have completely pulled it out so I decided to keep the ring out for good.
I knew that the hole might push the ring out eventually – I read of that happening here on the Forum and new it was a possibility. I checked the piercing regularly to make sure it was still okay and I had a feeling the hole was pushing the ring out. Two weeks ago I thought it was fine and that maybe it had reached the point where it would stop growing out but I guess I was wrong.
So much of the new me was invested in my belly ring. It was the one thing I even showed my kids because it was so special. And now it is gone. I feel like I have lost a little piece of my heart today and I am so sad.
Danni
I pierced it myself and took such pride in taking care of the hole to make sure it did not get infected. I bought beautiful rings – it was the one piece of truly feminine jewelry I could shop for and know I could actually wear out so a new belly ring was always so special. My rings brought me great inner peace. No matter where I was or what I was doing I could always touch my belly and it would bring me a little joy knowing my other half was there too.
I looked down today and saw my ring barely hanging. I took it out and looked close and there was no denying my body was finally pushing the ring out. The hole had healed to the point that only a paper thin piece of skin was holding the ring in. One little tug would have completely pulled it out so I decided to keep the ring out for good.
I knew that the hole might push the ring out eventually – I read of that happening here on the Forum and new it was a possibility. I checked the piercing regularly to make sure it was still okay and I had a feeling the hole was pushing the ring out. Two weeks ago I thought it was fine and that maybe it had reached the point where it would stop growing out but I guess I was wrong.
So much of the new me was invested in my belly ring. It was the one thing I even showed my kids because it was so special. And now it is gone. I feel like I have lost a little piece of my heart today and I am so sad.
Danni