"Little girl" lost?

[Kate Simmons]

When I was young I seemed to be a rough and tumble little boy but I secretly considered myself to be a little girl who was a tomboy. That "little girl" is still with me today and doesn't mind roughing it. How did you think of yourself when you were young?:)

[Claire Cook]

I guess for my part,"confused". I never was into the male macho thing, always was more comfortable being with girls. Slender build, curly hair and then when gay guys would hit on me that added to my confusion. Had I known then what I know now, who knows, things might have been different.

[sometimes_miss]

Until 'the incident', I thought of myself as a boy. It wasn't until someone planted the idea of my supposed to being a girl that I ever considered it. After that, I frequently (several times a day) wondered how I should behave when in certain situations, where I thought a girl would respond differently than a boy. Then I would have to behave as I originally wanted to, while 'storing the information away' so when god fixed me I would know what to do in the future. It made for a very complex childhood. As time went on, the two options became mixed up, and I occasionally would start to act on the feminine option without thinking first, which caused problems because people were seeing me as not acting appropriately for a boy. By the time I got to high school, I was a complete mess, displaying shy, receptive subordinate behavior at times, and fierce aggressiveness at others when someone pushed me too far.

[Jilmac]

Even though I grew up with five sisters (and only one brother), I find it difficult to decide if my childhood was that of a tomboy or just a confused kid with the sensitivity of a girl. I found it easy to interact with girls and never had a problem showing my feelings. But as I aged, I learned to adapt to the constraints of the male mindset and was able to put up a good front. I remember having thoughts of being a girl and how different my life have might been, and even though I will never take the big step, I have a feeling that little girl will always be part of my life.

[KellyJameson]

As a child I did not think in terms of boys and girls but moved naturally away from most boys and towards most girls because I found that girls were more likely to have a similar energy to mine so acted in ways that I found understandable,comfortable and familar.

I had a rich inner world that books,music,art and nature nourished. My brain was overly sensitive to what my senses brought in to my mind so I did not like scratchy clothing,sticky fingers,harsh noise,bad smells
ect...all things that most boys were unaware of. I was the prototypical effeminate boy that the world loathes.

For me crossdressing is nothing more than the expression of my natural energies that I was born with. Now as an adult I'm starting to explore activities and interests that were more traditionally male interests because of the physical strength required. I have become that rough and tumble boy as an adult but I still hate getting dirt under my finger nails and I'm not giving up my skirts for anybody.

[AnitaH]

Confused and unhappy describes much of my childhood. In grade school I hung out with the girls mostly. I found I enjoyed the things the girls did. I played jacks, hopscotch and jump rope with them. I always felt somewhat different. Always felt a little out of place. I didn't enjoy many of the things my guy friends did. Had no aptitude for sports and no interest i them and it didn't help that I was always the littlest one. I'm not sure how I thought of myself then. I wasn't really sure where I fit in so I guess confused and often unhappy best describes it.

AnitaH

[JamieRog]

I was definitely a tomboy. Loved horseback riding and climbing trees and racing go-carts and working on them outside with dad, but I HATED being dirty or having my hands dirty, and I preferred hanging out with tomboyish girls as opposed to the boys who were always competing over who was the most masculine. Whenever I would go to a friends house as kid I loved dancing to music videos and such with his older sisters (and my own sister) and so did my friend, but backhanded comments from the father figures overheard from another room ended that rather quickly.

[Missy]

like myself as a tomboy but sissy fied lol

[Daphne Renee]

I was more of a boy when I was young.. Now I am somewhere inbetween. I like girly things but I also like some things that are considered more male.
I am definitely not and have never been "macho"

[Debb]

When I was young, I thought I was a freak. I spent so much time trying to be the boy I was apparently supposed to be .... I had breasts, not well-hidden because I wasn't fat at the time ... I got along better with the girls in school ... I wasn't much of an athlete other than track-n-field.

It took 12 years in the military, and ten years after that, to figure out that I can live with myself, boy or girl.