How Have You Changed Since Joining This Forum?

[Anne2345]

I joined this forum on March 3, 2011, not quite a year ago. Since that time, I have posted close to 600 times, of which exactly 100 are original posts. Out of morbid curiosity, and in anticipation of my 100th OP, I have recently reviewed some of my earlier submissions.

In the beginning, I was a relatively shy, nervous, and unrealistically idealistic girl. Although not so young, I had yet to knowingly communicate with another member of the transgendered community prior to joining. Consequently, I was excited, eager, hopeful, and quite naïve. In fact, I had no clue what to expect from the forum. But whatever my expectations were, I did expect greatness. And in this forum, greatness within the membership I have found.

Looking back over my posts, however, and thinking back upon who I was when I first joined this forum, I am no longer that person. In fact, I have changed so much over the past year that I hardly recognize myself at all. The person I thought I knew was but merely a happy-go-lucky crossdresser, just soaking up the atmosphere of this remarkable site, having fun, and writing about butterflies, flowers, dancing to the music, and the beauty and magic of crossdressing.

The person I am now is vastly different. Specifically, I have been through much emotional turmoil, and have experienced psychological chaos and anguish over my gender identity. I have had brutal growing pains that I did not know were even possible, and I have broken down and cried more times than I care to count.

When I first joined, I had no idea that I teetered so precariously on the brink of complete, total collapse, confusion, and emotional chaos. I was, or so I thought, happy in the closet. My closet was my blessed sanctuary. I could be anyone I wanted to be in my closet. I could dress any way I chose, and I could do so safely, securely, and comfortably. I was limited only by the bounds of my active and otherwise ample imagination.

But alas, the one person, evidently, that I could not be was myself. As I evolved, matured, and my awareness began to blossom and branch out as a result of time spent here, the person I knew was ultimately annihilated. Simply decimated. And let me tell you - annihilation hurts. It hurts much.

With the wisdom, assistance, and experience of the membership, and many, many professional therapy sessions later, I have managed to break through many years of of denial and suppression, and rediscover my true self – I am transsexual. I want to be a woman. To greatly complicate matters, I also happen to be married, have a young daughter, and have a demanding career.

Regardless, however, I did not ask for any of this. Not this. Life as a crossdresser was innocent, beautiful, fantastic, and relatively easy by comparison, even if I was but only in the closet. This is hard, difficult, harsh, unfair, emotional, extreme, merciless, and unforgiving. Be that as it may, I strive mightily for the middle road, and to live and exist between the two genders. Only time shall tell if I am successful. But with the help, support, and guidance of this forum and its membership, I shall adapt my strategy accordingly, hurdle after hurdle after hurdle, and see where it takes me.

In this, I am quite thankful and grateful for all of you, for what you have done, are currently doing, and will do in the future. I know that I am not alone in my journey, and I take much comfort and solace in the numbers herein, and the friendships I have been so fortunate to cultivate and forge. I thank all of you for simply being here.

In life, though, change is inevitable. For better or worse, change is always around the corner, rearing its head, ready to grow, ready to pounce. How have you changed since joining the forum?

[Marleena]

Another thought provoking thread Anne, you are quite the thinker.:)

When I first joined here I had just finally accepted myself for who I am and let the genie out of the bottle. My purpose for joining was like a man on a mission to make others feel better about themselves. That's why post count is so high. You see, I really care about people.

What I also learned is that TG people are all the same, but we're different. We are all complex individuals. We are all at different places on the gender spectrum.

The common goal I see is to find who and where we are and be accepted by society. That is a huge struggle.

What I see here is wonderful people struggling and helping each other. Society could learn a lot from us, they really could!

[Karren H]

I haven't changed very much in the last... Almost 7 years since I've been here... Except I've gotten much better tying on my blackberry....

[Kate Simmons]

If anything I've become more pragmatic.:)

[Ava Tryptyk]

I joined this forum very very recently - that is, I haven't even been here a month but I do feel like I've gone through some changes. I bought my first CD-related item at a public place (pantyhose at the supermarket). This may seem like nothing compared to the CDs who regularly go out shopping and try on clothes in the dressing room, but it still means something to me. I do feel more comfortable with my hobby, though I'm still very much in the closet. I think I just need to keep hanging out on this forum regularly and look at the pictures people post here to keep up my motivation.

[Nikki A.]

Since I've joined I've become more comfortable with my dressing. Before it was just my wife who knew. Now there are others, I've met others on the forum, been out & about and am more at ease with presenting as a female.
Do I want to transition, right now the answer is know but I reserve the right to change my mind down the road and this is a big change in itself.

[kimdl93]

I haven't gone back to read my initial posts from January 2010, but I'm sure they'd document a somewhat repressed CDr, one also satisfied with dressing in the privacy of my home, and confiding only in my wife. Being a member of this site has opened my mind to many possibilities that I never seriously considered.

I came to this site feeling pretty good about myself as a CDr, but convinced that the obstacles to going farther seemed insurmountable. In Jan 2010, I didn't have a wig nor my own makeup. I had just purchased my first set of breast forms. I had quite a few dresses and lingerie but few things that were honestly flattering for my figure, or appropriate for wearing out in public. And more than anything I lacked any shred of confidence that I could go out into the world. But, with the examples of so many incredible individuals on this site, (I want to call them women, but I know not all of them would be comfortable with the term) I found that I was at first curioust, then envious, and finally motivated to try.

I also found examples of possibilities in the others who had dared to be open about themselves with their loved ones, and often with friends, neighbors and co-workers. Again, I was curious, then envious and ultimately motivated to come out to a much greater extent than I had been before.

All of this took information, guidance, and practice, practice, practice...until I felt capable of presenting myself well - certainly not beautiful, maybe not convincingly female, but at least presentable. And with that effort came a growing resolve - or courage - to be who I am, and risk the reaction of others. I'll give my wife a very large share of credit for this, as she has been steadfastly supportive and encouraging....and it was she who finally introduced the real me to one of our neighbors....something that really helped quell my apprehensions about coming out to others.

So, two years later, I'm dressing nearly full time (I work from home). I try to go out in public every day en femme...mostly for little things like walking the dogs, buying groceries, dry cleaning, dropping packages off at UPS, a latte at Starbucks, or shopping!!! I've traveled accross the country (TX to MN) en femme and back again. And I'm out to several family members and most of my neighbors.

Was it Dennis Rodman who said, "I'm not a role model". My life isn't necessarily right for you, dear readers. But it feels so right for me, and as one of my neighbors said, "Good for you! Life is so short, you have to be yourself!"

[Launa]

I have grown a lot since joining the forum. I'm no longer pissed off at the situation about my dressing, though I still get frusterated over it, I have learned to have fun and accept myself. Before joining the forum I joined a local TG group, when I went there for the first time I felt real uneasy almost like I was in a counselling session with a group of wife beaters. I didn't like it one bit but now I can fit right in with a bunch of us anytime and anywhere and be real proud of who I am.

[elizabethamy]

When I came to the forum, I had been reading about crossdressing and trying to understand why these relatively new urges and thoughts were overtaking me in my mid-50's. The forum has shown me how many different kinds of TG'S there are, and how many different preferences and styles. It's helped me continue in my struggle to figure out exactly how transgendered I really am, why I'm this way, and where it all might be going. I go from being at peace with the whole thing to being tormented by it to being scared about the future, and sometimes combinations of all three. Since no one except my rather disappointed but semi-tolerating SO knows about my gender issues (well, aside from the therapist, who's really valuable), this forum is pretty much the only community of like-minded people I have, and I appreciate just being able to come here and read and look and think. It's a wonderful mutual support system in which we're all helping each other in large and small ways....

[suchacutie]

For me it's easy! I joined 2 days after Tina's first appearance in our lives 6 years ago. I knew absolutely Nothing! I went from wondering what breast forms were and having not the first clue about makeup to having Tina as a permanent part of our lives.

Actually, it's all pretty amazing!

[Foxglove]

I'm certainly more confused. Right now, I don't really know who I am, where I am, where I want to go. But it's no big deal. I've been confused for much of my life. I may eventually figure things out. I may not. Whichever, I believe things will be interesting.

In a way, I think being confused is a positive step, given that I never thought much about CDing before. I used to know where I was with this, and that knowledge didn't make me happy. So maybe I've taken a step in the right direction. Time will tell.

[Ineke Vashon]

Less than one year ago I was reading this forum as well as looking at cross dressing pictures to discover what was going on within myself. One picture showed a bald middle aged, pot bellied man in a bra and panties: My thought at the time: "what a freak"

Today I am sitting wearing the top part of my pink bikini and a long flowing skirt (pink panties) and I feel good about it and I feel comfortable. I don't feel freaky. And I am older than that man.

Some changes. Go figure.

Ineke

[RenneB]

Oh yea. When I found this forum, I was just looking for a way to hide the clothes and outfits. Now, althought still in the closet, I've found so many friends and have changed from never venturing out to being out and about practically daily.

Darwin once said that it's not the strongest or smartest that survive, but it's those that are willing and able to adapt to change that survive. The more adapable one is the longer you'll survive... That's my journey, to learn how to change and adapt to the environment that I'm presented with....

Renne.....

[WillowWriter]

Since joining this forum, I'd say I've gotten better with understanding my crossdressing self, I've lost a lot of weight and are much happier with my female self.

[Crysten]

No, at least, not since last Tuesday, anyway. After all, how do you think I felt about the whole thing. I mean, really.

[sissystephanie]

I don't really think that I have changed much at all since joining the forum. Of course, I have gotten older, thank heaven!! But having been a CD longer than a lot of you have been alive, I have pretty much gone thru everything. I joined the forum after my dear wife died in 2005. Since we had been married for almost 50 years and I had known her since childhood, I was devastated!! My life, at least in my mind, had come to an end. She was totally supportive of my crossdressing for our entire married life. In a sense, you people have taken her place and I really thank you for that!

As I have said on this forum many times, I have no desire to be a woman. I just like to dress like one, and do whenever I can. In the many years that I have been CD'ing that hasn't changed, and never will!!

[abigailf]

Amen!!! Anne, I could have written that. Yes, I changed and in much the same way you have. I was there about 6 months ago. Coming to terms being a transsexual and figuring out how to live with it and where to go next. Today I am on HRT and I do not know how far in transitioning I will go. I suspect all the way, but part of me hopes I can save some of my old self just to make it easier on my family. But in reality, I sense that will only make it harder for all of us.

I wish you all the best and all the strength I can for you to succeed in whatever you decide.


I haven't changed very much in the last... Almost 7 years since I've been here... Except I've gotten much better tying on my blackberry....

Karren, it looks like you need more practice.

[Karren H]

Karren, it looks like you need more practice.

I just got that on Facebook... A friend said that they would miss my posts... Along with all the mispelling misteaks! :D

[Marleena]

Duh...Marleena how have you changed?? Answer the question you went off on a tangent again!!

Oops.. This forum has reinforced that it is okay to be me. I'm progressing in all things femme now. I'm almost ready to venture out into the real world with teenage girls that will clock me everytime.lol.

[ArleneRaquel]

Duh...Marleena how have you changed?? Answer the question you went off on a tangent again!!

Oops.. This forum has reinforced that it is okay to be me. I'm progressing in all things femme now. I'm almost ready to venture out into the real world with teenagers that will clock me everytime.lol.

Lovely post Marleena. :)

[KlaireLarnia]

I have learnt a very important thing: I know who I am not.

My time here as been spent looking at others to understand what I am and want, and more importantly what I am not and do not want. I understand the limits I place on myself better because I see others trying to achieve things I do not want, and therefore help me see and understand why.

I have only changed in the respect that I am become wiser to my needs and goals, but on the inside I am exactly the same person as I was. Where as before I only understood the story a little, now I understand the meaning of the story as well.

K

[Melissa Cross]

Even tough I joined this forum in 2006, I wasn't active until recently. This forum has given me the confidence to be myself and not be afraid to do new things en femme. So I feel I have become a much more confident CDer since joining. Thanks everyone!

[SusanMarie]

How have I changed?

What was once hidden...is now celebrated openly...how wonderful :battingeyelashes:

[Gillian Gigs]

Through this journey I have come to be at peace with myself, and accepting of the fact that I am what I am. I am peculiar, unique, and that is better than being run of the mill and average!

[RachelZ]

Since joining this forum I've manged to tap into my inner blonde... wish I would have know that "tapping in" meant unleashing a whirlwind of repressed energy that completly reshapped my personality.

[NathalieX66]

In three years since I joined in Feb 2009, I stepped out in a way that I didn't think was possible. After living through ten years of denial, guilt and shame, and not having an interest in ******* porn sites, this forum changed me.
Being TG is a subject that few people understand, including myself at one time.

[prettytoes]

I have discovered that I am not as alone as I thought I was. I have also been much more open with my wife, and more accepting of my inner feminine alter ego!

[Barbara Ella]

In my short 5 months as a CD, I have changed tremendously. Since joining this forum on Thanksgiving day, I have not had to consider the changes alone, and have gotten excellent advice and support. My wife now knows, and supports, I have advanced from being happy with underdressing to dressing in full femme, and being willing to sign for a Fedex package en femme today. (Maybe a little stupid has snuck in along the way), but I am having fun with my feminine side and I attribute that to this forum.

Babes

[rachaelsloane]

I'm not sure change is the right word, but rather "grown" since I have joined. I have dressed for a long time and always felt comfortable, but since joining, I have been able to interact with a wonderful group of friends here and went out for the first time in October and now try to go out at least once a week with one of the girls I met here in SF. Every time out is a new adventure in Rachaels' life.

[Brittany CD]

I only joined a month ago, so not much has changed about me. The only thing that has changed about me is my attitude. The girls here have shown me that anyone can put on some makeup and wig and still look like a stunning girl, which is positive because I do have a very masculine natural look.

[taís]

hey Anne, beautiful thread as usual. for that, thanks ^ ^
and a big hug for all the "hard, difficult, harsh, (...) and unforgiving" times you've been through. but you had it coming, that's what you get for stepping out of the fantasy! (oh wait, the incomparable, true feeling of being yourself out to the world — something I can only imagine as of now — is also in the package. whew!)
you're truly an inspiration. I hope everything work out the best way possible. and keep bringing us your thoughts, fears and small victories. in the little reality show that this forum is, you're one of my favorites <3

as for myself... I just joined a couple months back, but since then, my crossdressing changed a lot. I take myself more seriously, I give myself challenges, I'm (sloooowing) leaving my shyness behind... but something particularly nice I learned here is how to pursue the woman side within me and my life, and not as a separate personality. I always accepted my cding, but here I found out and accepted my transgender condition. I still have to figure out what the bleep does it means, but I have no rush... I'm enjoying the ride. ^ ^

[josee]

Anne, I joined here 2 days after you did and have changed a bit as well. Still not sure where all this will end up but am much more educated in crossdressing and transgender issues than I was then. I have a ways yet to go but have become a much more honest person - with others and myself.

[KellyJameson]

The forum has deepened my humanity by lifting me out of my own ignorance.

Every year since childhood at Christmas I watch the animated version of Rudolph the Red Nose Reindeer because as a child I felt like one of the misfit toys from " The Island of Misfit Toys", even than I already felt broken.

Being broken pushes you out to the edges of society becoming part of the drifting fringe so even when you are included you feel excluded. You watch the "normals" as you walk by their homes seeing them sitting around their dining tables sharing in the warmth of their love for each other, building families and communities, going to church, walking their children to school. Friendly waves to neighbors and summer BBQ's, lives filled with laughter building memories like a photo album to fondly recall and you envy them their freedom from the torments that burden you.

The torment defined by one word, Why ? A word that is stretched out to cover your whole life and encases you like a body bag cutting off your air and sometimes the will to live. WHY am I so different from everybody else so that the simplest pleasures elude me and all that everyone else takes for granted is impossible for me.

Disharmony follows you like a shadow, conflict is pervasive and bonding with others impossible, the minds of others are a mystery. Love feels like a prison sentence with a life term and no chance of parole, always the feeling that every moment is a choice between trying to keep alive that something inside of you that is you, a thread that makes up the fabric of your soul even though it keeps you from joining the "normals", you are an outcast as much by choice as circumstance. But why? What made this so? How did I become this way? What evil have I done to be burdened with this unknown,unnamed torment.

And than I came here and now I know and the word is Transgender. Gone is my anger at the "normals" for I see how mistaken I have been in thinking I was the only one and my self pity was selfish because in my suffering I did not notice the suffering of others. I do not carry this burden alone any longer for it is a shared burden with my sisters and brothers. The answer was always there if I had only watched myself with honesty but my fear, prejudice and ignorance prevented me from admitting the obvious that others sensed but could not articulate.

Thank you for your gifts in the words and stories you share.

[AnitaH]

Anne you have such a way with words. I always enjoy reading your posts.

I haven't been here a year but already I've experienced the pain of the changes that you refer to. Recently I've made a pledge to make more time for Anita and to let her out to play more. I've been making some allowances such as painting toenails and daily carrying a bag/purse. Being here has given me the courage to start being me.

I expect that when I look back after a year that I will see significant changes coupled with many growing pains.

AnitaH

[Jenniferathome]

I'm about 1 year in as well. And as a result of this site and friends here, I am out to my wife. Stress free and enjoying my girl side. Immeasurable improvement in a short time.

[Jacqueline Winona]

Only been a member for a little over a week, and I didn't find the place until just after Christmas so I didn't lurk that long, but . . . Yes, I have. I have gained a ton of confidence in such a short time to not only deny what is a part of me, but to enjoy it. And, more importantly, I think I'm a better husband from reading all the posts about communicating with your spouse, and not taking her for granted. And for both of these traits, I thank each and every one of you.

[patti1569]

Oh I've changed since joining! I just read my first post after reading this one. It was from July 2010. My wife had just "accepted" my dressing and life was so great. Well, in August on 2011, she was not so "accepting" anymore and threw me out of the house. In some ways, it was a blessing. I'm free now to express myself how I really want to. In that way I must thank her for setting me free, but I miss being a family none the less. I'm facing a exciting and scary future right now. I just started going out and meeting other CDers and am having the time of my life, but wonder where it is all heading. Anyway, this forum has been the best to be able for me to express and share my feelings and experiences. I've changed a lot since joining and only know one thing for certain, there is more change to come.

[Tanya C]

I love the sense of community that this forum provides. Being a part of a group that has thousands of members with more and more joining everyday gives one the feeling that maybe we represent a larger portion of society than many of us previously thought. Thus, it has probably caused me to become bolder when it comes to going out or opening up to some people.
But if you're talking about working out deep seated personal issues about cding then I would have to say the forum hasn't had that much effect. I dealt with most of that kind of stuff a long time ago well before the internet was even invented.

[Slo Jo]

After 7 years of marriage, I was Invited by my SO and he is finally out to me; His GG, we are much more relaxed and trusting. Secrets STINK and you never can tell what the smell is! Its nice to have him open to me. Helping out with the make-over has been fun for me. I love clothes, hair and make-up naturally...Fashion Frenzy! Taking advantage of private time is sometimes a challenge and I have seen some helpful strategies here and there...
Biggest change is no longer feeling super odd or isolated.

[KylieQ]

I think the biggest change in me since joining this site is the realization that this side of me is a much bigger part of me than I really wanted to admit. I had felt very alone for many years and knew that there was no way that I would find acceptance or support here in this little town. I found both here and it's helped me to not only embrace this part of me, but to move forward and accept that this is who I am, that I'm not alone, and that there is a whole world out there full of people who are willing to be so incredibly supportive, and for that I am extremely thankful! Oh yeah, and thanks for also teaching me how to properly walk in heels!

[thechic]

Well ive changed drasticly since joining this forium,not all things were related to this site ,things were taking place before i joined
Im Now Out as a woman Full time,Im Happier,on HRT ,have less money,Lost pleanty of freinds but have gained others,still got the same job,still married with a accepting wife and kids.

[Kristy_K]

Since I have joined my life has taken a 180. I could write a book on all of the changes that has taken place in my life. But to list a few, it would be.

I used to be very a shame of myself as a person for wanting to Cd. I was very shy and was not interested in living and was just waiting for the right day to die.

I have learn that life can be so much fun now and I don't need anti-depressants to live it.

I have gotten a divorce and remarried during that time.

I have came out of the closet. Which is good because it gives me more room for my clothes. I have accepted myself as a wonderful person and now like what I see in the mirror.

I made more room in the closet by getting rid of them males clothes. I have stop CDing and transitioned and started HRT. I started therapy after I transitioned and received two of my four letters.

I changed my name, gender maker, driver licence and passport.

I book a surgery in Peru for a FFS in February. And I am planning a trip to Thailand in July for a SRS.

Those was just a few that I thought of. This site and the people on it has been a wonderful help for me to be the person I am today.

Hugs,
Kristy

[velvet]

i like slo jo,s comment "secrets stink , you dont know where the smell is'" its nice to know that you are not the only one?

[Katie83]

I think i have changed since joining the forum. I haven't changed regarding my identity. However, i have come to accept myself as i am. I am not the only crossdresser in the world! I am not some kind of freak! I am me and i'm happy with that. I think this personal acceptance has helped me in a lot of area of my life. Such as my confidence being increased and realising that what most other people think about really isn't important, there are some exceptions, my wife and daughter for example.
Being a member here has had a positive effect on me overall. It is also great to discuss things with like minded people.
Katie

[Jennifer Marie P.]

Since joining this forum I made my big decision did my transformation and now I am who I want to be a beautiful woman.

[Ally 2112]

In the very short time i have lurked/joined ,the posts i have read have helped me so much already .I feel i have found a place people truly understand !

[RADER]

I have been here since Aug. 2009, nearly 2000 posts, wow.
I have more confidence than I use to have, I will never pass as I have a built
like a cement truck. But I would never under dress before I came here, now panties
24/7, Got rid of my Hains guy wear, all but 2 pr for doctors visits. I now I wear a bra
about 70% of the time. Especially in the winter where a heavy shirt can hide the strap
lines. I dress at home more when I can, and now being retired, I have more time than
when I was working. I now have a corset, and wear that at least 3 days a week, but never
out of the house.
This forum has been a god sent adventure of knowledge and advice on how to do and act
on my love of dressing. I know that I am not alone, there ARE more pebbles on the beach.
Rader

[StacyC]

I haven't changed much since joining about a month ago, besides buying pink fuzzy pjs and a top. I'm not if I will really change that much, hard to say. But its fun and interesting and wow I am learning so much. :)

Thanks to everyone for thier support and stories. I would be lost without you guys/girls

[Crysten]

I just got that on Facebook... A friend said that they would miss my posts... Along with all the mispelling misteaks! :D

Misteaks are good with misteak sauce. Mmmmmm...

[Hali]

Anne.

Thread like this often pop up once in a while in this forum, and i have made a promise that anytime i see a thread discussing how valuable this forum is i will always stop and say how much i have gained and how different a person i have become with the help of this forum.

It has simply proved to me that am not alone, that am a TG (accepting who i am)............the acceptance is everything cos it completely dissolve all feeling of shame and guilt which in my opinion are the major causes of anxiety. Then other goodies started coming in.

[LeaP]

But alas, the one person, evidently, that I could not be was myself. As I evolved, matured, and my awareness began to blossom and branch out as a result of time spent here, the person I knew was ultimately annihilated.

When I arrived here, the wave I was riding had already crested and was starting to break. The wave has grown and accelerated as it approaches shore.

I read your post several times before settling on the excerpt I've quoted as the core concept, trying to decide if I've experienced something similar to what you've described as annihilation. The answer is only partly. A lot has changed, more is threatened. I'm in therapy. There's a lot of pondering and angst, many tears, and my sense of what I am has come unmoored. I'm essentially the same person, however. The difficulties have to do with coming to terms with what I am - reconciling that to a life that's already in-place - and are much less about what I am, if that makes sense.

In spite of the turmoil, I've actually become more accepting of myself. That hasn't quite progressed to where I don't see myself as one of nature's mistakes, but I think I may get there, too.

Lea

[PretzelGirl]

Well Anne, I have been here over a few years, but I don't post much. :brolleyes:

But when I first signed up, I had already been lurking for a few months. If you can believe it, I was shy about posting. I like to get the lay of the land so I don't come charging in and making mistakes.

At the point I signed up, I didn't even dress fully at all. I was still developing as a late bloomer. Once I got on here, I started learning and developing. I talked here about all the major things I would do (like going out or coming out) so I could get the feedback (I take that back, I said I don't post much :heehee:). And that feedback and support carried me through. Also, I learned alot by meeting one person who taught me it was okay to get out and be who I am and have a lot of fun. I am still trying to be as comfortable as she is, but it was a large leap forward for me.

So now I have gone from not dressing fully to dressing fully, getting out often, and dressing regularly when going out and when at home. And I have been to a CD gathering (DLV). I am also very involved in my local Tri-Ess chapter.

But most of all, I have made a lot of wonderful friends, both on-line only and those I get to spend time with. These friends are the best friends I have and mean a lot to me.

And I got a whole lot more serious....

[jillleanne]

Yeah, I've changed. Before I was a broad in a beard and now I'm a drop dead gorgeous 'bitch from the ditch' that women would kill to look like and be adored. Ok, well that might be a bit of an exageration; the adored part, well, ok, maybe all of it.

[Krististeph]

You are really cool Anna.

I'm not much different- I want to get out en femme more- but i'm kind of at odds with doing so at the present. I enjoy being able to express my inner girl, playful side, here... meeting other who are actually so similar to me it sort of scared me for a little. Not sure if i'll ever 'come out' at work, in my present profession(s), but i've been considering a career move where if i CD it would not be the most unexpected thing in the world.

Kind of early for me to answer the question- but i'm really having a lot of fun being in the middle of changing, and the support from everyone here is really good!

Ciao, bella!

[GBJoker]

Apparently, since joining this forum in... October, I think... I've become more cynical, more skeptical, more... a-hole-ish. Basically, I've regressed, a LOT.

My female half is buried even farther than ever before, and there is right now, no light at the end of the tunnel. Within a month of joining, I went out dressed in public for the first time in my life, and have not worn female clothes since.

Part of it is because my joining has coincided with my finally being able to go back to school after three years, and part of it IS because of this website, unfortunately.

[arbon]

When I came here it was to try and be better accepting as myself as a man that crossdressed and to figure out how to enjoy it more, that I would be able to find some sort of contentment in that and not have to take it any further.

When I came here I was terrified at the thought of going out in public. I thought if it was found out everyone would hate me. I did not think I would be able to live with myself.

Since then I realized I was not really a crossdresser but transsexual. I knew already, just did not want to face it, wanted to find a way out of it- for family.

Since then i am completely out and transitioning in my community and came to realize that my previous belief that everyone would hate me was wrong. I've learned there are a lot of open minded and accepting people out there. Some real jerks to. But I learn not to care so much about what they think. And came to realize that I feel so much better about myself when I can express myself as I am and not have to pretend to be a guy.

[Richelle423]

This site has helped me so much. It has helped me to break barriers I could not have imagined. I am more daring now though I still won't wear make-up or a wig.Maybe that is the next step.Me wearing women's jeans at work last week was a thrill for me. Take it a little at a time One day at a time...
I know i'll never pass but whatever I do at home in private is my business.