KateSpade83
02-04-2012, 11:42 PM
My Crossdressing Dreams:
1: Have a large beautiful collection of skirt suits. Came true. Most bought after 2005 when I got a job and got off SSDI so I could buy a lot of stuff. During 2007 to 2009 the skirt suits were so beautiful during that era that I bought more than $15,000 worth of skirt suits. I was a size 4 during that time but I mostly bought a size 6 in case I got fat. Good thing as I got lazy to exercise in 2009 and I went from 145 to 162 lbs today. Now I can only fit my oversized size 4 and they are many I can't fit anymore. Good thing I can fit all my size 6's so I'm not to pissed off. My goal this 2012 is to lose weight maybe to 155 or maybe 150 if the weight can come off easily. Nowadays at 160 to 162 lbs I buy size 8's; before I thought I'd be a size 10 or 12 at this size.
2: Have a large Cheerleading Outfit collection... Well, I've been buying cheerleading outfits from ebay and thrift since 2005, and I only got a rare few beautiful outfits that have sleeves / a bodyliner -- that's the only way I like and buy cheerleading outfits. It's because my arms are a bit manly / muscular so I have to have them covered with something... same way with skirtsuits and dresses - I can't go sleeveless. I once tried thrift shopping in a sleeveless dress and I got read easily, so that was the last time I went sleeveless. I probably only have 4 good cheerleading outfits with a bodyliner; the other outfit are sleeveless and I need a matching bodyliner for them or else maybe I should just ebay them.
3. Have a Beautiful Lingerie Collection. Lingerie has changed a lot through the years... It used to be that I had an addiction to the Satin Caress line of bras and panties at Sears, but then those kind of styles were no longer sold... nowadays I look at my old sets and say, "how did I ever like that?" Then I progressed to Wacoals and liked their certain styles but now they no longer make them that way... They're now out of date and I say, "do I still like these sets?' But I have a lot of them and they cost me $68 + tax so that's expensive! Then I accumulated various lingerie brands over the years. I have a big enough collection nowadays that I usually don't feel the need to go out shopping for more. My latest obsession was buying body shapers and now I got 3 of them to tighten me up and I found out that a tight one will give you a good tuck. Probably don't need anymore. But one thing is that I rarely buy anything at Victorias Secret. Since 2005 I've only bought a rare few items from them.
4. Have a Large Schoolgirl collection. Well, mostly I have a large collection of REAL Catholic schoolgirl skirts - my fetish! I live by a Catholic Schoolgirl HS and I was so vvery happy to acquire their same skirt from a nearby thrift shop! Real schoolgirl skirts that fit you are obtained by rare hard luck thrift shopping; it took me years to accumulate my collection through thrift so this is one of the treasures I look for whenever I go thrift shopping. Otherwise, I'd like to get a Japanese schoolgirl outfit from ebay and a real Filipino schoolgirl's outfit or skirtsuit!
Dresses? I'm not much into dresses but I collected a rare few of them that I like the styles. I'm into vintage 90's Jr dresses that are flared and I probably have a good enough collection of them obtained through thrift shopping.
Goth? An unrealized dream. I probably only have 4 goth outfits, and most of the goth girl outfits I see are ugly...
It was never my Crossdressing Dream to be passable. For many years I was a "guy in a dress" crossdresser. Only after I discovered this forum in 2005 did I try on wigs, makeup, and jewelry and it started to freak me out that I'm beautiful and passable enough to shop as a woman. Then I used to shop as a woman as an adventure. Lately that died down as I did not want to attract men. I only go out to shop as a woman if I want to try on clothes or if I'm too embarrassed to go into Dress Barn or AnnTaylor etc to look around.
The worst moment could have possibly happened to me Feb 2009. I had a full blown paranoid episode where I thought crossdressing was cursed by demons. I thought I could change but when it came time to purge I cried out to God, "Can I kept the clothes for a woman my size?" It's a very long story of my paranoid episodes but the worst damge has NOT been done... imagine purging $20,000+ of beautiful hard to get skirt suits, cheerrleading outfits, and lingerie. I seriously thought of quitting crossdressing but GOD did not help me enough to quit crossdressing - HE did not give me a good career job in this bad economy and so far now I've been unemployed since Aug 15 2008. So I would have been hurting tremendously bad by purging an expensive clothes collection, - like my most expensive skirt suit was a St John one for $918 and I was gonna give that to Goodwill? It was breaking my HEART! And then I thought about going on this forum and converting all of you crossdressers into QUITTING crossdressing - but I figured I could be banned for doing that. I thought about getting myself banned too [I don't want to be banned now]. But nowadays I resign myself to crossdressing because GOD doesn't bless me to be any better.
So what are your realized and unrealized crossdressing dreams?
1: Have a large beautiful collection of skirt suits. Came true. Most bought after 2005 when I got a job and got off SSDI so I could buy a lot of stuff. During 2007 to 2009 the skirt suits were so beautiful during that era that I bought more than $15,000 worth of skirt suits. I was a size 4 during that time but I mostly bought a size 6 in case I got fat. Good thing as I got lazy to exercise in 2009 and I went from 145 to 162 lbs today. Now I can only fit my oversized size 4 and they are many I can't fit anymore. Good thing I can fit all my size 6's so I'm not to pissed off. My goal this 2012 is to lose weight maybe to 155 or maybe 150 if the weight can come off easily. Nowadays at 160 to 162 lbs I buy size 8's; before I thought I'd be a size 10 or 12 at this size.
2: Have a large Cheerleading Outfit collection... Well, I've been buying cheerleading outfits from ebay and thrift since 2005, and I only got a rare few beautiful outfits that have sleeves / a bodyliner -- that's the only way I like and buy cheerleading outfits. It's because my arms are a bit manly / muscular so I have to have them covered with something... same way with skirtsuits and dresses - I can't go sleeveless. I once tried thrift shopping in a sleeveless dress and I got read easily, so that was the last time I went sleeveless. I probably only have 4 good cheerleading outfits with a bodyliner; the other outfit are sleeveless and I need a matching bodyliner for them or else maybe I should just ebay them.
3. Have a Beautiful Lingerie Collection. Lingerie has changed a lot through the years... It used to be that I had an addiction to the Satin Caress line of bras and panties at Sears, but then those kind of styles were no longer sold... nowadays I look at my old sets and say, "how did I ever like that?" Then I progressed to Wacoals and liked their certain styles but now they no longer make them that way... They're now out of date and I say, "do I still like these sets?' But I have a lot of them and they cost me $68 + tax so that's expensive! Then I accumulated various lingerie brands over the years. I have a big enough collection nowadays that I usually don't feel the need to go out shopping for more. My latest obsession was buying body shapers and now I got 3 of them to tighten me up and I found out that a tight one will give you a good tuck. Probably don't need anymore. But one thing is that I rarely buy anything at Victorias Secret. Since 2005 I've only bought a rare few items from them.
4. Have a Large Schoolgirl collection. Well, mostly I have a large collection of REAL Catholic schoolgirl skirts - my fetish! I live by a Catholic Schoolgirl HS and I was so vvery happy to acquire their same skirt from a nearby thrift shop! Real schoolgirl skirts that fit you are obtained by rare hard luck thrift shopping; it took me years to accumulate my collection through thrift so this is one of the treasures I look for whenever I go thrift shopping. Otherwise, I'd like to get a Japanese schoolgirl outfit from ebay and a real Filipino schoolgirl's outfit or skirtsuit!
Dresses? I'm not much into dresses but I collected a rare few of them that I like the styles. I'm into vintage 90's Jr dresses that are flared and I probably have a good enough collection of them obtained through thrift shopping.
Goth? An unrealized dream. I probably only have 4 goth outfits, and most of the goth girl outfits I see are ugly...
It was never my Crossdressing Dream to be passable. For many years I was a "guy in a dress" crossdresser. Only after I discovered this forum in 2005 did I try on wigs, makeup, and jewelry and it started to freak me out that I'm beautiful and passable enough to shop as a woman. Then I used to shop as a woman as an adventure. Lately that died down as I did not want to attract men. I only go out to shop as a woman if I want to try on clothes or if I'm too embarrassed to go into Dress Barn or AnnTaylor etc to look around.
The worst moment could have possibly happened to me Feb 2009. I had a full blown paranoid episode where I thought crossdressing was cursed by demons. I thought I could change but when it came time to purge I cried out to God, "Can I kept the clothes for a woman my size?" It's a very long story of my paranoid episodes but the worst damge has NOT been done... imagine purging $20,000+ of beautiful hard to get skirt suits, cheerrleading outfits, and lingerie. I seriously thought of quitting crossdressing but GOD did not help me enough to quit crossdressing - HE did not give me a good career job in this bad economy and so far now I've been unemployed since Aug 15 2008. So I would have been hurting tremendously bad by purging an expensive clothes collection, - like my most expensive skirt suit was a St John one for $918 and I was gonna give that to Goodwill? It was breaking my HEART! And then I thought about going on this forum and converting all of you crossdressers into QUITTING crossdressing - but I figured I could be banned for doing that. I thought about getting myself banned too [I don't want to be banned now]. But nowadays I resign myself to crossdressing because GOD doesn't bless me to be any better.
So what are your realized and unrealized crossdressing dreams?