Frédérique
02-20-2012, 11:16 PM
"Those who find ugly meanings in beautiful things are corrupt without being charming. This is a fault. Those who find beautiful meanings in beautiful things are the cultivated. For these there is hope. They are the elect to whom beautiful things mean only Beauty." (Oscar Wilde)
Depending on how you look at it, or what side you’re on, or what you have chosen to believe, or see, or feel, MtF crossdressing is either the most beautiful thing imaginable, or the ugliest thing a boy or a male could do. I tend to agree with the above-quoted text, and say that those who find “ugly” meanings in relatively innocent crossdressing are indeed corrupt, without charm, and, it follows, beneath my contempt. I’ve been away from active participation on this site for a short time, looking into other interests that nonetheless involve crossdressing in a peripheral sense, and I have bumped into the ugly backlash against what we do, or what we aspire to do. To me, crossdressing is a beautiful expression, a magical world of make-believe that somehow reflects and enhances reality. To others, it is a crime against masculinity, wrong on many levels, akin to a virus that requires eradication if humanity is to survive and prosper...
I beg to differ, in fact I insist MtF crossdressing exists because of the presence of ugliness, or the absence of charm, and it takes root in an attempt to equalize the situation. I should explain that I have been away, in another world, and I’m still there right now, not too far away from the world of crossdressing and all its real-world consequences. At times I take a little vacation from CD’ing and look into other things, only to find crossdressing under a rock, where the ugly world puts it, or keeps it, lest young people, or impressionable types, discover it and “become” corrupted. It’s the ugly people who are corrupted, not US, but there’s no sense trying to explain this position, or this mantra of positivism and beauty, to those who cannot see or feel. In many ways, I exist, as I am, because of ugliness, even though the process of transformation via crossdressing can be very arduous under the circumstances. I must dress to be beautiful, in every aspect of that word, and combat ugliness. In a better, more positive world there would be no need for this conflict...
I’m sure that when a normal person, steeped in ugliness to a certain degree, encounters MtF crossdressing in one form or another, they immediately attach “ugly meanings” to it. These are topics that are discussed ad nauseum around these parts, reflecting barely hidden beliefs and/or prejudices that nonetheless reinforce a “bent” towards ugliness. It is generally assumed that MtF CD’ers are homosexual, and homosexuality is “bad” or “wrong” these days – the phrase “That is so GAY!” spells that out quite clearly, I think. Of course, effeminacy is equally wrong, according to the many purveyors of ugliness, and being a sissy is beyond the pale (even here). To me, effeminacy is beautiful, and I will continue to be effeminate in order to BE beautiful. Needless to say, I am also a sissy – I would say I’m “proud” to be a sissy, but I simply AM, and there can be no other way. I might as well say I’m proud to be alive, but I had nothing to do with that, either. I live in a world where I cannot be, as I am, for fear of the ugly world reducing me to tears – THIS is a fault, and something is terribly wrong, I’m afraid...
“Those who find beautiful meanings in beautiful things are the cultivated” – I think “beauty” is open to interpretation, but how did I come up with my appreciation of beauty when all around me think that MY beautiful things are ugly? Perhaps I shouldn’t think too much about it, but I could be twirling around in my cute dress as I do my daily routine OUT THERE, rather than being content with a few moments of lovely peace in my closeted rooms. Since cultivation implies developing (or improving) oneself, seeking to become familiar with, or refinement, in this case via dressing and gender incorporation, how can this be a BAD (i.e. ugly) thing? I insist that what I do, and what all other MtF crossdressers do, is fueled by a need for beauty, according to each individual’s desires. I’m aware that some crossdressing is inherently ugly, or self-abusive, or a means to an (ugly) end, but, if you’re looking for beauty via crossdressing, dressing-up, playing at being a girl, or what have you, there are some who do this purely for beautiful meanings...
To me, MtF crossdressing can only be beautiful, so I see it that way. When I witness a depiction in the media that is ugly, I dismiss it out of hand. When I see a depiction of CD’ing in the media that is innocent and beautiful (and this is extremely rare), I embrace it, hugging it tightly, pressing it against my fake bosom and using it to reinforce my mental platform – in doing so I can stand up straight (good posture is required for crossdressing) and maintain my equilibrium. Just recently I saw a very innocent and beautiful depiction of crossdressing – so beautiful that it made me feel wonderful to be a MtF crossdresser, playing at being a girl simply for the expression of doing so, and letting the feelings of beauty wash over me. Does that make me one of the “elect?” It really doesn’t matter to me, as long as I can feel this way by dressing this way, and the depiction I referred to echoes these feelings. Of course, when the ugly people, representing the real world and all its real problems, were shown this little slice of beauty, cries of derision filled the room. The reaction was of angry condemnation, and the words “Wrong, wrong, WRONG!!!” could be heard, over and over, like a mantra of ugliness. You see what you want to see, or, in this case, NOT see, but hope (remember hope?) springs eternal...
On the wall, not far from my laptop, I have a little self-portrait painting I made of me (duh), as a boy in a cute dress. I can’t show this to anyone, for obvious reasons (outlined above), but I think it’s charming, innocent, and, needless to say...beautiful. It’s my own special way of confronting the ugly side of humanity...
Do you think MtF crossdressing is a beautiful thing, or do you have...ahem...reservations about it? :thinking:
Depending on how you look at it, or what side you’re on, or what you have chosen to believe, or see, or feel, MtF crossdressing is either the most beautiful thing imaginable, or the ugliest thing a boy or a male could do. I tend to agree with the above-quoted text, and say that those who find “ugly” meanings in relatively innocent crossdressing are indeed corrupt, without charm, and, it follows, beneath my contempt. I’ve been away from active participation on this site for a short time, looking into other interests that nonetheless involve crossdressing in a peripheral sense, and I have bumped into the ugly backlash against what we do, or what we aspire to do. To me, crossdressing is a beautiful expression, a magical world of make-believe that somehow reflects and enhances reality. To others, it is a crime against masculinity, wrong on many levels, akin to a virus that requires eradication if humanity is to survive and prosper...
I beg to differ, in fact I insist MtF crossdressing exists because of the presence of ugliness, or the absence of charm, and it takes root in an attempt to equalize the situation. I should explain that I have been away, in another world, and I’m still there right now, not too far away from the world of crossdressing and all its real-world consequences. At times I take a little vacation from CD’ing and look into other things, only to find crossdressing under a rock, where the ugly world puts it, or keeps it, lest young people, or impressionable types, discover it and “become” corrupted. It’s the ugly people who are corrupted, not US, but there’s no sense trying to explain this position, or this mantra of positivism and beauty, to those who cannot see or feel. In many ways, I exist, as I am, because of ugliness, even though the process of transformation via crossdressing can be very arduous under the circumstances. I must dress to be beautiful, in every aspect of that word, and combat ugliness. In a better, more positive world there would be no need for this conflict...
I’m sure that when a normal person, steeped in ugliness to a certain degree, encounters MtF crossdressing in one form or another, they immediately attach “ugly meanings” to it. These are topics that are discussed ad nauseum around these parts, reflecting barely hidden beliefs and/or prejudices that nonetheless reinforce a “bent” towards ugliness. It is generally assumed that MtF CD’ers are homosexual, and homosexuality is “bad” or “wrong” these days – the phrase “That is so GAY!” spells that out quite clearly, I think. Of course, effeminacy is equally wrong, according to the many purveyors of ugliness, and being a sissy is beyond the pale (even here). To me, effeminacy is beautiful, and I will continue to be effeminate in order to BE beautiful. Needless to say, I am also a sissy – I would say I’m “proud” to be a sissy, but I simply AM, and there can be no other way. I might as well say I’m proud to be alive, but I had nothing to do with that, either. I live in a world where I cannot be, as I am, for fear of the ugly world reducing me to tears – THIS is a fault, and something is terribly wrong, I’m afraid...
“Those who find beautiful meanings in beautiful things are the cultivated” – I think “beauty” is open to interpretation, but how did I come up with my appreciation of beauty when all around me think that MY beautiful things are ugly? Perhaps I shouldn’t think too much about it, but I could be twirling around in my cute dress as I do my daily routine OUT THERE, rather than being content with a few moments of lovely peace in my closeted rooms. Since cultivation implies developing (or improving) oneself, seeking to become familiar with, or refinement, in this case via dressing and gender incorporation, how can this be a BAD (i.e. ugly) thing? I insist that what I do, and what all other MtF crossdressers do, is fueled by a need for beauty, according to each individual’s desires. I’m aware that some crossdressing is inherently ugly, or self-abusive, or a means to an (ugly) end, but, if you’re looking for beauty via crossdressing, dressing-up, playing at being a girl, or what have you, there are some who do this purely for beautiful meanings...
To me, MtF crossdressing can only be beautiful, so I see it that way. When I witness a depiction in the media that is ugly, I dismiss it out of hand. When I see a depiction of CD’ing in the media that is innocent and beautiful (and this is extremely rare), I embrace it, hugging it tightly, pressing it against my fake bosom and using it to reinforce my mental platform – in doing so I can stand up straight (good posture is required for crossdressing) and maintain my equilibrium. Just recently I saw a very innocent and beautiful depiction of crossdressing – so beautiful that it made me feel wonderful to be a MtF crossdresser, playing at being a girl simply for the expression of doing so, and letting the feelings of beauty wash over me. Does that make me one of the “elect?” It really doesn’t matter to me, as long as I can feel this way by dressing this way, and the depiction I referred to echoes these feelings. Of course, when the ugly people, representing the real world and all its real problems, were shown this little slice of beauty, cries of derision filled the room. The reaction was of angry condemnation, and the words “Wrong, wrong, WRONG!!!” could be heard, over and over, like a mantra of ugliness. You see what you want to see, or, in this case, NOT see, but hope (remember hope?) springs eternal...
On the wall, not far from my laptop, I have a little self-portrait painting I made of me (duh), as a boy in a cute dress. I can’t show this to anyone, for obvious reasons (outlined above), but I think it’s charming, innocent, and, needless to say...beautiful. It’s my own special way of confronting the ugly side of humanity...
Do you think MtF crossdressing is a beautiful thing, or do you have...ahem...reservations about it? :thinking: