Jackie Bee
03-03-2012, 03:27 PM
Good day lady's, I'v been very busy lately and find it very hard to get in here as I type so slow but I found this interesting I hope you do.
This links 2 of my previous post's together "Something amazing or does it happen all the time ??" and "gender euphoria".
I was sending an e-mail to a friend and while writing had one of those realization moments..
"Iv cried more in the past 3 months than the past 45 years. I thought it was a girl power thing but Its not its a human thing. When I was a child before becoming a
teenager I would cry, if I was happy, said if I scraped my knee. Nobody told me boys don't cry, so I did. When I became a teenager I stopped, I found out if I cry I
would get called names like crybaby so I stopped. Girl power is allowing me to re-ignite dormant feeling. These feelings of empathy, sadness, joy, they are not
magnified they are just returning to where they were when I was a child, before I was told by society I had to suppress them. Girls didn't get that message
"shes crying, well shes a girl, girls cry". Those feelings are already in me just suppressed. Strong emotions isn't a girl thing its a human thing boys have just had
it beaten down in them or there expression of feeling are directed more towards the negative,aggressive emotions . Witch as we know is encouraged in the male
in our society as it is in many others.
"I am more of a man now that I am like the child I was". Possibly, I don't really know but it sounds good and its a "Bee" original..
I started having emotional moments 2-3 weeks after I started going out.
"The intense "high" experienced when an individual cross dresses (especially the first few times) is known as gender euphoria. This "high" may be experienced
each time a person dresses as the opposite gender. It may take months, or even years for gender euphoria to diminish. Even for those who have cross dressed
in part for years, gender euphoria can still be experienced during that first exploration of full-enfemme".
"The act of crossdressing may cause the brain to release endorphin's. The intensity of this high may diminish over time, and the individual may seek additional
stimulation by going out more in public, taking risks, or by prolonging the cross dressing experience".
I have been experiencing an euphoric state for over 3 month's. Lost it for 1 day during that time. Its actually an effort to do day to day things as crossdressing is constantly in my thoughts but I'm forcing myself to do them. Could it be that the constant fixation is whats keeping the euphoria going as the one day I lost it I was concentrating on a very different issue for several hours and wow, girly high gone.
"Let's get back to the endorphins. These are the "feel-good," pain-relieving chemicals released by the brain, and they are responsible for the euphoric feeling
known as "runner's high." The interesting thing about endorphins is that they also work to suppress some of the hormonal steps leading to testosterone
production. This helps to explain the findings from studies of extreme endurance athletes wherein high levels of endorphins and cortisol are associated with low
testosterone levels, reduced sperm counts, and reduced sex drive".
"Testosterone Hormones are chemicals that circulate in the body affecting cells and the nervous system, including the brain. Testosterone is a steroid hormone
from the androgen group, which is most linked to the prenatal and postnatal development of the male gender and physique, which in turn has been linked on average to more physical aggression in many species".
I'm not a Doctor (although I have been a naughty nurse once or twice) but the next time I have a checkup I will have my testosterone level looked at. Diminished testosterone could have something to do with the return of my softer emotions such as Empathy, Sympathy, Compassion, Love.
Who knows, I just find it all very interesting.
This links 2 of my previous post's together "Something amazing or does it happen all the time ??" and "gender euphoria".
I was sending an e-mail to a friend and while writing had one of those realization moments..
"Iv cried more in the past 3 months than the past 45 years. I thought it was a girl power thing but Its not its a human thing. When I was a child before becoming a
teenager I would cry, if I was happy, said if I scraped my knee. Nobody told me boys don't cry, so I did. When I became a teenager I stopped, I found out if I cry I
would get called names like crybaby so I stopped. Girl power is allowing me to re-ignite dormant feeling. These feelings of empathy, sadness, joy, they are not
magnified they are just returning to where they were when I was a child, before I was told by society I had to suppress them. Girls didn't get that message
"shes crying, well shes a girl, girls cry". Those feelings are already in me just suppressed. Strong emotions isn't a girl thing its a human thing boys have just had
it beaten down in them or there expression of feeling are directed more towards the negative,aggressive emotions . Witch as we know is encouraged in the male
in our society as it is in many others.
"I am more of a man now that I am like the child I was". Possibly, I don't really know but it sounds good and its a "Bee" original..
I started having emotional moments 2-3 weeks after I started going out.
"The intense "high" experienced when an individual cross dresses (especially the first few times) is known as gender euphoria. This "high" may be experienced
each time a person dresses as the opposite gender. It may take months, or even years for gender euphoria to diminish. Even for those who have cross dressed
in part for years, gender euphoria can still be experienced during that first exploration of full-enfemme".
"The act of crossdressing may cause the brain to release endorphin's. The intensity of this high may diminish over time, and the individual may seek additional
stimulation by going out more in public, taking risks, or by prolonging the cross dressing experience".
I have been experiencing an euphoric state for over 3 month's. Lost it for 1 day during that time. Its actually an effort to do day to day things as crossdressing is constantly in my thoughts but I'm forcing myself to do them. Could it be that the constant fixation is whats keeping the euphoria going as the one day I lost it I was concentrating on a very different issue for several hours and wow, girly high gone.
"Let's get back to the endorphins. These are the "feel-good," pain-relieving chemicals released by the brain, and they are responsible for the euphoric feeling
known as "runner's high." The interesting thing about endorphins is that they also work to suppress some of the hormonal steps leading to testosterone
production. This helps to explain the findings from studies of extreme endurance athletes wherein high levels of endorphins and cortisol are associated with low
testosterone levels, reduced sperm counts, and reduced sex drive".
"Testosterone Hormones are chemicals that circulate in the body affecting cells and the nervous system, including the brain. Testosterone is a steroid hormone
from the androgen group, which is most linked to the prenatal and postnatal development of the male gender and physique, which in turn has been linked on average to more physical aggression in many species".
I'm not a Doctor (although I have been a naughty nurse once or twice) but the next time I have a checkup I will have my testosterone level looked at. Diminished testosterone could have something to do with the return of my softer emotions such as Empathy, Sympathy, Compassion, Love.
Who knows, I just find it all very interesting.