OMG!!! I 'm a TRANNY!!!

[Anne2345]

When the opportunity presents itself, I like to dress in the clothes of a woman. Dresses, skirts, women’s jeans, blouses, sweaters, bras, panties, you name it, and I will gladly wear it.

I am also a makeup junkie, and I put forth exceptional effort and take great pride in applying my makeup just so.

As for my shape, I transform my body through the addition of various pads, breast forms, and curve accentuating garb.

I can even change my hair at a moment’s notice simply by donning a wig.

In this regard, instead of shying away from my own innate femininity and inner woman, I do exactly the opposite and seek her out, whether I consciously choose to or not.

Even more so, I proactively search for and explore the femaleness within my essence.

And I do these things regardless of the fact that I am a male.

Society, however, does not approve. Boys are raised to wear blue, and girls conditioned to wear pink. Society frowns at deviance, fears the unknown, and seeks conformity among its members.

As such, I am not supposed to apply my own makeup, wear dresses, shave my legs and underarms, walk around in high heels, or paint my nails in sexy, alluring, and magical colors. Yet I do all of these things and more.

So just what the heck am I doing?

This is the million dollar question. But it is also a loaded question, a trick question, and a question to which the answer is ever elusive, and always out of reach. In this, the answer is most likely unknowable.

Still, despite the fear, the joy, the sadness, the happiness, the crying, and the laughing, I seem to always come back to this very basic, generic, and ridiculously simple, yet amazingly complex question - why?

So far, the only answer I have come up with is “just because.” As in I am a complete and total tranny “just because.” As in I am hopelessly a tranny to the core “just because.” As in I always have been, and will always remain a tranny “just because.”

Does this answer, though, suffice? I suppose, given that there is very little or no alternative, it must. After all, it just is, and I just am.

But sometimes, when I really think about it, I mean really, really think about it, it just blows me away. OMG!!! I’m a tranny!!!!

[STACY B]

:eek: :eek: :eek: Not ,,, Me ? Im a FEMALE impersonater !! Now ,, Cuz I impersonate females an try to look like em,, So ,,,,,,, HOW ,, DO,,, YA,, LIKE ME NOW !!!! Now that Im on my way ,,, :thumbsup: :battingeyelashes: :battingeyelashes:

[Marleena]

Anne Congrats! Oh.. and thanks for not making me scroll too much!:)

On the bright side of this you are a pretty tranny! You have found your answer, some of us are still looking for our answer or denying it. So this is a good thing. You didn't choose it, it chose you. You can question why all you want and there will be no answer, it is what it is. I hope having the answer helps you move on. :)

[Karren H]

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[Bree-asaurus]

Now go out there and be yourself! :D


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I'm a tranny and I'm not gender independent. I'm female :P

[Pinky188]

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Exactly my thoughts! That is all.

[Marleena]

Okay then! I know you... are but what am I? *sticks tongue out*.lol.

[Emma Leigh]

As Karen said "labels", suggest you stop thinking about it Anne and just enjoy being yourself

[Bree-asaurus]

Well, labels are important in this case. If she's to see a therapist, get a recommendation for hormones, gender changes, surgeries, she has to know she's transexual.

[dsmth]

I know what you're asking but I think the answer is probably similar to the answer to the question: "Why am I me as opposed to someone else?".

Part of the problem of answering this question is the presumption that there has to be a reason for doing something that defies the current social expectations of birth-sex. But I think the problem is with this presumption.

What if, as I now believe, every individual is simply different.

Not including the more progressive parents out there these days, when a new individual is born he/she is given a "script" as to how to behave in the world. That individual either might simply accept that script and play out that role, as it was given to them, until they die, not knowing any better for better or for worse. But these days more and more people are self-aware enough to be able to step outside of themselves and question the script.

Once you question the script you realize that it's up to you how you choose to live your life. It is a step towards self-actualization.

The cross-dressing thing is just one example of self-actualization for an individual that is independent of what those around that individual EXPECT that person to become/behave/be.

[Gillian Gigs]

Karren, I loved the cartoon. Anne, I prefer gender enhanced. Being a gender enigma would be better than some names that I have heard.LOL

So you don't fit into the usual category of things, GOOD for you, who wants to be same old, same old, anyway!

[LeaP]

Dear Little Annie Tranny,

There's an odd joy in accepting what was once appalling, in false ideas falling away. You're describing a growing acceptance. Not the realization. Acceptance. I had a similar moment recently. Having retreated for a solitary break to a server room at work at a particularly difficult personal moment, I desperately wanted my appearance and dress to change. And then I started laughing. "You really are a tranny" I said out loud. And it still makes me laugh. That's a radical change from the "you f'in tranny" I spit at myself a few months ago.

The really odd thing is how the trappings fall away. Every last thing you mentioned starts to matter less and less - the clothes, make-up, hair - all of it. Oh, you still want it at some level and need it somehow, but not in the way you used to.

So what does "maybe for now" mean? That acceptance of trannyhood may not be the endpoint. As with "crossdresser", you may wind up looking at "tranny" as a partial description or point of view rather than a definitive identity.

Lea

[Emma Leigh]

Well, labels are important in this case. If she's to see a therapist, get a recommendation for hormones, gender changes, surgeries, she has to know she's transexual.

Could be wrong Bree, but I did,nt read any of that into the question

[Kaz]

Labels are strange things. At a societal level they enhance stereotypes and promote two things through one major impact. The impact is that of 'tribes', which plays into the natural way that humans tend to inter-relate - we like to belong to a tribe (well... not all of us...LOL! But that is by definition a tribe!)... but the stereotypes predilect two 'tribes' of thought if you are outside the particular tribe concerned.... one is tolerance for and the other is hatred towards.

My mindset has always been that I do not belong to any 'tribe'. This started in my teens and despite my efforts through life I am still 'tribeless' to a large extent. I subscribe to many tribes though as subsets of who I am - I am a muso, for example, and professionally I have a passion for the learning environment (most academics don't!)...

So is seeking a holistic answer to our tendency to like women's clothes a tribal or an independent act?

I have a great affinity with this site and have some very 'close' on-line friends... so I guess I am part of a tribe... but we also differ... so many tribes?..

At the end of the day I am just me and I am who I am... On that I will answer to whatever belief system I choose to adhere to or indeed deviate from...!

Great post Anne! And just to re-iterate... on some days I am just a tranny... on others I am woman trapped in a guys body... on others, I just get on with what needs to be done and somehow seem to be able to manage Kaz-time... but then there is the desert...

[IamSara]

Now go out there and be yourself! :D



I'm a tranny and I'm not gender independent. I'm female :P

Exactly!!!!! I love the cartoon and I love your commnet Bree. If only most of us could. But life as we have it stops us sometimes.

[Karinsamatha]

Kinda libarating when you come to that conclusion - after you get over the :eek: shock of it. At least it was for me. All I can say to you is go have a good time and do the correct thing Go Shopping!

[Debglam]

Damn! I was going to come up with some smart aleck reply but. . . Anyway, I get the OMG, but the more I think about this stuff, the more I think of it in the category of being blue eyed, left handed, brown skinned, etc. etc. It is what it is so let’s make the best of it.

Baby, I WAS born this way!

[juno]

Do you ever think of how silly men's behavior and devotion is with respect to professional sports?? They watch people who they don't know running a ball back and forth, accomplishing nothing. An activity meant to improve health is used as an excuse to sit and drink beer. And they wear crazy body paint and yell crazy things. Why does any of that make any more sense than crossdressing?? Most men think professional sports makes sense, but I don't think they can offer a logical explanation why.

Many of the things people do to enjoy life are not some rational recipe to achieve happiness. They just make you happy because they do. Don't waste too much time analyzing WHY you like crossdressing, any more than you think about why you like or dislike brocolli. Just be thankful you have something in life that gives you happiness.

[SusieSmith]

to me you are just normal...

[docrobbysherry]

Anne, I started dressing 15 years ago out of the blue! Altho, I've NEVER cared what anyone calls me because I dress, one question CONSTANTLY RATTLES AROUND IN MY MIND!

WHY!?

And sadly, the answer, "Just because", doesn't suffice in my case!

[Jacqueline Winona]

I do a lot of those things, Juno (not the body paint but pretty much everything else.) :) And no, it doesn't make any sense to think Josh Beckett, David Ortiz, Tyreke Evans, or anyone else on my team can hear me yelling at the tv. But it is fun! As for why, for me it's competition, instant gratification, and when I was little after my parent's divorces it was the one thing that I could always connect with my dad about. My stepfather hated sports, I hated him but loved my dad, who also loved sports.

I do get your point, though, CD's and TS's are just unconventional ore: society's norms, and some people don't and can't understand why, but really our dressing is not harmful or destructive like some people's obsession with sports (e.g., the Alabama fan poisoning Auburn's trees, the other Alabama fan who shot a bullet past his kids ear after an Alabama loss).
Anne, as always your thoughtfulness is unrivaled! With this issue, if you can, just live in the moment and enjoy being Anne, no need to even contemplate why.

[Sally24]

Anne, I always love your composition style and how you manage to describe the indescribable feelings and thoughts we have. I myself have gotten into an everyday schedule that often has me forgetting that this is not your average life I am living. And yes, I have my OMG moments when I am in a crowded mall or walking down a busy Boston street and I realize how I could have never forseen this future of mine. I don't pretend to understand it. I just try to squeeze every ounce of joy from this opportunity and do my best to avoid any possible pain.

I don't shy away from tranny but I call myself and friends t-girls. I think it describes better at least how I feel about myself.

[Kate Simmons]

Just remember nothing is ever by accident my friend. There is always a purpose behind what we do.:)

[KimberlyJean]

I suppose seeing as how you put it that way I am too! Definately gives a girl something to think about. Accepting myself is probably my biggest challenge.

[ArleneRaquel]

Annie,
I love for opening statement. Posts, such as yours, make me so happy.

[Brittany CD]

I wish I had the answer to that Anne. I really wish I did so I could understand myself better

[Aprilrain]

Could be wrong Bree, but I did,nt read any of that into the question

you wouldn't know it from this post but Anne has told us in past post that she believes she is TS, I think this is why Bree brought it up but I could be wrong

Anne your asking the wrong question. As enticing as why is to ask the question you should be asking yourself is HOW!

[sissystephanie]

Annie, I don't know how old you are but I bet that I have been a CD longer than you have been alive. I started when I was 6 years old and I am now approaching 80. In all that time I have never cared for the label of "tranny!" I am one because I do crossdress, but I crossdress because I like to wear feminine clothes. I dress to please myself, and I bet you do to!!

So don't worry about being a "tranny," just dress the way YOU want and be yourself!! BTW, you are a darn good looking girl!!

[Marleena]

Anne I just hope you are celebrating your new found trannyness <--- new word.

We'll just keep calling you Anne though.:)

Disclaimer normally I wouldn't wish being TS on anybody but Anne you've discovered who you are after fighting with it for a long time. You sound relieved by finding your answer.

[Bree-asaurus]

Could be wrong Bree, but I did,nt read any of that into the question

I read more into it because I've read more about what she's going through. :)


Disclaimer normally I wouldn't wish being TS on anybody but Anne you've discovered who you are after fighting with it for a long time. You sound relieved by finding your answer.

Me neither. This is not a fate I would hope for anybody. But finding yourself, regardless of who you are, is. :)

[Krististeph]

Who knew? ;-)

Nice post Anne, as usual. I smiled through the whole thing.

[Frédérique]

OMG!!! I’m a tranny!!!!

Congratulations – you’re MORE than just a crossdresser (but I already knew that)! :clap:

PS - Don't let the bullies talk you out of it... :naughty

[Barbara Ella]

As the saying goes, Pull on your big girl panties and to out there and just do it. Anne, I am so glad you have so distinctly found out who/what you are. Not all of us can so distinctly place our being as you have, although we are trying each and every day. I applaud your arrival. I can only hope that I will find my self and my place in all of this in the near future. I only fear that i have found myself so late in life that I will not have the benefit of time to settle in on just who I am and where I fit into this spectrum of our lives. I do so envy you if you truly have found your place. i hope that you will be able to settle, rest, and grow with some peace in your life. I have found many of your posts emotionally challenging and deeply personal to me, and this one is no different. I cannot call myself a tranny as of yet, but if I am, i will embrace it with my being, as i know i am at the least a cross dresser, what comes beyond that, I cannot say for certain, but i love who i am. and I love/respect you for showing us who you are.

Babes

[Anna Lorree]

I have been reading your post as I sit cross-legged on my bed and tweeze my eyebrows. Where you are now is where many people on this board have been before and where many more will be in the future. Honestly, where you are right now scares the $}{!+ out of me...

Anna

[ronda]

i am what iam because thats the way god made me only i can change that
Anne get up every morning put on your bra, panties and makeup and be happy with your life

[TGMarla]

The heck with the labels. That's not what this is about. Yeah, there are times I feel the exact same way. What, this is something like a one in twenty occurrance, and I'm one of them? Me? I look at myself all decked out in a pretty dress, with hosiery and high heels, pretty hair, jewelry, and boobs - boobs! - and I think to myself, "How extraordinary it is that I do this!" It's unbelievable! I'm one of those trannies. Me. A transvestite. A crossdresser! I'm wearing a dress!!! Sometimes I've just got to pinch myself in order to realize the reality of it all, that I am indeed one of those people you read about every now and then. I'm one of those trans persons.

Heavy sigh. But I accept it within myself. I do this. Willingly. And I like it!

[Sara Jessica]

I think another way to express the exact same thing Anne without sparking any sort of a label debate is that this thing of ours can seem so surreal at times. This is our absolute reality and as normal as it might feel to us lends to much introspection when compared to societal expectations. The things we do, all of those you describe and more, would make mere men shudder (not to mention scoff, mock, laugh, etc). But this is who we are, simple as that...and surreal as that as well.

[Miriam-J]

Beautifully expressed Anne, as you do so often, and so thought-provoking.

I share the sentiments of many who have expressed that the labels are generally useless oversimplifications that can do more harm than good, but also accept that they are often necessary for diagnosis and treatment. We are who we are, and no one fits exactly into the definition provided by another. So long as we don't take the labels too seriously, we can move forward in harmony.

Miriam

[suzy1]

OMG!!! If you are Anne then that means I’m one too! :facepalm: I need a drink.:eek: [Or I need a counsellor?………no, scrub the councillor :raisedeyebrow:]

SUZY

[Kristyn Hill]

We are who we are. I just came to except that I love strolling around in high heels and want to be fully dressed now. What stinks is women crossdress everyday out in public. They throw on a sweatshirt, tennis shoes and a hat and they are cute. We throw on a wig, dress, makeup, hose & some killer high heels and we are the freaks to society. I was born this way. No other explanation.

You look above great Anne.

[GeGe]

Thank you all for being so brave!! You are all awesome !!!

Ther,s nothing like wearing heels it just makes you feel so good and complete!!

[paulinescotlandcd]

Could be wrong Bree, but I did,nt read any of that into the question

Well for what it's worth,me neither.

[suchacutie]

Ah, yes! The OMG moment! There has to be one, of course. After 55 years of accepting that I was "male", within 48 hours we realized that it wasn't that simple. As Karren has said on numerous occasions, it would be some much simpler not to have this feminine part of us. Then we decided to see who Tina was by letting her "loose", and that just verified the OMG moment: We are transgendered. Tina is a t-girl. Tina is here to stay!

Great post Anne! You've said in a terrific way what all of us have felt.

[kimdl93]

Ah, yes! The OMG moment! ........Great post Anne! You've said in a terrific way what all of us have felt.

I'm late to the conversation and find that all I can do is echo, Tina's comment above.

[StarrOfDelite]

I just pulled the manual 3-spd. tranny from my '67 Camaro yesterday, it was stuck in 2nd gear, so I dismantled it. As I was doing this, I thought to myself "I suppose I'm a tranny, stuck in 2nd too!"

Good gear! Smoothly transitions between 1st and 3rd. :D

I never before knew that the '67 came with a 3 speed stick. Is it a 6-cylinder? I thought they all came with the 302 V-8. Just proves that you learn the damndest things on crossdressers forum. lol!

[diannecourtney]

As I said in a number of previous replies to threads this AM, and whether its due to the time change, I believe I have had a second or third coming as a semi-true feminist as i must have the bra and the gaff on to start the day. As a tranny or as a transgenderist, I really can't quess.

[KaTanya]

Anne, as far as whiplash-inducing realizations go, being TS is not a bad thing. It's just very misunderstood. Had you realized you were a Cyberdyne Technologies creation, then I'd be worried.

Either way, I've grown rather fond of your insightfulness, humor, and writing style, and such things know no boundaries or labels.

Hug and a fistpump,
Tanya

[antonia_bee]

I used to be guilty of over thinking it, but at the end of the day if you love, then do it!

[Michelia]

Do you ever think of how silly men's behavior and devotion is with respect to professional sports?? They watch people who they don't know running a ball back and forth, accomplishing nothing. An activity meant to improve health is used as an excuse to sit and drink beer. And they wear crazy body paint and yell crazy things. Why does any of that make any more sense than crossdressing?? Most men think professional sports makes sense, but I don't think they can offer a logical explanation why.

Many of the things people do to enjoy life are not some rational recipe to achieve happiness. They just make you happy because they do. Don't waste too much time analyzing WHY you like crossdressing, any more than you think about why you like or dislike brocolli. Just be thankful you have something in life that gives you happiness.

I love this! And it is so true...Start living your life and don't think about so much. But if I could come out to my best friend, and my brother, and......

[drushin703]

Anne2345:

Excellent. I should have responded much sooner to this excellent post...I was playing possum.Trying to decide which face of man I should show.


The first face is the face of love. Love for the person and the act. The book of John speaks of love for one another if you truly love God. To
embellish; he most certainly was speaking of the love between crossdressers and the love of the act of being a crossdresser. I like when you
said "when the opportunity presents itself".Imagine that opportunity presening itself, all across this board, to every member, at different times
simontaneously....like a trillion stars shining in the same direction.

The second face is the face of function. What started for me as simple curiosity (wandering into moms room, rambling in her girdle drawyer) has
become a needed compulsion.Makeup and wigs came much later but even in those early days, I started to function as a crossdresser. Learning
to hide things, learning what the underside of couch cusions were like, learning to deny, even learning the importance of lying. Growing up, the
need for privacy was paramount..So to function more effectively, I had to grow up in a hurry...I had to get my own place.Crossdressers funcion
so much better on their own.

And finally admitting.."ime a tranny".The final act of this movie has been written and the credits are rolling..Look at me now. I am no more worse for
wear.We, to the suprise of those who really love us, are actually better people, more thoughful citizens, GOOD neighbors, happier people, smiling, caring,
dog loving, child-mentoring, republican, democratic, voting, veteran, musician, painters, poets, church attending and more patriotic. More sissified than
the normal person perhaps,. Chideing those around us with lit cigarettes to not come too close to our pantyhosed legs, perhaps.But better. I too had to admit to
being a tranny and this road I have chosen (thanks r.frost) has made all the difference.....dana


I assure you, I am that goliath...so proclaimed.