Ouch

[Badtranny]

I was wheeled in to the OR at about 9am Thursday morning.

I am not feeling good. The discomfort is overwhelming and I feel like I'm trapped in my own skin. It's uncomfortable to sit, to lie, to stand or to walk.

I also got a lot of body work done, so that's not helping at all.

P.S. I'm smiling

[Frances]

Holy crap! That does not look comfortable. I wish you a speedy recovery.

[Kathryn Martin]

Yikes, I hope this goes away soon. OMG..... makes me very queasy

[LeaP]

I was wheeled in to the OR at about 9am Thursday morning.

I am not feeling good. The discomfort is overwhelming and I feel like I'm trapped in my own skin. It's uncomfortable to sit, to lie, to stand or to walk.

I also got a lot of body work done, so that's not helping at all.

P.S. I'm smiling

Oh, Melissa, you have my prayers. It hurts just to see the picture.

Lea

[ReineD]

OMG, Melissa, I'm sorry for your pain and I hope you get over it real soon. Please keep us updated with your progress.

:hugs:

What did you have done, exactly?

[Aprilrain]

Yay misty! This part sucks but it totally worth it in two months you'll look and feel a hell of a lot better and no more SIRs.
So does this mean full time!!!?

[Kristy_K]

Yay misty! This part sucks but it totally worth it in two months you'll look and feel a hell of a lot better and no more SIRs.
So does this mean full time!!!?

Yeah to the no more Sir's. .

[Badtranny]

What did you have done, exactly?

I think a better question is what DIDN'T I have done.

On my face I had;
Hairline advancement
Brow minimizing
Rhinoplasty
Jaw reduction
Chin Reduction
Upper lip lift
Lip injections with my own fat

On my body:
Breast implants
Body sculpting lipo (sounds lovely but it hurts like hell now because they took fat from everywhere, upper back, lower back etc))
Fat injections into my hips and buttocks
Orchiectomy

It's almost 1am here and I'm having yet another sleepless night. I can tell I feel better though because I'm on my trusty laptop. It can be argued that I shouldn't have had all of these procedures in one surgery, but people don't want to argue with me right ;-)

Yes April, though I was openly transitioning and everyone at work knew why I was leaving, I was not yet presenting fully female professionally but that changes when I get back, along with my name.

[ReineD]

Good lord, Melissa ... that's a lot, ouch!

But I'm sure the results will all be worth it. I can't wait to see the pics! :)

Is there anyone there who can help you? When are you going home?


EDIT
I've moved your post and responses to its own thread (please feel free to change the title "Ouch" if you don't like it :)), in order to return the other thread to NCAmazon. I'm sure you'll get a lot more well wishes.

:hugs:

[KellyJameson]

Best Wishes for a speedy recovery Melissa, you are a marvel of intestinal fortitude which by your description sounds like the only thing they did not touch with a scalpel.

[kimdl93]

Ouch is right! Hope you feel better soon!

[Jorja]

Ouch now but it will be so worth it in the long run. Here's to a speedy recovery and hope you feel better soon.

[Eileen]

What a lot to go through and you had to pay to experience all that pain and suffering! It hurts now, but soon you will be even more beautiful and feel so complete!

Eileen

[Rachel Smith]

A speedy recovery to you Milissa and congratulations on such a BIG step. You looked great before and I am sure the results will be worth the pain now.

Love
Rachel

[IamSara]

I hand it to you girl! I hope you have a speedy recovery. Where did you get all this done? Also who was your surgeon?

[Julia_in_Pa]

YAY!!! PAIN!! Congratulations Melissa!!!!!


Julia

[Melody Moore]

Ouch is an understatement. I have to ask you Melissa, how much
did you pay to have someone inflict all that pain upon you?

[Claire Cook]

Hi Melissa,

Keep smiling (if you can -- must be SO difficult and uncomfortable) but keep thinking about the rainbow at the end.

[STACY B]

Yull be fine ,,, Just think about how GOOD yull look !! Breath,,,,,,,,,Just breath,,,,,,,,,,, You look great to me ,,, Let us give ya a kiss !

[Pamela Kay]

Yay Melissa!!!

Even though you look and feel like you've been the bad guy in a Chuck Norris or Steven Segal movie right now, in a few months you'll feel like the hot woman they were there to rescue.

I'm so happy for you and would still change places with you in a minute.

I wish you a speedy recovery.

[Kaitlyn Michele]

OMG you are gonna look so beautiful...i can already see it...

This is your toughest couple days, but you'll know you made it when you go to the pharmacy in a day or two to pick up your meds and everybody sees a girl that got the got the crap beat of her (which is what you are!!!)

I found spaghettio's and mac/cheese to be delightful foods to eat until i could put something solid in my mouth without hurting my stitches..

all the best for a quick recovery!!
-k

[morgan51]

Congratulations Melissa Hope your healing quickly I'm sure you'll be elated with the results! No more being read is a huge plus. Congratulations on fulltime and your name change. Best wishes! Morgan

[Missy Tanya]

Congrats!! But you could use the excuse at work that you had gotten ran over by a truck, you have the picture to prove it..
Then tell them this is what happen after they put you back together. I guess I will have to live with it.. Besides you will love looking at yourself in the mirror everyday from now on!!

Hugs, Tanya

[Pamela Kay]

Here you go Melissa, don't pop a stitch. lol

[Stephanie-L]

Wow, that was a lot. Good for you and I hope the healing process goes well and swiftly. When you are up to it, I am sure a lot of us would appreciate some info about your surgeon and what you think of him/her, as well as things like the consultation process and prices. And of course, more photos as the real beautiful you emerges from under the bandages. I am starting to research surgeons for FFS and BA and want all the info and recomendations I can get. Thanks for posting and heal quickly...............Stephanie

[Kaitlyn Michele]

I think your strategy is a good one...the risks of all at once are medical..you balance multiple surgery dates vs one big one...you have a job, you don't want multiple recoveries.you got through it and so you won that bet...

i can't wait till you can look back and say with no more aches..wow...its done..

[Badtranny]

I'm so happy for you and would still change places with you in a minute.

Thank you and I totally understand.

You know you're TS when a horror story (and I promise you I feel horrible) like mine doesn't even phase you. There is nothing in the world that is going to deter me from my goal and as bad as I feel right now, I am soooo excited about my future. If I could smile, I think I would be.

...and ladies I will eventually be telling more of my story but my computer time is limited to how long I can look at the screen before my eyes get sore. Yes even my eyes are sore. However I will answer any specific question in PM for the time being.

[Jonianne]

Congratulations Melissa! Wishing you a very speedy recovery!

[Sharon]

You'll soon look gorgeous, Melissa -- in the meantime just scamper past those unsympathetic mirrors as quickly as possible. I wish for you a very speedy recovery. :)

[Chickhe]

Ha ha ha ha...LOL very good one! Thanks, now I'm feeling better today. Of course, if your story is not an April fools joke, I feel sorry for your pain.

[RenneB]

It's hard to remember that the fact that you are young that you'll heal faster. I'm taking it a little at a time and started with the eyes. Although, if I had the $$ I'd have gone the majic wand way all at once a long time ago...

Remember, this too in time shall pass...

Renne.....

[AllieSF]

Congratulations Melissa. I know the immediate after looks are not so nice, but there is a lot of beauty underneath all that bruising, plumping and scars.

[Badtranny]

Congratulations Melissa.

Thanks Allie, please make sure and keep Angie updated.

[Sally24]

I understand the all or nothing approach perfectly. I don't know if I could go thru all that at once though! I won't compare the level of pain of this to what little I go thru with laser and electrolysis (without pain killers) but I know I personally feel like the pain is my dues for going closer to where I want to be.

I hope you get the results you desire, and deserve. Cheers to a speedy heal!!

[Marleena]

Oh my, ouch for sure! No pain, no gain they say though.. Hope you feel better quick Melissa. I'm sure it will be worth it.:)

[Badtranny]

One of my old friends in response to the same pic posted on facebook said

"Natural beauty ain't for sissies"

Women have been torturing themselves since the beginning in the pursuit of contemporary beauty. TS women are just joining the club and we still have a lot of catching up to do.

[Cindy M]

Hang in there, Misty. You are going to be beautiful very soon. Get well soon, sis!!!!!!

[Kristy_K]

I hope you have a speedy recovery Melissa.

The Body sculpting lipo I think was the most painful for me. Even the healing seem to take longer.

Best wishes,
Kristy

[Jay Cee]

Speedy recovery and hugs to you, Melissa.

[arbon]

I am soooo excited about my future.


I think your future is looking really good. Congrats and wishing you a quick recovery.

[Traci Elizabeth]

Did you get the license plate of that Mack Truck? Did he back up and run over you twice? :love:

[Debglam]

Wow Melissa!

Scary-exciting sh*t! Take care of yourself and here's hoping you have a speedy recovery with awesome results!

Debby

[Badtranny]

You'll soon look gorgeous, Melissa -- in the meantime just scamper past those unsympathetic mirrors as quickly as possible. I wish for you a very speedy recovery. :)

awwww thanks Sharon. I am alternately disgusted and fascinated by my reflection. It doesn't look anything like me and yet I have a morbid curiosity about it that keeps bringing me back to the mirror. Luckily, standing around mirrors is mildly exhausting so then I go lay down again.

[Helen Grandeis]

The ladies will settle into a more balanced presentation with time.

[Badtranny]

I finally got to see the doc and they pulled that packing out of my nose and unwrapped me so I could finally take a shower. I still can't get my nose wet, and my mouth is still full of stitches, but I feel soooooo much better.

I do wonder how long it will take before I can smile. They're telling me my jaw and chin will be swollen like this for at least another week and then just kinda swollen for a few more.

[kimdl93]

Melissa, I'm so glad that your feeling better and the swelling is really going down - a few days and we'll begin see the real you! I'm excited to see the results!

[Inna]

wow you are healing blazing fast, the swelling is subsiding, simply awesome. How are the nights, I remember it took me about 4-5 days to feel semi-comfortable.

[Badtranny]

wow you are healing blazing fast, the swelling is subsiding, simply awesome. How are the nights, I remember it took me about 4-5 days to feel semi-comfortable.

Today is day 5 and I indeed feel semi-comfortable ;-)

I just went upstairs to lay down and I ended up taking a short nap which is what I did NOT want to do because I want to sleep through the night for once. Most of the facial discomfort is manageable now except for the top lip but most of my complaints right now would probably stem from this boob restriction device they have me strapped in. Apparently new implants need to be held firmly in one place for a few weeks so they can become stable as the muscle tissue slowly conforms to the huge new foreign object that has just been surgically installed. This thing cures all notions of a bra being sexy.

[kellycan27]

Today is day 5 and I indeed feel semi-comfortable ;-)

I just went upstairs to lay down and I ended up taking a short nap which is what I did NOT want to do because I want to sleep through the night for once. Most of the facial discomfort is manageable now except for the top lip but most of my complaints right now would probably stem from this boob restriction device they have me strapped in. Apparently new implants need to be held firmly in one place for a few weeks so they can become stable as the muscle tissue slowly conforms to the huge new foreign object that has just been surgically installed. This thing cures all notions of a bra being sexy.

Yup that torture device sucks. I used to lay flat with an ice pack or package of frozen peas resting on my chest. It helps somewhat with the discomfort. it took me about 6 months before my boobs started to feel less tight, and for all of the swelling to go away. After about 1 year they looked and felt great. After close to 5 years.. it's like I have always had them. Once things calm down..... you'll be back to buying and enjoying those sexy bras... for a little while anyway :heehee:

Kel

[Noemi]

'be bold and mighty forces will come to your aid'

Can't wait to see you in a few months time.
Wow!
I was layed up after a shoulder surgery a few months back and watched netflix instant all day for a week all loopie on pain meds.......I had this big winter night gown on...tried to get as comfortable as possible.
wishing you feel better soon.

[Sara Jessica]

OMG, I saw your "new" avatar elsewhere and came running in here to find your thread which I knew had to be here. I think you were gorgeous before and after all this "work", I'm sure you'll be nothing short of stunning. None of which matters so much because the other byproducts of going through all of this will be priceless, to be able to navigate this wonderful world of ours as the 100% female that you are. Much congrats and get well soon. :hugs:

[Kaitlyn Michele]

Ya know melissa, fwiw, you are ALREADY THERE..

its already impossible to see a man in your face....

[Pamela Kay]

Hey Melissa, maybe I missed it but did you go to Osterhout? I knew that's who you were leaning toward earlier.

[Badtranny]

its already impossible to see a man in your face....

LOL

I agree, it's impossible to see anything human in that face right now. I look in the mirror every few hours and try like hell to imagine what I'm going to look like after the swelling.

[Kaitlyn Michele]

you kinda look like Gwyneth Paltrow in shallow hal....

[Badtranny]

Hey Melissa, maybe I missed it but did you go to Osterhout? I knew that's who you were leaning toward earlier.


No, I couldn't scrape up the cash for Dr O. In hindsight, I'm glad I went with Cardenas because it included 12 days of recovery care and I would hate to have been home a few days ago. I'm glad I'm not home now in fact, I get rides to my follow up appointments, food, and clean sheets and towels.

[elizabethamy]

Kaitlyn Michele is right, the male is gone from your face already...you are so brave, not only to do the surgery but to post the pictures. I admire and honor your fearlessness and wish you a swift recovery into your new state of beauty.

elizabethamy

[Pamela Kay]

No, I couldn't scrape up the cash for Dr O. In hindsight, I'm glad I went with Cardenas because it included 12 days of recovery care and I would hate to have been home a few days ago. I'm glad I'm not home now in fact, I get rides to my follow up appointments, food, and clean sheets and towels.

Thanks Melissa, after chatting and PMing with Inna that is where I'm thinking I'm going to go.
I'll be interested on hearing more about your experience when you are feeling better.

[Badtranny]

Thanks Melissa, after chatting and PMing with Inna that is where I'm thinking I'm going to go.
I'll be interested on hearing more about your experience when you are feeling better.

I am an open book. Just PM me. ;-)

[Pamela Kay]

I am an open book. Just PM me. ;-)

Will do Melissa.

Thanks

[Sally24]

I look in the mirror every few hours and try like hell to imagine what I'm going to look like after the swelling.
Just consider it a surprise gift. You can see the package but not whats going to come out of it!

[Kaitlyn Michele]

it is just gonna get so much better ...literally every day from here on out..

there will be some very weird side effects that are very unpredictable, and also there is difference at 2 months, 6 months, a year and 2 years that is subtle but surprisingly meaningful..

[SandraAbsent]

Misty, it just looks painful. I thought of saying something witty and funny to make you feel better, but then I realized that would probably make if hurt worse. So I'll refrain! I'm sure when the time comes, the pain and the swelling subside, and you look in the mirror you will amaze yourself with pretty. Peace out girl!

[Helen Grandeis]

You look like a favorite slightly, pleasingly plump friend or coworker. As the more striking signs of surgery fade, the appearance is pleasant and easy on the eye. You will look fantastic in a few months, but the intermediate state is very acceptable for you to start the sequel to your previous life.

[AllieSF]

Looking better all the time Melissa. I think you are on to something special, you! Angie is up to date, sends you tons of love and asks that you take your time in coming home, since you have done so much and have such good care where you are. Let me know if you need a ride home from the airport or whatever.

[kellycan27]

you kinda look like Gwyneth Paltrow in shallow hal....

I am thinking more like "Fat *******" from Austin powers with her hair up like that and her swollen round face! :heehee:

( Misty knows I love her and I am just teasing)

Kel

[Helen Grandeis]

No, I couldn't scrape up the cash for Dr O. In hindsight, I'm glad I went with Cardenas because it included 12 days of recovery care and I would hate to have been home a few days ago. I'm glad I'm not home now in fact, I get rides to my follow up appointments, food, and clean sheets and towels.

Me gusta que tu tienes bastante dinero para usar Dr. Cardenas!:thumbsup:

Armed with the testimony of trusted friends, you have made your life's dream happen!

[Beth-Lock]

Best wishes for a speedy recovery. It will be great and a whole new start for your transition.

[faltenrock]

Hi Melissa, I know it must hurt terribly after that big surgery. If I can say anything, it's that I've had over 25 major surgeries, skin grafts and so on in my life, due to an accident as a little boy. It may not really help you that much in your situation, but I learned, that even the worst pain will disappear - believe me, just trust your body - things will improve quickly. In your situation, I always told myself, look ahead, one more week, and you'll feel much less pain, in two weeks, no more physical pain and in about two month, you won't see much of the surgery, except some new scars. Even the scares will disappear over the years if you're lucky.

[Badtranny]

Michelle Martin showed up to the recovery house on Wednesday and today she came back from the hospital looking pretty damn good. A little bit TOO good if you ask me ;-) Look at her face? I'm 8 days out and she STILL is less bruised and swollen than I am. Whatever. I can't help it if I'm so delicate. ;-)

Anyhoo, she wanted to get a pic up at her worst, hopefully she gets a lot more bruising tomorrow. What?!

It's nice to have another sister here. You have no idea how boring it can be just milling around, trying to take your mind off how uncomfortable you are.

[AllieSF]

Now there is quite a pair to draw to! Congratulations to both of you. Enjoy your stays there, heal quickly, and hurry back soon.

Melissa, you really do look so much better and, yes, even happier too.

Michelle, just tell Melissa to pipe down a bit when she really gets going and talking your ear off. I agree with her that you really look great compared to miss beauty girl.

[Organza]

Good luck! This is going to be wonderful.
Lisa

[Pamela Kay]

Glad to see you're doing better Melissa.

I called and talked to Tyler this afternoon. I'm going to send him some pictures and get a quote, won't have anything done until October or after but I'm trying to get my plan in place and set up for transition at work. I plan on doing what you have and transitioning after FFS. I am working on it with my boss and HR right now.

Thanks for the info and help you have given us, even through your pain.
I know it will be worth it and you are looking great!

[Ally 2112]

I hope all goes well for you and your recouvery is quick !.Im sure it will be worth it :)

[LeaP]

I'm 8 days out and she STILL is less bruised and swollen than I am. Whatever. I can't help it if I'm so delicate. ;-)



Oh my God, Melissa, you look GREAT! Still lots of swelling, but what a huge difference!

Lea

[Badtranny]

Oh my God, Melissa, you look GREAT! Still lots of swelling, but what a huge difference!
Lea

Look at the swelling in my boobs! Those things look and feel like soccer balls stitched to my chest right now. It's hard to even consider them mine as they do not feel like a part of me at all. The doc is telling me that they will feel hard and swollen until my body calms down and then they will literally settle in. IN A FEW WEEKS! Which is also the same amount of time I have to wear the Boob Binder(tm) which is this torture device they call a breast compression garment which is basically like a front clip bra that is 10 sizes to small with the right size cups. It's supposed to hold the implants in place while scar tissue is formed around them. It's a tiny bit uncomfortable.

[Michelle.M]

Look at her face? I'm 8 days out and she STILL is less bruised and swollen than I am. Whatever. I can't help it if I'm so delicate. ;-)

Full disclosure here. Misty's being kind. It's 3 days out for me and I have caught up in the bruises department and today I feel like crap. Getting better, but today she's the one looking good!

[Jorja]

Keep reminding yourselves it is worth every penny. In a few short weeks you will both look ravishing. Ah, to be young again!

[LeaP]

Full disclosure here. Misty's being kind. It's 3 days out for me and I have caught up in the bruises department and today I feel like crap. Getting better, but today she's the one looking good!

Michelle, I'm sorry, I didn't realize it was YOU (basically because of your avatar). Congratulations! And I hope the healing goes quickly!

Also, today is Easter. A symbol of renewed life. What could be more apt? May you both find it as you want and need it.

Lea

[Inna]

Gee, two trans girls under the same roof, with painful stories to share, this is gonna be H O R M O N A L! L O L !!!

I wish you galls most wonderful of Easter celebrations, a story of L O V E and T R U T H, no matter the consequences. And I am wayyyy jealous of the food you gonna smell coming from Vicente's kitchen. LUV YA, Inna

[Michelle.M]

Gee, two trans girls under the same roof, with painful stories to share, this is gonna be H O R M O N A L! L O L !!!

Yes, that'll be our new saying around here - "This is gonna be - wait for it - H O R M O N A L !"

[Badtranny]

Okay then, 11 whole days after my full body makeover and I'm beginning to remember why I came here in the first place. The doc says I'll be swollen like this for another three weeks and then still swollen for a few months after that but I should be able to start seeing what I'm going to look like in another couple of weeks. I already love the new hairline. Even with the Frankenstein scar it looks so much better than the aging rocker look I had before. Speaking of hair, it is coming out by the fist fulls. Argh, I think it was Julie (squirrel!) who told me that she lost a lot of hair during her surgery and damned if I'm not losing it too. It doesn't look much thinner, but my little hair band is barely tight enough to hold the ponytail now, so do the math. Oh well, it'll grow back, let the weak ones go. ;-)

[ReineD]

Honestly Melissa, after only 11 days I can see you. :) Your transformation will be great! :hugs:

How painful is everything still?

[kimdl93]

Melissa, you're getting better every day!

[RachelOKC]

Okay then, 11 whole days after my full body makeover and I'm beginning to remember why I came here in the first place.

Looking a lot better, BIG contrast from that first pic! I'm starting to recognize you again!!!

[Badtranny]

Honestly Melissa, after only 11 days I can see you. :) Your transformation will be great! :hugs:

How painful is everything still?

Thanks RD, ya know I don't think it's ever been painful aside from the little things here and there. A certain stitch under a boob, or in the forehead, or in your mouth will HURT on occasion, but mostly it's just a sustained and intense discomfort. Since I got so much done, everything I did was uncomfortable. Sitting, laying, standing, there was really no way to just relax for more than a few minutes at a time. The last couple of days have been great though. I can sit in many different positions and I even stretched for the first time this morning. I think what's bothering me the most right now are these giant boobs that won't be so giant in a few weeks. They are extremely firm and extremely out there. The Boob Binder(tm) is not SO uncomfortable any more except for how the band sits right on and irritates the incisions right beneath them. There is no joy in boobville right now I can say that for sure.

[AllieSF]

Wow, Melissa, you really are transforming now that the swelling is going down. It is a big difference from the first pic. Wish you the best and smile when you can.

[Stephanie-L]

Melissa, you are looking great. Definately better with the healing. Unfortunately one of the side effects of anesthesia on some people is temporary hair loss, I think the anesthesia stuns some of the folicals in the active stage, so eventually they will return to normal, but it will take months. I do not know how to predict who will have this, or how to prevent it, the only thing I can think of is the longer you are under, the more likely it will happen. I know people who have had several surgeries in a fairly short time (a few months) and had problems with hair loss on only one of them, so who knows. I expect you were under for a while so that may be why you are having a problem now. But, take heart, good nutrition and proper hair and scalp care, and you should see regrowth in a few months. You do look so very nice now and I wish you the best. I hope to be going through what you are doing in the future, so I look forward to hearing all you wish to tell us. Thanks.......Stephanie

[Aprilrain]

Wow Misty your gunna look great! My scars are still visible after 4 months but no one ever says anything about my hairline scar and I wear a head band that pulls my hair back all the time (hair is still too short for a ponytail)

[Starling]

Congratulations on your total transformation, Melissa. I've never heard of a more all-encompassing surgical session. What you did would probably have killed me--but at least I would have been spared the pain. Here's to a speedy recovery with stunning results!

:) Lallie

[Badtranny]

So here I am, trying to kill time before I finally get to go home early tomorrow morning. I still have a lot of healing to do but I definitely think I'll be better off at home from here on out. I will wake up on my 13th day of recovery at 3am-ish and then head to the airport for my short (4hour) flight back to my beloved SF Bay.

Below is a picture of Michelle Martin and I to give you some idea of how time passes in this place. I am less bruised and she is more bruised, each day is a new adventure in vanity around here.

I bought some huge sunglasses yesterday to hide my eyes, (Mexican Louies) but there's no hiding my still swollen jowls. Anyhoo, I get to go home tomorrow and I could hardly give a damn about how I look. ;-) Of course it WOULD be nice to smile, which I still can't do because my upper lip is still swollen.

[kimdl93]

So glad you're geting ready to go home. Its amazing to watch the healing process. You're really quite brave for sharing these pictures and this expereince.

[Badtranny]

So glad you're geting ready to go home. Its amazing to watch the healing process. You're really quite brave for sharing these pictures and this expereince.

Well thanks Kim but I'm the one who's always yapping about honesty and authenticity after all. Circumstances beyond my control have put my transition out in the open so I figure the best thing I can do is be as open as I can to help those who may be on the road behind me. Or maybe inspire those who don't belong on that road to rethink their motives. My choices are not for everyone as we all have unique abilities, tolerances, and opportunities, but I can be a roadside attraction at the very least.

[Kaz]

Hey Hobbesy... I am in total awe! What an experience! So many thanks for sharing... it has helped so much and has put so much into perspective!

Just get well quick! I am so looking forward to how it pans out... makes me realise how dumb I am ...

[Michelle.M]

Well, Melissa left VERY early this morning to go home, and now I'm the only one left here in the House of Broken Dolls.

Safe trip, Melissa! Let us know how it goes with your return home.

[Inna]

hey Michelle, hang in there, you may be by yourself but you ain't alone :). Frankly, when it came to my departure I was in tears as I felt there like home, if given a chance I would still be hanging out with the boys probably speaking fluent Spanish by now ;p All my love hon!

[pickles]

Man, ouch is right!

Anyone know how advisable it is to get FFS type work done if you have cranial & jaw dysfunction?

Probably a really bad idea, but maybe it can be worked around?

[LeaP]

...now I'm the only one left here in the House of Broken Dolls.

Oooohh - that sounds so SAD! You're not broken, you're getting fixed!

Lea

[Jorja]

Oooohh - that sounds so SAD! You're not broken, you're getting fixed!

Lea

I agree, you are not broken, you're just fixing what was not right.

[Badtranny]

Safe trip, Melissa! Let us know how it goes with your return home.

I'm HOME!!!!

The plane was late and I finally landed in SFO at around 9:30ish SF time and it only took an hour and a half to get off the plane and go through customs. Why does it take people soooo long to grab their damn bag and walk off the plane? I mean seriously, stand up and walk already!

I got home and had a shower and was in bed fast asleep within 45 minutes. It was awesome and honestly felt like the first time I'd slept in forever. As nice and comfortable as Tyler and Vince try to make the recovery house, it is still a long way from home and my own bed was just about the best thing I could imagine. The last two weeks have been almost surreal for me. From the first day when I showed up after an all night flight, to the very next morning when I was rolled into surgery I was in a daze pretty much the whole time. Even to this morning when I felt fairly normal, but I'm walking through a Mexican Aeropuerto at 5am by myself with a bruised and swollen face trying to ignore the obviously curious glances. The whole experience was bizarre from beginning to end and I can say for sure that I will never forget that time and the people I met.

Coming home was wonderful and I'm looking forward to seeing some friends this weekend, even though I still feel pretty beat up and I definitely look like I had a beating. My roomie cannot stop commenting on how different (she means bad) I look. She has also already decided that my boobs are way too big. She's Bulgarian so she doesn't have that politeness problem that Americans are cursed with. ;-) I am feeling very relaxed and semi-comfortable right now for the first time. I have a few weeks of healing left to do yet, but you could say that I'm quite optimistic about it.

[Jessinthesprings]

OMG who was your surgion Mike Tyson? Nope it looks like you have all of your ears... I wish you a speedy recovery. Get well soon.

[Kristyn Hill]

What a story. Very compelling. I just read every comment. Proud for you that your journey has come to the place you have dreamed for years, I am sure. Very brave to post such pictures for us to see. If I were closer, I would cook a grand feast for you.
Hugs,
Kristyn

[Helen Grandeis]

You are a tall woman. You should be a D or DD just to be proportionate. There is nothing as heavenly as your own bed! I have been in the upstairs bedroom for three weeks due to my refueling outage night shift duty. My brief sojourns in our bed on the ground floor are heavenly.

[Sandra1746]

It is great that you are home and can relax better now. It sounds like the recovery is progressing well; excellent news. I wish you all the best of luck and success in your journey. Be strong and stay on the path.

Love,
Sandra1746

[centralnewyork]

Thanks for sharing your picture. Take it easy.

[pickles]

How's it going?

Soooo curious about this.....

[IamSara]

Melissa, What joy it is to see you looking so wonderful. Even though the bruising and some scarring are still there the real beauty is showing through. Thank you so much for sharing and I look forward to hearing more and see more pictures as you continue to recover.
Hugs

[Badtranny]

Okay how 'bout an update.

I've spent the last couple of days in bed mostly, yesterday in fact was just a long series of naps. Aside from being tired and generally sore, I feel much better than when I arrived back home Wednesday morning. I still have bruises under my eyes and my nose, chin, and jaws are still swollen. My face doesn't hurt except for an occasional headache along the scar on my forehead. My body is also feeling much better, I can move easily and even turn over on my side without wincing. The body sculpting lipo was by far the most painful of all the procedures followed closely by the breast implants. The breasts are beginning to settle in and while they don't exactly feel natural, they are feeling less foreign everyday. My chest muscles are also beginning to relax and there is no real pain except for right at the incisions beneath the implants. The swelling is also going down so they're not hard as rocks anymore, which is a huge relief because there is nothing comfortable about having huge gell blobs shoved under your chest muscles, but now that they're starting to get soft I feel better emotionally at least.

Nothing about my face and body looks or feels familiar to me anymore and oddly I don't feel one way or another about it. I'm looking forward to the new normal though and right now I seem to have a pretty good leash on my typical impatience. So far.

[Ayaka.N]

Okay how 'bout an update.

I've spent the last couple of days in bed mostly, yesterday in fact was just a long series of naps. Aside from being tired and generally sore, I feel much better than when I arrived back home Wednesday morning. I still have bruises under my eyes and my nose, chin, and jaws are still swollen. My face doesn't hurt except for an occasional headache along the scar on my forehead. My body is also feeling much better, I can move easily and even turn over on my side without wincing. The body sculpting lipo was by far the most painful of all the procedures followed closely by the breast implants. The breasts are beginning to settle in and while they don't exactly feel natural, they are feeling less foreign everyday. My chest muscles are also beginning to relax and there is no real pain except for right at the incisions beneath the implants. The swelling is also going down so they're not hard as rocks anymore, which is a huge relief because there is nothing comfortable about having huge gell blobs shoved under your chest muscles, but now that they're starting to get soft I feel better emotionally at least.

Nothing about my face and body looks or feels familiar to me anymore and oddly I don't feel one way or another about it. I'm looking forward to the new normal though and right now I seem to have a pretty good leash on my typical impatience. So far.

Really looking forward to see the photos when it all calms down a bit more! 'After' photos always make me feel real good about the future, and even at this stage it's really looking like money well spent!

[Michelle.M]

Melissa, I'm sitting at the breakfast table with my laptop and there's a big empty hole across from me where you used to be! I miss you! :(

[Badtranny]

Melissa, I'm sitting at the breakfast table with my laptop and there's a big empty hole across from me where you used to be! I miss you! :(

Awwwww that's sweet Michelle. I was just thinking about you this morning because I know you're leaving Monday and I was wondering how your last weekend was going.

[StacieJayne]

To be honest, I would rather be in your shoes now, with all the pain and suffering that you must be going through, than look at my ugly face in the mirror :) I think you are very brave to post pictures post surgery and as has been said by Ayaka.N, just wait until all the swelling and pain has gone and a new you will look back at you from the mirror and you will know that going through this was worth it :) Just think, another step completed to full transition :) Lucky you :o

[Michelle.M]

I know you're leaving Monday and I was wondering how your last weekend was going.

Oh, you cannot believe how busy I have been! I have been out shopping. I found a place nearby (in walking distance) to get that mani-pedi we were talking about and acrylic nails as well. I also got my ears pierced and today I had my eyebrows waxed (necessary, because as you know they were moved from the place I last saw them).

I'm healed enough to wear some makeup, which is good because I am still a bit bruised. Still have that tape on my face to hold up the nose job, but at least I am quite a bit less freakish. And with the lip fill I am thrilled with how easy lipstick goes on!

Stitches are all out, Dr Cardenas is very pleased with how things have gone and I had my last anti-inflammatory treatment yesterday. Those treatments are very effective, and the only thing I'm waiting on are my lips to settle a bit. I can scarcely believe my own eyes when I look in the mirror. I am one happy girl!

Tomorrow I'll pack up, which will be harder than packing to come here because I have picked up 4 new pairs of shoes and numerous other souvenirs (yes, I'm a shoe addict. I admit it.)

I'll check in again when I'm home.

[stacycoral]

Melissa,I wish a quick recover, girl you will look so good after it is all done, I would like to wish Michelle also a quick recover if that is ok, Look forward to hear about your healing. Take care girl, and i say a pray for you both.

[Badtranny]

So I've been home for one week as of this morning and I am definitely ready for this to be over already. I do feel better every day, but I'm still a long way from feeling normal. The bruising and the swelling in my face seems to be subsiding but how many more days do I have to look in the mirror and see this? The general discomfort is gone and is replaced by a bit of malaise. Also my nose and forehead scar are actually hurting lately. They were comfortably numb for awhile, but as the feeling comes back it's bringing the pain with it. My new boobs are finally starting to feel like they belong there, but I will sure be glad when they're not swollen anymore. Right now they look as uncomfortable as they feel. Not hot.

[kimdl93]

Hang in there Melissa. I have no idea how long the discomfort may last but it will be worth it in the end.

[Anna Lorree]

Every day is one day closer to the world seeing only the view of you that you want them to see. Having had sinus surgery, surgery to correct a deviated septum, and jaw surgery in the past, I can certainly sympathize with you. Heal quickly!!

Anna

[Jessinthesprings]

wow you look great! I think you are more than ready to take on the world.

[LeaP]

But did you have to pay extra for the Nike swooshes on your cheeks? :battingeyelashes:

Seriously, you are looking terrifically better. One need only look to your current avatar to see the healing!

Sorry to hear about the pain. Sometimes scar pain and itching can linger. Hopefully it will subside as quickly as it cropped up.

Lea

[ReineD]

You're looking better every day, Melissa. Hang in there! :)

[elizabethamy]

Melissa,

I can well imagine that you are thoroughly sick of feeling lousy and looking swollen, but OMG, wow -- you look great!

e.

[Pamela Kay]

You are still looking great Melissa.

I would still trade places with you and may do the same thing before long.

[Sharon]

You have a ways to go yet, Melissa, but you are really looking amazing! :)

[Babeba]

Wow! I saw your very different avatar and I had to come see. You are healing so quickly, it's incredible! I hope you're pleased with how everything went. Also, as soon as those gel blobs soften up a bit and settle, they'll probably be properly sized enough to get your roommate to stop complaining!

Congrats, congrats, congrats, I'm so pleased for you!

[Helen Grandeis]

Definitely a softer, gentler image is already clear. As for the new breasts, you are a tall woman and proportionally you can carry larger breasts gloriously.
-
You want to stay out of the sun.

[StacieJayne]

Melissa, you look gorgeous :) It must be great to think that the worst part is finally over and you can get on with living again :) I wish you a speedy recovery and I hope you love the final results. I cannot wait to get around to facial surgery. Time drags, when you are waiting :( All my love. Stacie xxx.

[jillleanne]

Melissa, I feel your pain girl. Hurry up and get well, ok? No one should have to go through pain to be who they are. It'll all be over soon so hang in there.

[Michelle.M]

So I've been home for one week as of this morning and I am definitely ready for this to be over already. I do feel better every day, but I'm still a long way from feeling normal. The bruising and the swelling in my face seems to be subsiding but how many more days do I have to look in the mirror and see this? The general discomfort is gone and is replaced by a bit of malaise. Also my nose and forehead scar are actually hurting lately. They were comfortably numb for awhile, but as the feeling comes back it's bringing the pain with it. My new boobs are finally starting to feel like they belong there, but I will sure be glad when they're not swollen anymore. Right now they look as uncomfortable as they feel. Not hot.

Melissa, you look great! I just got home on Monday myself, and my under eye Nike swooshes are starting to diminish as well. Now if I can just get my lips to work properly . . .

[Badtranny]

Now if I can just get my lips to work properly . . .

LOL that's something that I've been neglecting to mention. The lip work doesn't hurt, but it is a bizarre feeling to try to smile but end up looking like Dick Cheney. I can do all of the mechanical things just fine now like drinking, sucking a straw, etc, but smiling still looks weird. It's getting better though.

Remember those sandwiches we were so excited about but couldn't open our mouths wide enough to eat? We had to destroy those things just to eat them.

[JohnH]

LOL that's something that I've been neglecting to mention. The lip work doesn't hurt, but it is a bizarre feeling to try to smile but end up looking like Dick Cheney.

My heart goes out to you, dear.

John

[Michelle.M]

The lip work doesn't hurt, but it is a bizarre feeling to try to smile but end up looking like Dick Cheney.

Oh, exactly! I still have duck lips. I am SO looking forward to the swelling going down on the lower half of my face.


Remember those sandwiches we were so excited about but couldn't open our mouths wide enough to eat? We had to destroy those things just to eat them.

LOL, that, oddly enough, is really a fond memory for me. I'm reminded of you whenever I eat a sandwich now.

[Jorja]

OMG, you just brought back those memories. I do remember duck lips.

[Badtranny]

Okay wow, I wasn't prepared for this even though I thought I was totally prepared for it. I'm beginning to feel almost normal so every few days I run short errands into the world but I don't really interact with anyone except for the occasional clerk. Today I had to go to Guitar Center to return a speaker and it was my first real test. I still have some bruising and swelling and I wasn't entirely sure that I don't still look like a dude, but I had to get this done so off I go. I was wearing what I normally wear, jeans and a tshirt with no makeup and my hair in a loose pony.

When I got there it was uneventful. Nobody really paying attention to me until finally a young guy says "Is somebody helping you ma'am? So far so good, I told him I had a speaker to return and showed him the receipt and he asked if I had it with me, I said yes it was in my truck. "you're gonna need help bringing that in right?" Yes absolutely I said. Soooo we go out and get it and he spends the next 30 minutes or so looking for another one to replace mine, during which time, every dude in the place offered to help me.

I was on the other side of a display when I heard him say, "hey, where's that lady that was waiting right here with that speaker?" When I came around the corner, the other guy said "there she is". A few minutes later we were all done and he carried the other speaker out to my truck.

I drove away in a daze. I can't believe this day is finally here. Now I'm really ready to finish healing and get the rest of my life started. I took this pic as soon as I got home.

[Cindy M]

Looking good Misty. It'll only get better... :)

[Kathryn Martin]

oh my, that looks fantastic

[Pamela Kay]

What a wonderful validation Melissa! You have passed through the fire and it is good.

I am so very happy for you, congratulations!

[Anne Elizabeth]

I guess all I can say is WOW!!! and wonderful. What a terrific affirmation.

[MandyGG]

You look amazing and you are so beautiful!

[Pamela Kay]

Oh, and since I forgot to mention it, you do look great Melissa!

You're making be feel better about going to Dr. Cardenas.

[Kate T]

You look great Melissa. Your photo (never flattering the old self portrait if you ask me) looks absolutely feminine.

Go out and be yourself as much as you can.

[AllieSF]

You are looking so much better. Now if we can get those stiff lips into a sweet smile we will be able actually see how happy you really are. About that speaker, did it have a chewed up corner and any Smudge scent markings? I hope you and your in house family are all doing well.

[Badtranny]

You are looking so much better. Now if we can get those stiff lips into a sweet smile we will be able actually see how happy you really are. About that speaker, did it have a chewed up corner and any Smudge scent markings? I hope you and your in house family are all doing well.

Thanks Allie, no Smudge didn't chew on the speaker, these are the big ones I'm currently using for monitors in the studio. He is however chewing on everything else. Nothing to keep your mind off your own problems like a puppy. ;-)

Hey, I still owe you dinner for driving me to Bako, so let's plan something.

[kellycan27]

You look great. Nice rack! :heehee:

[AllieSF]

Kelly!! What a thing to say on a public forum. Gosh oh Gee.

Actually, I was going to say the same thing, but in an all too frequent senior moment I forgot to put that in my post, and I had to look, well maybe sneak a peak or many, at that rack for over 8 hours recently.

[Inna]

Hey so, now do you believe.....................................lol, yes MAAM, it is here MAAM, and wait a few, once the bruises come down and makeup goes up you will hear hello MISSY, can I help you carry that? :D

[GirlieAmanda]

My partner looks like you after her FFS. She looks a lot worse. We are right here with you. Hour by hour. Existing as best as you can. I hoop you are recovering.

[morgan51]

You are looking wonderful Melissa Congrats! See it's all you'd dreamed. You Rock!

[Helen Grandeis]

Finally we see the hair a little fluffier. It gives you a more delicate image. I am sure the new frontage real estate didn't hurt either. This is exactly what you wanted! :thumbsup: We're looking forward to the glamour shots when you are healed:battingeyelashes:

[ReineD]

"you're gonna need help bringing that in right?" Yes absolutely I said. Soooo we go out and get it and he spends the next 30 minutes or so looking for another one to replace mine, during which time, every dude in the place offered to help me.

Chivalry is not dead after all!

... maybe I should move to the Bay area. lol

Seriously, I'm so pleased for you Melissa. :hugs: And you look great!

[arbon]

very happy for you and think you are looking great :)

[LeaP]

My God, you look great!

Lea

[wino_tg_girl]

Thank you so much for sharing all of this with us Melissa. I'm so happy for you. You give me hope.

[Badtranny]

Thank you so much for sharing all of this with us Melissa. I'm so happy for you. You give me hope.

Hope? I was just trying to share the experience. I have a limited amount of hope so if I accidentally gave you any could you please give it back? ;-)

[wino_tg_girl]

Heck yea girl! You're there. You can live your life as the woman you are now. I think it's awesome, and reading stories like this shows me how it's possible. You're healing nicely. You were pretty and passable before. Now you're going to be a knockout.

[Starling]

You do have beautiful breasts, Misty. In fact, you could probably have two (lovely) heads and no males would notice. I think if I had to choose between BA and FFS, BA would win.

:) Lallie

[michelleinktown]

Oh you look great now. In your previous pictures it looked like someone beat you with a big baseball bat. I can't wait to get all that done and seeing your picture now I am looking forward to getting beat up real good first.

[PretzelGirl]

It is wonderful that you are getting your validation Misty. There must be a thousand thoughts of concerns and things that could happen running through your mind that I just couldn't imagine. I hope it helps you feel like you are there because you definitely are there by your appearance. You look great!

[Sandra1746]

From your photos you are getting better by the day. WONDERFUL NEWS.
Best wishes to you for a continued speedy recovery and best wishes for you on your journey.

You do look great.

Hugs and love,
Sandra1746

[Badtranny]

So I'm home alone drinking and planning world domination, when I realize that I'm able to brush my hair for the first time in forever. It just hurt too much to do and I haven't even tried in at least a week. The bruises are almost gone, but I still have some residual swelling that I think may be around for awhile, but I finally feel like I'm making real progress.

It's been 3 weeks since I've been home and roughly 5 weeks since surgery I think.

[Anna Lorree]

I'm loving the shape of your chin, and your lips look much nicer with each photo.:)

Anna

[AllieSF]

Yes, I think that those lips are getting close to the kissable stage. Watch out world, Melissa is coming for a visit, with a sweet smile, I hope. Looking good girl.

[Jonianne]

You are looking great Melissa! I'm glad the healing process is so much faster than I thought was possible.

[Inna]

I just love the nose tape, you have become an expert! How are the rest of you coming along beside the nose, and the obvious gorgeous lines of the face?

[Pamela Kay]

Looking great Melissa!

I hope you are happy with your results so far, they should get even better as the swelling continues to go down.

Do you still see any of the old Melissa in the mirror now?

[Starling]

Misty, you really are emerging as quite a beautiful woman.

:) Lallie

[LeaP]

Better and better, in such a short time, and SO feminine.

[Badtranny]

You are looking great Melissa! I'm glad the healing process is so much faster than I thought was possible.

Thanks, but as always the pic doesn't show everything. There is still quite a bit of swelling around my forehead scar as well as jaw, chin and nose.

[ReineD]

Oh wow, Melissa, you're beautiful! :)

[Badtranny]

I just love the nose tape, you have become an expert! How are the rest of you coming along beside the nose, and the obvious gorgeous lines of the face?

This is my LAST weekend for the damn tape. It's been 3 weeks and a few days, and the doc just told me to tape for 3 more weeks. I know you were talking about taping for 3 more MONTHS but I don't recall you having tape on your nose for three months Miss Thing.

[RachelOKC]

This is my LAST weekend for the damn tape. It's been 3 weeks and a few days, and the doc just told me to tape for 3 more weeks. I know you were talking about taping for 3 more MONTHS but I don't recall you having tape on your nose for three months Miss Thing.

Aww, you know it's the latest fashion accessory, that "just having a little work done" look! :)

[Badtranny]

Do you still see any of the old Melissa in the mirror now?

Well, funny thing is, that's ALL I see. I was kind of emotional Thursday because I had to clean up and do something with my roomie and her fiance' and I thought I looked like a dude, but I met and had lunch with a couple of people who were wondering why I had work done. "Most women wait until they're much older" she said. They didn't read me at all. (must be the boobs)

It's hard right now because my skin is a wreck and most of my hair fell out and I'm fighting stubble again. The worst thing about the recovery is the forced break from EVERYTHING. I'm really looking forward to the damn electrolysis again and a facial. Ah yes my kingdom for a facial.

[Michelle.M]

This is my LAST weekend for the damn tape. It's been 3 weeks and a few days, and the doc just told me to tape for 3 more weeks. I know you were talking about taping for 3 more MONTHS but I don't recall you having tape on your nose for three months Miss Thing.

The doc told me 2 more weeks, and last weekend was MY last (yays!). Honestly, I was received so much differently as soon as I ditched the tape. Instead of being a grotesque "Oh, poor thing! Hope they arrested her boyfriend for doing that!" I get a lot more smiles and guys flirting with me. And makeup looks a lot better without the tape as well.

[morgan51]

Melissa , I think you are looking fab. Only a few weeks out ! Think what a little time and less swelling my do? I'm sure I'd be as impatient or worse. Hugs Girl you're doing great

[Helen Grandeis]

So you don't have to tape the nose for a year like Inna suggested?

[ReineD]

Well, funny thing is, that's ALL I see. I was kind of emotional Thursday because I had to clean up and do something with my roomie and her fiance' and I thought I looked like a dude,

Don't fret about this Melissa, I think it's natural for your mind's eye to lag behind the reality of your reflection. This happened to a friend of mine who had BA (she's a GG). She came over in tears one day about 2-3 weeks after surgery and asked me to look at her because she couldn't tell that any of the work was done, even though she had solid evidence right in front of her that she was wearing a much bigger bra. And she's a clinical psychologist!

It'll just take time. :hugs:

[Badtranny]

So you don't have to tape the nose for a year like Inna suggested?

LOL, you saw her post on FB too. Yes, she indeed suggested that I should probably tape for a year, but I seem to remember a certain little minx getting her face done in November, yet her nose looks conspicuously UN-taped in recent pics. Hmmmmmm.

[Helen Grandeis]

I'm glad it was a joke and not the ticket to the ultra femme schnozzola club.
The swelling is virtually gone under the eyes (at least the photo visible swelling)! Your face is looking very soft and delicate.

I don't see any dudeness at all - not even a hint.

[Badtranny]

Well, I went by the office for the first time today. It was weird and wonderful at the same time, and everyone was amazing. I'm ready for the new normal.

[PretzelGirl]

It looks like a great normal!

[Jessinthesprings]

wow you look amazing. wish you the best.

[LeaP]

There's a word you used to use that you need to lose - "dudely". 'Cause you ain't!

Great picture, and the changes have been amazing to see.

The first day at work must have been quite an experience. I'd love to hear about it.

[Anna Lorree]

Hey, I hate to break it to you, but you look just like a middle-aged woman!

Anna

[AllieSF]

Wow, Melissa, you look wonderful and even have a sweet grin. I love it. I love what you did with your hair and am so happy for your nice day at the office. I really like what I see! Thanks for the great pic.

[Michelle.M]

Melissa, you are TOTALLY HOT! Wow, April seems like a million years ago, doesn't it? Love your hair, by the way!

[ReineD]

You look great Melissa! Absolutely beautiful.

You should post a before and after pic so we can all see how much you've changed. :)

[RachelOKC]

You look great doll! Now we gotta hit the big city together. :)

[Badtranny]

Melissa, you are TOTALLY HOT! Wow, April seems like a million years ago, doesn't it? Love your hair, by the way!

Thanks M&M, yes it does seem like a long time since we were in captivity. That was a really bizarre experience, and for me the WORST time to be meeting new people which is a shame because a bunch of great people cycled through that place while I was walking around in a daze. It's weird how just being in the same place at the same time kinda forms a bond between folks. Anyhoo, how much longer before we see a pic of YOU?

[pickles]

All I can say is wow!

[Andie Elisabeth]

wow, you look great d(^_^d)

[Kristy_K]

You are looking good girl .

[MandyGG]

Holy Crap! You look amazing!!!!!! I wish I knew you before so that I could have seen the complete transformation from the beginning!

Gotta say...if you and I were lesbians ;) ... but, naww... I only go for dudes.

[Kaitlyn Michele]

SMILE!!!!!!!!! for crying out loud!

After all that, you look like that and no smile!?!?!

go from :straightface: to :D

[Michelle.M]

. . . it does seem like a long time since we were in captivity. . . It's weird how just being in the same place at the same time kinda forms a bond between folks.

Kind of like military boot camp? Or prison? LOL I had a great time living in the House of Broken Dolls! I have wonderful memories of it, I just wish I had taken more photos of us hanging out.


Anyhoo, how much longer before we see a pic of YOU? Are you kidding? After seeing yours how could I? By comparison I'm hideous!

[Soriya]

Looking great Melissa!!!! My dude side likes LOL

[kimdl93]

You really do look great, Melissa. The new normal will be marvelous!

[Rebecca Star]

I just saw your 1'st pic...ooch is right!
But now, wow, you look so good Melissa and more importantly super happy :)

[Pamela Kay]

You look great Melissa! Definitely nothing dudely there now. I'm so happy for you girl.

Looking forward to my own trip to the house of broken dolls. lol

[Sally24]

Melissa, I can barely imagine the joy you are feeling right now. You look great! I love the hair too. It's very much the same style as my new look, except I have to take mine off at the end of the night. :sad:

Enjoy your new life, you deserve it!

[WifeofWrenchette]

Amazing transformation. I like your hair too. Congrats!

[Badtranny]

except I have to take mine off at the end of the night. :sad:

awwwwww, hugs babe, I really REALLY hated the wigs, so I feel your pain.

[Stephanie-L]

Melissa, after seeing your latest photo, Cardenas went way up on my list, of course, you were already cute before. I don't think he is going to have as much to work with when he gets to me, LOL. But, a year or so down the line I too will be visiting him. Thanks for keeping us informed.........Stephanie

[always]

thanks so much for sharing your story so far! You look amazing btw

[Babeba]

Did he make your whole face thinner? How???

It doesn't look like you've had any surgery at all, it looks like you are just naturally feminine and pretty and happy!

[Kaz]

Melissa.... Sorry to be so late on this, but OMG! You look incredible! I know it has been unbelievably painful and stressful, but gosh you are a beautiful woman!
Another beacon and I just wish I was 20 years younger... I think my life would have taken a different turn...

I just love being able to share with you.... xx

I think I am about to cry...!

[Janet77]

Melissa you are beautiful! May I politely suggest you change your avatar to a more flattering picture? It does not do you justice.

[Jonianne]

You look absolutely great Melissa!

How is being fulltime at work now? Do you have any stories of encouragement or things to watch out for?

[Badtranny]

Melissa you are beautiful! May I politely suggest you change your avatar to a more flattering picture? It does not do you justice.

Well, that's what I look like when I get out of the shower. Some don't want to show their faces, I like to show mine as natural as the camera will allow. Those that have questions deserve to see the truth.

[Pamela Kay]

Well, that's what I look like when I get out of the shower. Some don't want to show their faces, I like to show mine as natural as the camera will allow. Those that have questions deserve to see the truth.

And thank you for that Melissa, from those of us who are going under the knife before long too.

[Kaz]

Melissa, your honesty and propensity to share is awe inspiring... you have so many here rooting for you! You are becoming a heroic if not legendary figure! xxx

[Rachel Smith]

SMILE!!!!!!!!! for crying out loud!

After all that, you look like that and no smile!?!?!

go from :straightface: to :D

Yeah What Kaitlyn said. Really honey you look beautiful.

Rachel

[Badtranny]

Melissa, your honesty and propensity to share is awe inspiring... you have so many here rooting for you! You are becoming a heroic if not legendary figure! xxx

Honesty has become extremely important to me. It always has been, but increasingly so lately. I've realized that not being honest with myself and the world has kept me from reaching my full potential. I didn't decide to transition that day in 2010, I decided to be honest with myself and if that meant transition than so be it. On that day I stopped pretending.

[Rebecca Star]

Honesty has become extremely important to me. It always has been, but increasingly so lately. I've realized that not being honest with myself and the world has kept me from reaching my full potential. I didn't decide to transition that day in 2010, I decided to be honest with myself and if that meant transition than so be it. On that day I stopped pretending.

Some very wise words which can be used in all facets of life. Taking a leaf from Reine, everyone has their road to travel or words to that affect.

[pickles]

Melissa can you post a new photo please?

This is so cool.

[ELIZABETH46]

OMG !!!!! give us an updated picture.
hope you doing well

[Badtranny]

Okay here is one I just took moments ago right here in my office. I'm beginning to smile more because the numbness in my upper lip is starting to go away.

[Cindy M]

Looking Oh-So-Good with yo Bad Self!!!!!!!!

[max]

Wow you are looking great.

[Anna Lorree]

Looking great, hon!!

Anna

[AllieSF]

HEY, HEY YOU! Where's the guy that used to work in this office?? Who are you anyway? I have a long planned meeting with him and then he goes and moves! What the heck? Actually, he was kinda a jerk sometimes. I hope you are nicer than he was. Hmmmm... This company some type of progressive one that promotes women into management jobs? Hmmm... I don't know what is happening around here. Maybe you can help me? Ya see, I got this installation job done by one of your competitors and I need some rapid fix the mistakes of others. You wouldn't have any ideas about fixing mistakes do you?? I hope you have an open mind and some suggestions on how to make it all work for the future. I am lost and at my limit today.

Pssst! You are cute and I really do love that smile. Is it new??

[MandyGG]

You are looking amazing!!!

[Badtranny]

You are looking amazing!!!

Amazing? Thanks but I would swear that I look almost exactly like I used to. Of course I was a damn beautiful man, so... ;-)

[Michelle.M]

Amazing? Thanks but I would swear that I look almost exactly like I used to.

OMG, I am SO glad I'm not the only one who has had those thoughts!

[morgan51]

Looking great Melissa! You're really healing beautifully. What a change in a few weeks,Congrats.

[Claire Cook]

Amazing? Thanks but I would swear that I look almost exactly like I used to. Of course I was a damn beautiful man, so... ;-)

I think what is amazing is how you have shared all of this with us. That smile -- there will be many more when all of the after effects have gone -- says it all.

[Inna]

I suppose it is quite remarkable feat to make someone appear just the same except a different gender! And that's exactly what is happening. One unfortunate side effect, it takes a darn long time!

And after all is done and face is healed, I still look into a mirror and see remnants of HIM, however, no one else does ! One quick way to solve it is to get arid of all the mirrors, but then it seems impractical. Then there is this more demanding way, in time we will be whole!

[Badtranny]

Here's a little better one I took this morning.

[LeaP]

News flash - based on the few pictures I've seen of you from the past, you don't look ANYTHING like you used to. I don't know about the beautiful man thing, but you are a pretty woman. You should have arranged for referral fees from Dr. Cardenas.

[ReineD]

Very pretty, Melissa! It's nice to see you smile, glad the upper lip numbness is finally wearing off. :hugs:

[Pamela Kay]

News flash - based on the few pictures I've seen of you from the past, you don't look ANYTHING like you used to. I don't know about the beautiful man thing, but you are a pretty woman. You should have arranged for referral fees from Dr. Cardenas.

Shhhhhh! She'll want me to pay her!

Really Melissa, you look totally awesome and I am feeling really comfortable with my decision to have my FFS with Dr Cardenas.
If he can do half as much with me as he has with you I'll be thrilled.

[kimdl93]

Wow, you look really pretty, Melissa!

[Stephanie-L]

Melissa, you just keep getting better and better as you heal. Thanks for keeping us posted..........Stephanie

[Noemi]

You do look pretty. A very passable lady, How Wonderful!!!

[Anna Lorree]

I have no reason to blow smoke, so this is an unbiased opinion. If I didn't already know, I would not have guessed you were anything other than any other woman.

Anna

[Amy Hepker]

Hope you are feeling better I know you will be happy with the results

[AudreyTN]

wow, amazing what the difference is! congrats!!!

[Kaitlyn Michele]

I'm very happy for you!!

You look natural and pretty...
and hopefully you feel the same way!!

[Badtranny]

You look natural and pretty...
and hopefully you feel the same way!!

I can't say that I do. ...but I know I will someday soon. ;-)

[Kaitlyn Michele]

I can't say that I do. ...but I know I will someday soon. ;-)

Typical..

my daughter is stunningly beautiful..but says "i'm ugly" when she looks in the mirror...welcome to that club!!

[Sally24]

Thanks for sharing Melissa. I have to agree that everything is coming together very well. I don't know how you feel but I know how you look. You look like a happy young woman with a beautiful head of hair and a great smile. Enjoy every day!

[pickles]

Lookin' good, thanks for posting!

[MandyGG]

That picture makes you look like Renee Zellweger. No lie.

[LisaMallon]

Looks great, well done, I'm envious. If manage to look half as good at the end going through my processes then I'll be very happy.