Foxglove
05-23-2012, 10:02 AM
Hi, All!
I don't remember what I've said on this issue in previous threads (I suppose I could go back and review my threads), but just to sum up: I live in a small town in Ireland, and right now I'm seriously considering coming out of the closet--openly going about my business dressed as I bloody well please.
I've been asking for advice on this question, and what I've got has been conflicting to a certain extent (which is to be expected), though I think most people agree that I should show some caution and restraint (which I think is wise).
I'm trying to come up with a strategy that might give me a greater chance of surviving my coming out. Rather than just suddenly appearing in public in all my glory (cough, cough), maybe I should try to prepare people in advance. One idea I've been given is to dress somewhat androgynously or in some way present more feminine traits.
I think that's a good idea, but I don't think I'm going to go with it. I really can't see myself in drab and wearing a necklace or having my fingernails painted or something like that, nor can I see myself partially dressed as fem--say a feminine top and shoes. I don't really want to present as an "effeminate man". There's nothing wrong with that, and it might suit a lot of people. It just isn't me. It just isn't the image I want to adopt.
But I've had another idea. Suppose I just let it be known that I'm TG. I wouldn't have to tell more than three or four people, and the whole town would know about it within a few days. But I wouldn't have to appear in public en femme straightaway. I could leave it for, say, a few months. Give people time to get used to the idea before they actually see me.
I think it's a strange idea. Why tell people what I am? Isn't that what we usually want to keep secret? But knowing myself as I do, I think that for people to be aware of the fact wouldn't bother me. In my mind, there's a difference between them knowing about me and actually seeing me dressed.
I could imagine the following scenario: I go into the supermarket and one of the checkout girls (hopefully the new one, who is just absolutely fabulous--how I envy that young girl!) might say, "Are you really TG?"
I don't think it would bother me at all to say, "That's right."
Now if she went on to ask, "Do you dress like a woman sometimes?", I think that one would be harder for me to answer. And it would be a bit hard for me to face her if she started giggling a bit.
I might well get some questions that would be difficult for me. But somehow it seems to me that would be easier than presenting in public straightaway en femme. It would also give me a chance to test the water a bit. If I do run into a lot of hostility, I'd have time to consider whether I want to take the matter any further.
As I say, I think this is a strange idea. Usually we avoid appearing en femme precisely because we don't want people to know we're TG. So I'd be telling people what normally you'd think I'd want to keep secret--and I wouldn't even have the benefit of doing what I want to do, that is, go about my business en femme. In other words, it seems to me I'd be doing things backwards. That at least would be typical of me.
And yet the idea does appeal to me in a way. I think that it probably wouldn't suit a lot of people, and I don't know that I've come across anybody on this forum who went about it this way.
But does anybody think there might be some merit to this idea, or am I just completely nuts?
Best wishes, Annabelle
I don't remember what I've said on this issue in previous threads (I suppose I could go back and review my threads), but just to sum up: I live in a small town in Ireland, and right now I'm seriously considering coming out of the closet--openly going about my business dressed as I bloody well please.
I've been asking for advice on this question, and what I've got has been conflicting to a certain extent (which is to be expected), though I think most people agree that I should show some caution and restraint (which I think is wise).
I'm trying to come up with a strategy that might give me a greater chance of surviving my coming out. Rather than just suddenly appearing in public in all my glory (cough, cough), maybe I should try to prepare people in advance. One idea I've been given is to dress somewhat androgynously or in some way present more feminine traits.
I think that's a good idea, but I don't think I'm going to go with it. I really can't see myself in drab and wearing a necklace or having my fingernails painted or something like that, nor can I see myself partially dressed as fem--say a feminine top and shoes. I don't really want to present as an "effeminate man". There's nothing wrong with that, and it might suit a lot of people. It just isn't me. It just isn't the image I want to adopt.
But I've had another idea. Suppose I just let it be known that I'm TG. I wouldn't have to tell more than three or four people, and the whole town would know about it within a few days. But I wouldn't have to appear in public en femme straightaway. I could leave it for, say, a few months. Give people time to get used to the idea before they actually see me.
I think it's a strange idea. Why tell people what I am? Isn't that what we usually want to keep secret? But knowing myself as I do, I think that for people to be aware of the fact wouldn't bother me. In my mind, there's a difference between them knowing about me and actually seeing me dressed.
I could imagine the following scenario: I go into the supermarket and one of the checkout girls (hopefully the new one, who is just absolutely fabulous--how I envy that young girl!) might say, "Are you really TG?"
I don't think it would bother me at all to say, "That's right."
Now if she went on to ask, "Do you dress like a woman sometimes?", I think that one would be harder for me to answer. And it would be a bit hard for me to face her if she started giggling a bit.
I might well get some questions that would be difficult for me. But somehow it seems to me that would be easier than presenting in public straightaway en femme. It would also give me a chance to test the water a bit. If I do run into a lot of hostility, I'd have time to consider whether I want to take the matter any further.
As I say, I think this is a strange idea. Usually we avoid appearing en femme precisely because we don't want people to know we're TG. So I'd be telling people what normally you'd think I'd want to keep secret--and I wouldn't even have the benefit of doing what I want to do, that is, go about my business en femme. In other words, it seems to me I'd be doing things backwards. That at least would be typical of me.
And yet the idea does appeal to me in a way. I think that it probably wouldn't suit a lot of people, and I don't know that I've come across anybody on this forum who went about it this way.
But does anybody think there might be some merit to this idea, or am I just completely nuts?
Best wishes, Annabelle