Cassi3
05-26-2012, 10:13 PM
I'm in Puerto Rico searching for my mother. I still have family here but had not told them I was coming. I just wanted to find my mother and get back home. Today while out shopping I ran into my cousin.
She, Sandra, and I grew up together and I remember watching her comb her hair, and learning to put makeup on from her older sister and desiring inside to wear the uniform she wore to school. I always admired her and wished to be a girl like her and to wear her clothes. We drifted apart as grew older, because our family said, girls with girls and boys with boys. Then high school and college and so on.... She dragged me to her home for lunch and for some reason I decided to tell her
Me: Sandra, I need to tell you something and you better sit down...
Sandra: Okay, tell me, I'm all ears
Me: Sandra, I have always felt that I was born wrong. Inside I feel that I do not belong in this body
Sandra: (interrupting of course) I knew it, I just knew there was always something wrong. You were never happy unless you were with me, watching everything I did. My parents thought you were creepy, but I knew it, I just knew it! And that time I caught you in my dress, that's when I really knew, I just knew it.
She gave me a HUGE HUGE hug and told me, she would always be there for me, and that the external package may change, but who I am inside will one day reflect the outside wrapping and she would be honored to be by my side through everything. I've been in absolute tears all day from the joy her words brought me.
I guess sometimes life saves those moments and surprise for those time we need them most... Just had to share right now :)
She, Sandra, and I grew up together and I remember watching her comb her hair, and learning to put makeup on from her older sister and desiring inside to wear the uniform she wore to school. I always admired her and wished to be a girl like her and to wear her clothes. We drifted apart as grew older, because our family said, girls with girls and boys with boys. Then high school and college and so on.... She dragged me to her home for lunch and for some reason I decided to tell her
Me: Sandra, I need to tell you something and you better sit down...
Sandra: Okay, tell me, I'm all ears
Me: Sandra, I have always felt that I was born wrong. Inside I feel that I do not belong in this body
Sandra: (interrupting of course) I knew it, I just knew there was always something wrong. You were never happy unless you were with me, watching everything I did. My parents thought you were creepy, but I knew it, I just knew it! And that time I caught you in my dress, that's when I really knew, I just knew it.
She gave me a HUGE HUGE hug and told me, she would always be there for me, and that the external package may change, but who I am inside will one day reflect the outside wrapping and she would be honored to be by my side through everything. I've been in absolute tears all day from the joy her words brought me.
I guess sometimes life saves those moments and surprise for those time we need them most... Just had to share right now :)