New and unusual feeling

[arbon]

Today I was feeling pretty good. I really was. :) That's what's new and unusual.

A sense of peace, accomplishment, strength in myself.

I'm not used to that!

I mean I am now, finally, living full time as Theresa, and I don't have to try to be him anymore, for anyone. Sure, there is still a long ways to go to get where I want to be physically and legally, and work is still rocky, but I feel good about how far I have come and where I am at now. That I got here I think is pretty amazing. I don't know that I have really felt good like this on this journey until now. I've always felt bogged down in that discomfort trying to live with two identities. This is an end to that, and I think I am starting to really realize it.

At work today - back to normal, co-wokers all using my male name. But at one point my boss was at the front when I was up there, and a client came in and said to him she was there to see Theresa (my clients are so cool about about my transition). My boss got to watch the whole interaction as I helped her...and I thought that rather my boss wants to acknowledge me or not, this is who I am now and he can get used to it, or maybe not. but he can't change who I am......I feel like I won. lol

Maybe tomorrow I go in and get canned, but I don't know, kinda doubt it as I think he would have done it long before now if he was going to do that. I think I'm going to be okay.

[Rianna Humble]

It's nice to get that "pretty good" feeling. I'm sorry your boss is still nt supporting you, but at least your clients are and that should send a message to those who are dragging their feet.

[Aprilrain]

the costumer is always right! (bosses are always A-holes) Its like a universal rule or something.

[Paula_56]

One day at at a time Theresa! I am amazed that your boss is so callous, your co-workers, Many company's have transgender policies? Have you soke with HR?

[Kaitlyn Michele]

You make a very good observation Theresa
I thought that rather my boss wants to acknowledge me or not, this is who I am now and he can get used to it, or maybe not. but he can't change who I am......


I like that thought....there's nothing he can do about it!! sounds like how you felt about your life (and me too!) for many many years..

i think as you go day by day, most people will both get used to it and see that you are thriving and it will get alot better...

[Julia_in_Pa]

Theresa,

Yes, I don't think your going to be OK I know you are.
You believe not only in yourself concerning your transition but also you believe in the power that you possess inside of you as the person that you are.
You have made the difficult steps in this and have shown not only your boss and co workers who you are but you have shown yourself who you are as well.


Julia

[Diane Elizabeth]

Sounds great.

I am coming out to my boss at the end of the month, myself. I am hoping that he will allow me to get uniforms with my new name on. I already know from HR that I will have to continue using the mens facilities for changing. I am worried though that I might not last long enough to come out at work. I have had some hormone imbalances that have them thinking I am mentally unbalanced and they are waiting for something to happen that will cause my discharge. here is one guy that likes to twist what happens and make it worse than it is. So I have no credibility right now.

Good luck Thersa. Are you not pushing for them to use your prefered name and pronouns?

[LeaP]

(bosses are always A-holes) Its like a universal rule or something.

I hope not! I am one! (probably am to some, though ... sigh)

Theresa, signs are good. As I recall, he was threatening to fire you if you took any steps at all. Maybe he's just full of it.

[arbon]

One day at at a time Theresa! I am amazed that your boss is so callous, your co-workers, Many company's have transgender policies? Have you soke with HR?

We do have a transgender policy! No make up, no skirts, dresses, keep them looking gender neutral, don't use their name, give them no breaks and hope they leave...I have talked to HR about it, who is my boss, the owner of the company...it is his policy, just for me :) Ain't I special :)

[Pamela Kay]

I'm really happy for you Theresa and glad your feeling good, also that your work environment is getting better.

Feeling good is the first step toward feeling Great!