emmicd
06-11-2012, 09:41 PM
The key to knowing who you are is the opportunity of expressing your true self to your loved ones and all those important to you. For me it is such a long, painful and winding road with no particular direction that will hopefully be rerouted to the right path that will lead me on a journey of self discovery and self awareness. I have been longing to find the support and help I needed in addressing my transgender feelings. I was so scared to take the proper steps in my earlier years but something propelled me forward to take baby steps in addressing my TG/TS issues.
For all those who feel transgendered and uncertain I will share some things I am starting to do to hopefully help myself and at the same time preserve the relationships with my family, my employer, my friends and all those important to me.
I am still feeling like I am doing this all by myself but I am slowly building a support system to draw strength from.
1. I have found a great electrologist who I have started going to now for 3 months and she has certainly done her part so far in helping remove facial hair but is truthful in telling me that it will most likely take a year to have most if not all of my facial hair removed.
2. I have started to see a therapist and am now in my 3rd month with her as well. I am visiting her now completely dressed and she is encouraging me to go to support groups and to get out dressed as often as I can. I am also relating painful experiences in my life that I had never discussed with anyone before. She is making a difference and she is there to support me and encourage me as I relate my transexual tendencies.
3. I have revealed my transgender issues to my primary doctor who is there to help and support me and i am seeing a doctor at Callen Lorde who is going to put me on female hormones in the very near future.
4. I am talking to my family openly about my transgender issues and trying to make it as easy for them to understand as best I can. It is a very difficult thing to talk about but i have found that I am becoming more open about it and am now revealing it to the ones I love and who are most important to me. I am all for going for family counselling and i want my wife to talk to a therapist to help her and am trying to schedule family meetings with my therapist. I am encouraging my son to talk to his therapist that he goes to as well and to not keep it inside. I want him to express how he feels so he can come to terms with it and hopefully understand my situation. I know it is too much for him to understand and I truly feel for him since he also deals with being autistic.
5. I have started going to support group meetings and trying to find the right fit. I feel it is important learning from others face to face who can share their experiences. I believe it is important not to feel alone.
6. I am finding opportunities to present more feminine out in public places but I still have a long way to go.
7. I am writing and expressing my feelings on transgender to help myself and to be more open about it. I have come to realize this is who I am and I should not have to live in fear anymore. I just want to be me and to be happy and to still love and support my family.
8. I am taking more interest in how I dress and how I look. I am taking vitamins and using skin treatments. I am losing weight. I lost 7 lbs in the last two weeks and am trying to lose another 18 lbs to get down to 150 lbs.
9. I am researching and learning about transitioning and all the proper steps to take so I will hopefully be as prepared as I can possibly be.
10. I am now working on being better as a person and not trying to feel sorry for myself. I am being more proactive and I am trying to express myself on this forum so I can learn from the other girls here and also express my feelings and thoughts on what it is like being TG/TS.
11. I am learning to realize that I am not alone and I believe that faith will help me. I am drawing closer to God for guidance and to pray for my family as I go through this journey.
12. I am trying to maintain a positive outlook and a happy disposition and I am envisioning the life I strive for as a woman.
I believe that life is a beautiful thing and we all must find ourselves and find our true self and we must live to find our happiness and to love our family and find peace, joy and faith. We must stay true to ourselves and we must be able to help ourselves before we can help the ones we love.
I am on a journey of self discovery and I realize what I have been dealing with since I was 5 years old. I am now doing the things I believe in my heart I am meant to do and I will continue to so I can live my life as the woman i have always felt I should be.
I am transgendered, transsexual and I am ok.
One day I hopefully will simply be just a woman and the very same person I have always been. I will always love my family and will be there for them until the day I die.
emmi
For all those who feel transgendered and uncertain I will share some things I am starting to do to hopefully help myself and at the same time preserve the relationships with my family, my employer, my friends and all those important to me.
I am still feeling like I am doing this all by myself but I am slowly building a support system to draw strength from.
1. I have found a great electrologist who I have started going to now for 3 months and she has certainly done her part so far in helping remove facial hair but is truthful in telling me that it will most likely take a year to have most if not all of my facial hair removed.
2. I have started to see a therapist and am now in my 3rd month with her as well. I am visiting her now completely dressed and she is encouraging me to go to support groups and to get out dressed as often as I can. I am also relating painful experiences in my life that I had never discussed with anyone before. She is making a difference and she is there to support me and encourage me as I relate my transexual tendencies.
3. I have revealed my transgender issues to my primary doctor who is there to help and support me and i am seeing a doctor at Callen Lorde who is going to put me on female hormones in the very near future.
4. I am talking to my family openly about my transgender issues and trying to make it as easy for them to understand as best I can. It is a very difficult thing to talk about but i have found that I am becoming more open about it and am now revealing it to the ones I love and who are most important to me. I am all for going for family counselling and i want my wife to talk to a therapist to help her and am trying to schedule family meetings with my therapist. I am encouraging my son to talk to his therapist that he goes to as well and to not keep it inside. I want him to express how he feels so he can come to terms with it and hopefully understand my situation. I know it is too much for him to understand and I truly feel for him since he also deals with being autistic.
5. I have started going to support group meetings and trying to find the right fit. I feel it is important learning from others face to face who can share their experiences. I believe it is important not to feel alone.
6. I am finding opportunities to present more feminine out in public places but I still have a long way to go.
7. I am writing and expressing my feelings on transgender to help myself and to be more open about it. I have come to realize this is who I am and I should not have to live in fear anymore. I just want to be me and to be happy and to still love and support my family.
8. I am taking more interest in how I dress and how I look. I am taking vitamins and using skin treatments. I am losing weight. I lost 7 lbs in the last two weeks and am trying to lose another 18 lbs to get down to 150 lbs.
9. I am researching and learning about transitioning and all the proper steps to take so I will hopefully be as prepared as I can possibly be.
10. I am now working on being better as a person and not trying to feel sorry for myself. I am being more proactive and I am trying to express myself on this forum so I can learn from the other girls here and also express my feelings and thoughts on what it is like being TG/TS.
11. I am learning to realize that I am not alone and I believe that faith will help me. I am drawing closer to God for guidance and to pray for my family as I go through this journey.
12. I am trying to maintain a positive outlook and a happy disposition and I am envisioning the life I strive for as a woman.
I believe that life is a beautiful thing and we all must find ourselves and find our true self and we must live to find our happiness and to love our family and find peace, joy and faith. We must stay true to ourselves and we must be able to help ourselves before we can help the ones we love.
I am on a journey of self discovery and I realize what I have been dealing with since I was 5 years old. I am now doing the things I believe in my heart I am meant to do and I will continue to so I can live my life as the woman i have always felt I should be.
I am transgendered, transsexual and I am ok.
One day I hopefully will simply be just a woman and the very same person I have always been. I will always love my family and will be there for them until the day I die.
emmi