My Lady Marsea
06-18-2012, 06:51 PM
I don't post here much, but like in a kinda funky mood lately concerning a future relationship. PLEASE, I don't want anyone to be reading wutever into my words here, there are no "hidden" agendas here, I'm not even trying to "pi** off" ANYONE. So just take the following at face value with a grain of salt. After like 2-3 years of effort I think this is mostly geared by me to a true 24/7, TG/TS who is/has transitioned to full time status, although ANYONE can respond...in a nice way. Once you've reached the point where you're like so totally NOT going to or can go back. Where you're on HRT and got apparent physical and mental changes, living and being female all day every day for the last 3-4 years with intentions to full surgery just ASAP after you win the lotto. All your basic paperwork and ducks are in a row including w/court ordered name changes and letters. Where you're OK, no real problems concerning yourself, it's the rest of the world wut's nuts lol. Maybe even those that are post-op I should ask, IDK.
Ok, so like here goes. You're older, don't look like a 20-30 cutie or wutever, look pretty good for almost 66 years young though, extra pounds and all, financially stable of sorts and are tired of living alone. You sorta come to the conclusion one clear day that OMG! Bi**h, you've boxed yourself in, IE: a straight male or straight female (in general....not counting those already involved like here who came in before the show started...read current SO, BF, GF) doesn't want anything to do with you, especially a macho guy who is like "no way am I gay". A gay guy doesn't want another guy w/boobs and a dress. A lesbian women doesn't want a women with a penis, and it seems most TG/TS/CD don't know wut they want concerning another like themselves.....and for good measure so totally toss in being over age 50....WTF over 60. The majority though it seems wants that "love, caring, acceptance, understanding, friend, SO, partner, yadda yadda" stuff though, just as I do. So, in my personal case, living in Podunk, USA, (hummm could THAT be the problem?) with little to nothing to participate in (and YES...I do my day to day female stuff and "own" it) with no relevant results all these years outside of the usual flirting at the stores, movies, libraries, local PFLAG type groups, hobby groups/clubs....yeah there are those who are "interested" and talk the talk and like wanna "get together" at a later date after exchanging phone #, but as far as walk the walk that's another story when push comes like to shove and you take 'em up one day on the offer. Suddenly most are too busy with this or that, even into the future. Wutever....so you turn to online sites to meet others. The majority ($$$/cost factor being set aside here) don't even have a drop down box for "I am/ I'm seeking" TG/TS and some nothing for the GLB much less a "T". Those that cater to us though of course do, but honestly most are meat (pun intended) markets and most also want $$$. Ok, so assume you join a few (which I did) and you're like me...a OMG equal opportunity girl lol...so you're willing to accept every box there is on everything and put out wut you figure is a knock 'em dead profile w/ full glossy 5 X 10 color prints. Well, maybe it's the age thing or wutever but it seems you only get 20 year old something guys with the "you're beautiful/cute/sexy/nice legs/nice tan (pick one) and even once in a while older neanderthals that can only form 5 word sentences using grunts and one syllable words and usually the word fu** is actually used as an adverb. Every now & then you get a older kewl guy but he bails out after the first one or two exchanges w/ some so totally lame excuse. Hardly any women respond on any site and honestly, like I'm not going to New York or Tennessee or even New Mexico any more than these people are coming to me in Arizona. I'm willing and even offered to drive up to 3-4 hrs after a few nice (and rare) exchanges with another, but never hear from them again. It seems most only want to like collect "friends" like face Book, lotsa pictures and be on line, long distance "buddies". And NO....NO....although I sound desperate here, it's truly a case of aarrrggghhh....so totally FRUSTRATED. Like wut do these people want? Why do they even join these sites if they're too shy or scared of rejection or pie in the sky aspirations and do they all think they'll just whip up a 20-30 yr old cutie for themselves?
Ok, this sorta turned more into a rant or wutever, but I'm just wondering is it only me that doesn't like wanna die alone in life???? .
Ok, so like here goes. You're older, don't look like a 20-30 cutie or wutever, look pretty good for almost 66 years young though, extra pounds and all, financially stable of sorts and are tired of living alone. You sorta come to the conclusion one clear day that OMG! Bi**h, you've boxed yourself in, IE: a straight male or straight female (in general....not counting those already involved like here who came in before the show started...read current SO, BF, GF) doesn't want anything to do with you, especially a macho guy who is like "no way am I gay". A gay guy doesn't want another guy w/boobs and a dress. A lesbian women doesn't want a women with a penis, and it seems most TG/TS/CD don't know wut they want concerning another like themselves.....and for good measure so totally toss in being over age 50....WTF over 60. The majority though it seems wants that "love, caring, acceptance, understanding, friend, SO, partner, yadda yadda" stuff though, just as I do. So, in my personal case, living in Podunk, USA, (hummm could THAT be the problem?) with little to nothing to participate in (and YES...I do my day to day female stuff and "own" it) with no relevant results all these years outside of the usual flirting at the stores, movies, libraries, local PFLAG type groups, hobby groups/clubs....yeah there are those who are "interested" and talk the talk and like wanna "get together" at a later date after exchanging phone #, but as far as walk the walk that's another story when push comes like to shove and you take 'em up one day on the offer. Suddenly most are too busy with this or that, even into the future. Wutever....so you turn to online sites to meet others. The majority ($$$/cost factor being set aside here) don't even have a drop down box for "I am/ I'm seeking" TG/TS and some nothing for the GLB much less a "T". Those that cater to us though of course do, but honestly most are meat (pun intended) markets and most also want $$$. Ok, so assume you join a few (which I did) and you're like me...a OMG equal opportunity girl lol...so you're willing to accept every box there is on everything and put out wut you figure is a knock 'em dead profile w/ full glossy 5 X 10 color prints. Well, maybe it's the age thing or wutever but it seems you only get 20 year old something guys with the "you're beautiful/cute/sexy/nice legs/nice tan (pick one) and even once in a while older neanderthals that can only form 5 word sentences using grunts and one syllable words and usually the word fu** is actually used as an adverb. Every now & then you get a older kewl guy but he bails out after the first one or two exchanges w/ some so totally lame excuse. Hardly any women respond on any site and honestly, like I'm not going to New York or Tennessee or even New Mexico any more than these people are coming to me in Arizona. I'm willing and even offered to drive up to 3-4 hrs after a few nice (and rare) exchanges with another, but never hear from them again. It seems most only want to like collect "friends" like face Book, lotsa pictures and be on line, long distance "buddies". And NO....NO....although I sound desperate here, it's truly a case of aarrrggghhh....so totally FRUSTRATED. Like wut do these people want? Why do they even join these sites if they're too shy or scared of rejection or pie in the sky aspirations and do they all think they'll just whip up a 20-30 yr old cutie for themselves?
Ok, this sorta turned more into a rant or wutever, but I'm just wondering is it only me that doesn't like wanna die alone in life???? .