Vaerise
11-15-2005, 10:38 AM
Hi all,
Its good to see that many of our active posters are still around giving advice to new members coming here to seek help.
I have been really busy so I have not been checking back here on how everyone's doing.
I understand that all of us here have our own personal issues to deal with, so I guess I am back here again with an update and getting some advice from you all, the wiser and more experienced sisters.
I have been seeing this gender therapist for about 2 months or so. In all my past visits, I have related my crossdressing or gender-related issues. I have had hope that him being the expert would be able to diagnose me and put a label to me. Whether I am truly Transexual or not, as I do not believe myself to be. Since I do possess certain traits that I consider masculine. So far the doctor has been giving me anti-depressants to cope with my depression.
While I must admit the "happy pills" do work for me, it still does not stop the dsyphoria attacks, each time I see females, I secretly wish to be them. After the 2 months on anti-depressants and a particular event, I decided to take a chance.
My last visit I went into my therapist office, and told him that I am actually doing fine, and that I no longer feel as depressed. Instead of accepting the meds as normal, I asked him to start giving me a letter so I can get prescription for Hormones. He asked me a few questions on my timeframe and plan for transitioning and what I plan to do after my transition. Shortly after that he wrote me an authorization memo, allowing me to purchase hormones from the pharmacies.
I was rather surprised, I had originally thought that we needed to be evaluated for a long period of time before they finally let us start on hormones.
When he gave me the memo, I got the impression that gender therapists, arent actually there to tell us who we are. They are just there to help us understand who we think we are.
I understand the changes brought about by the hormones are irrevisible, but being hormones at last, allows me to begin on a path of self discovery.
If I am truly a woman living in a man's body, I would welcome the change. If I am just going overboard with this fantasy of wanting to be a woman, I think I will soon reject the changes that is happening to me.
I considered myself transgendered but not transexual, I am wondering if what I am doing is a rather stupid or foolish thing to do.
I have been on progynova for about a week and have not notice anything significantly different, in physical or my mental state. Maybe a little calmer but thats about it. And maybe a strange fondness of eating beancurds...
Comments sisters?
Its good to see that many of our active posters are still around giving advice to new members coming here to seek help.
I have been really busy so I have not been checking back here on how everyone's doing.
I understand that all of us here have our own personal issues to deal with, so I guess I am back here again with an update and getting some advice from you all, the wiser and more experienced sisters.
I have been seeing this gender therapist for about 2 months or so. In all my past visits, I have related my crossdressing or gender-related issues. I have had hope that him being the expert would be able to diagnose me and put a label to me. Whether I am truly Transexual or not, as I do not believe myself to be. Since I do possess certain traits that I consider masculine. So far the doctor has been giving me anti-depressants to cope with my depression.
While I must admit the "happy pills" do work for me, it still does not stop the dsyphoria attacks, each time I see females, I secretly wish to be them. After the 2 months on anti-depressants and a particular event, I decided to take a chance.
My last visit I went into my therapist office, and told him that I am actually doing fine, and that I no longer feel as depressed. Instead of accepting the meds as normal, I asked him to start giving me a letter so I can get prescription for Hormones. He asked me a few questions on my timeframe and plan for transitioning and what I plan to do after my transition. Shortly after that he wrote me an authorization memo, allowing me to purchase hormones from the pharmacies.
I was rather surprised, I had originally thought that we needed to be evaluated for a long period of time before they finally let us start on hormones.
When he gave me the memo, I got the impression that gender therapists, arent actually there to tell us who we are. They are just there to help us understand who we think we are.
I understand the changes brought about by the hormones are irrevisible, but being hormones at last, allows me to begin on a path of self discovery.
If I am truly a woman living in a man's body, I would welcome the change. If I am just going overboard with this fantasy of wanting to be a woman, I think I will soon reject the changes that is happening to me.
I considered myself transgendered but not transexual, I am wondering if what I am doing is a rather stupid or foolish thing to do.
I have been on progynova for about a week and have not notice anything significantly different, in physical or my mental state. Maybe a little calmer but thats about it. And maybe a strange fondness of eating beancurds...
Comments sisters?