Emily Barton
06-29-2012, 01:24 PM
So a while ago in this thread (http://www.crossdressers.com/forums/showthread.php?175731-Progress-with-my-SO&highlight=) I mentioned that, amongst other things, I was thinking about telling my mum about my crossdressing.
Well, quite a lot has happened since then but to cut a longish story short, I told her about 5 or 6 days ago. For a while I'd had a letter written in Word which I kept reading through every few days, making a few changes and also trying to make sure I didn't have any doubts about sending it. Finally, when mine and my SO's exams finished I gave it one last read through and, unable to think of any good reason not to, I e-mailed it that night.
What's followed has been a series of e-mails back and forth, and for the most part I'm happy to say that my mum has been nothing but supportive. She says she feels overwhelmed and stunned by the news, and she also said she was hurt that I hadn't felt able to tell her sooner. I've done my best to explain my hesitance several times, that now is the first time I've really felt comfortable enough about myself to tell anyone, and I think (hope) she understands. She's had questions (How long has this been going on? How will this effect your relationship? Why tell me now?) and I've done my best to answer them as fully and as honestly as I can.
We've decided not to tell my dad or brother just yet as we're unsure how they would react. My mum has also requested that I take all my clothes out of hiding, so they'll actually be hanging up in my wardrobe at home when I leave uni (!!). My SO is from a foreign country and so our explanation of the clothes will be to say that they were hers, and we're looking after them because she was unable to fit them all in suitcases to take home with her on a plane. If anyone were to look at all closely they would see that they're not her style and also a couple of sizes too large (14 as opposed to 10/12), but I seriously doubt either my dad or brother would take any notice of that. I feel bad about putting her in a position where she has to lie to my dad, but I left it up to her whether we told him or not and she's currently unsure of how he would react.
As I'm writing this I'm still at university, but all my stuff is packed up and ready for me going home tomorrow. In my mum's most recent e-mail I've learned that she feels really out of her depth with this and is very worried about how this will affect our family life, so I have assured her that things will go on as normally as they can and will do my best to uphold that. I'm hoping that after a few days of me being at home and doing all the normal things that I do (darts with my brother, watching TV etc) she'll start to realise that this doesn't have to be a huge upheaval for any of us. We also have to work out logistics with washing/ironing the clothes without arousing suspicion, but I'm sure we'll figure it out.
I suspect the two of us will have a sit down at the first opportunity after I'm settled in back at home, which I'm nerovus about, but it should be good for the both of us. I really hope I've done the right thing by telling her, but only time will tell. At least now my clothes don't have to keep getting creased all folded up in a suitcase!
Well, quite a lot has happened since then but to cut a longish story short, I told her about 5 or 6 days ago. For a while I'd had a letter written in Word which I kept reading through every few days, making a few changes and also trying to make sure I didn't have any doubts about sending it. Finally, when mine and my SO's exams finished I gave it one last read through and, unable to think of any good reason not to, I e-mailed it that night.
What's followed has been a series of e-mails back and forth, and for the most part I'm happy to say that my mum has been nothing but supportive. She says she feels overwhelmed and stunned by the news, and she also said she was hurt that I hadn't felt able to tell her sooner. I've done my best to explain my hesitance several times, that now is the first time I've really felt comfortable enough about myself to tell anyone, and I think (hope) she understands. She's had questions (How long has this been going on? How will this effect your relationship? Why tell me now?) and I've done my best to answer them as fully and as honestly as I can.
We've decided not to tell my dad or brother just yet as we're unsure how they would react. My mum has also requested that I take all my clothes out of hiding, so they'll actually be hanging up in my wardrobe at home when I leave uni (!!). My SO is from a foreign country and so our explanation of the clothes will be to say that they were hers, and we're looking after them because she was unable to fit them all in suitcases to take home with her on a plane. If anyone were to look at all closely they would see that they're not her style and also a couple of sizes too large (14 as opposed to 10/12), but I seriously doubt either my dad or brother would take any notice of that. I feel bad about putting her in a position where she has to lie to my dad, but I left it up to her whether we told him or not and she's currently unsure of how he would react.
As I'm writing this I'm still at university, but all my stuff is packed up and ready for me going home tomorrow. In my mum's most recent e-mail I've learned that she feels really out of her depth with this and is very worried about how this will affect our family life, so I have assured her that things will go on as normally as they can and will do my best to uphold that. I'm hoping that after a few days of me being at home and doing all the normal things that I do (darts with my brother, watching TV etc) she'll start to realise that this doesn't have to be a huge upheaval for any of us. We also have to work out logistics with washing/ironing the clothes without arousing suspicion, but I'm sure we'll figure it out.
I suspect the two of us will have a sit down at the first opportunity after I'm settled in back at home, which I'm nerovus about, but it should be good for the both of us. I really hope I've done the right thing by telling her, but only time will tell. At least now my clothes don't have to keep getting creased all folded up in a suitcase!