Now it Begins

[LisaMallon]

Well I had my 3rd meeting with the Gender specialist and he's recommended that I start hormones.

He'll write up his report and recommendations when he gets back from holiday in August so I should be starting in early September.

So off to the docs for tests in the interim, check out current hormone levels and liver health, etc, etc and much etc.

The game's afoot.

[Persephone]

Congratulations Lisa!

Hugs,
Persephone.

[melissaK]

Feels good doesn't it. It means so much. All the years of worry we go through to figure ourselves out, and for most of us the years of anxiety of trying to be who we aren't, are all coming to an end with the prospect of better days.

Perhaps our stories are like those of any emmigrant. Like the Irish in the 1850's - for a decade you knew you needed out, you were starving, had no work, and your soul was being crushed. Finally you make it to the docks in Cork, and finally you get to board a boat for the US (or Canada, or Australia). You haven't been to the US before, you don't know for sure what it'll be like when you get there, you speak Gaelic and not the King's English and you know you'll be "made" as an immigrant when you first arrive. But you're following in the footsteps of those who emmigrated before you and they've told you "it IS better." All you know is going there has to be better because it can't be worse.

So congratulations on the Visa to emmigrate!

Hugs,
'lissa

[Traci Elizabeth]

August is only weeks away. Before you know it you will be popping those pills daily. Congrats.

[LisaMallon]

Yeh, I think because of my age, daily aspirin is going to be part of my regime as well.

I've signed up for voice training and just waiting for a slot and I'm applying to do a a make up course as well.

Hair is going to the next thing. I've grown it quite long and it is nice and full and curly.
But I cannot make up my mind how I want it too look. I used to be undecided, now I'm just not sure.

I'm just going to have to try a few things and see how they go.

[LisaMallon]

It's funny, since I finally admitted to myself that I was TS (and stopped running away from it) I find a lot of internal metal 'firewalls' crumbling away.

All those things I had carefully constructed over the decades to be 'manly'. Even things like some body movements.
Lots of emotions coming out that had long been buried.

Gosh, if I'm like this now, I'm going to be a blubbering mess for a while when I start hormones.