I don't know where I am.

[Contessa]

Not all of a year ago I had realized that I was a crossdresser. I took this in stride a setup my inner persona to begin a life. Once I began fully dressing as a woman I knew that it was correct. It is me, myself as I am Contessa Marie H the name I took for me. My wife giveth it and I take it as it fits.

Now as some time has passed I find myself no longer feeling that I am a crossdresser. I no longer want to be my male self. That person I can't go back to being is unlike the new or whole me as he was/is but a small person. Seemingly helpless I can't help him he is going away. I Contessa am a very happy person. So I have taken over.

Where am I now, I am a person so I will have to begin dressing as everyone expects me for I am a gurl(girl) on the out side. So I wont be crossdressing as I will wear girl clothes 24/7. I wont have an operation so I am not transitioning. I have moved along the spectrum but where.

Please help me I don't where I am.


Tess

[RainyNightGirl]

Oh sweetie, same place as me.....deep in a pink fog where you cannot see the sun. I am confused too, of who/what I am and where I am going. But time will tell, please just have patience and be true to yourself.

((((HUGS)))))
Natasha
x

[Vickie_CDTV]

You can transition without having SRS (many TS never do for various reasons.) I would think long and very hard about transitioning and take it very slow. It can be a long and painful road, and some folks lose everything. Be careful.

[Maria 60]

What i find is we make big steps forward and then it makes things more complicated, years ago i was just happy putting on a skirt and pantyhose and relaxing around the house. Now i have to wear my wig, bra ,panties, heels, fem earrings, ankle bracelet, pantyhose, breast forms etc. I have taken many steps forward but before i was happy with very little and wound'nt take up much time. Now i need at least an hour to dress, it's great to move forward but it comes with a price, i can't go back. You have to take it slow, it looks like you moved very fast in a short amount of time, and the most important thing is to always remain focused, and think and then react, not the other way around.

[Cynthia Anne]

Contessa, you are at the same place that I'm at! Where ever that may be! I wouldn't worry too much where you are at since you are happy being there! One thing for sure since you are happy you are in a great place to be! Hugs!

[Karren H]

I really don't understand why we need to know "where" we are or "where" were going? What is so wrong with doing what your doing right now and being happy there?

[Marleena]

I really don't understand why we need to know "where" we are or "where" were going? What is so wrong with doing what your doing right now and being happy there?

I have to agree with Karren here. If you can keep this stuff under control just enjoy it.

[Laura912]

Agree with Karren on this. Where does your wife fit in this?

[jillleanne]

Worry about health and happiness. The rest is irrelevant.

[TGMarla]

You're probably experiencing a nice case of pink fog. Look around you and count your blessings. Transition is not a nicely paved smooth road. It's full of pot holes and loose gravel. You probably will enjoy wearing pretty dresses and high heels a lot more as a crossdresser than you would as a transitioning female. You may want to take a nice, deep breath and come down off the cliff. And give your wife a hug.