Duana
07-16-2012, 09:31 PM
I don't think I've posted in about a year, not really sure. I haven't really needed the companionship, discussion, support or conflict, as life has been going well. But having checked in, I began reading again and I see a lot of new faces as well as a lot of familiar ones. I've seen growth in some and regression in others. I suppose that's life.
I'm glad that time has vindicated me and opened the eyes of some of the blind. That's all I'll say about that. I'm not here to gloat :)
I've been crossdressing about 1/2 the time with down periods of weeks at a time where I don't do anything but underdress. I even boxed everything up and moved it to remote storage for about 6 weeks.
Why? I'm glad you asked. :) Well, it sure wasn't a purge. I'll never purge. I've got $5k or more in shoes, handbags, clothes and "equipment".
My biggest struggle with crossdressing is not society's lack of acceptance. I deal with that pretty well. I have no issues with my partner Gigi, as she is 100% supportive and encouraging. I have no internal struggles with being a CD either. I like myself and I'm comfortable with all of it.
What I find is, when I'm Duana, it's a hell of a lot harder for me to focus on the important things.
This is one of the few times where I feel like two people. Because honestly, putting on the clothes doesn't magically change my mindset or attitude to any great degree. I'm still the same boy under the dress. Except for this lack of concentration on much else but simply being Duana.
So when I put my things away, it was to do real work. I had to reluctantly acknowledge Duana likes to play too much. She loves to spend the day playing with her hair (I haven't cut mine in almost a year now) or trying on clothes, or shopping.
Anything but work.
Ultimately, I resolved to fight it; to prove I was wrong... that Duana could be as productive as her male counterpart. The first time I tried, I failed miserably. But I'm happy to say, I've gradually reached a point where Duana can actually get things done. She's still not 100% but progress is progress.
And the best part is, working as Duana is fun. And I'm very lucky to have my own business and an encouraging spouse so I can do it.
I'm posting this because I know I'm not alone. I read a CD blog post about this months ago and it really resonated with me.
I'll leave you with this. All things are possible, even if crossdressed. But that doesn't mean they're easy. The key for me is, feel lucky to be able to work as a girl because the alternative isn't near as much fun.
Abrazos,
Duana
ETA: Just realized, I did post my Valentines pics.
I'm glad that time has vindicated me and opened the eyes of some of the blind. That's all I'll say about that. I'm not here to gloat :)
I've been crossdressing about 1/2 the time with down periods of weeks at a time where I don't do anything but underdress. I even boxed everything up and moved it to remote storage for about 6 weeks.
Why? I'm glad you asked. :) Well, it sure wasn't a purge. I'll never purge. I've got $5k or more in shoes, handbags, clothes and "equipment".
My biggest struggle with crossdressing is not society's lack of acceptance. I deal with that pretty well. I have no issues with my partner Gigi, as she is 100% supportive and encouraging. I have no internal struggles with being a CD either. I like myself and I'm comfortable with all of it.
What I find is, when I'm Duana, it's a hell of a lot harder for me to focus on the important things.
This is one of the few times where I feel like two people. Because honestly, putting on the clothes doesn't magically change my mindset or attitude to any great degree. I'm still the same boy under the dress. Except for this lack of concentration on much else but simply being Duana.
So when I put my things away, it was to do real work. I had to reluctantly acknowledge Duana likes to play too much. She loves to spend the day playing with her hair (I haven't cut mine in almost a year now) or trying on clothes, or shopping.
Anything but work.
Ultimately, I resolved to fight it; to prove I was wrong... that Duana could be as productive as her male counterpart. The first time I tried, I failed miserably. But I'm happy to say, I've gradually reached a point where Duana can actually get things done. She's still not 100% but progress is progress.
And the best part is, working as Duana is fun. And I'm very lucky to have my own business and an encouraging spouse so I can do it.
I'm posting this because I know I'm not alone. I read a CD blog post about this months ago and it really resonated with me.
I'll leave you with this. All things are possible, even if crossdressed. But that doesn't mean they're easy. The key for me is, feel lucky to be able to work as a girl because the alternative isn't near as much fun.
Abrazos,
Duana
ETA: Just realized, I did post my Valentines pics.