RachelDee
11-17-2005, 02:06 PM
I ordered some urrm, white lace-top stockings from a seller on eBay (new of course, nothing dodgy! I get all my clothes from eBay) to go with this nice pink skirt i have. Hopefully they will anyways... getting a better camera soon so i might be able to take some pics :D ill see...
Anyhow, I live at home with my parents and today nothing appeared to arrive for me. Which was disapointing but not unexpected, they might have sent them second class post. Well it seems something did arrive, but the person that sent it had put the address on and my name was 'obscured' so my parents opened it thinking it was for them.... :eek: Not knowing where this item came from for no reason, when they looked at the recept and saw my name they got even more confused.
So i got greeted with that this morning :o
"We opened this thinking it was for us, but it says its for you. Lace-top stockings?"
I knew when she showed me the opened packet somehow what she was about to say...well there was a moments pause. Then i went to the emergency 'Plan Z' stating that the person on eBay had sent me the wrong item. Yep all a big mistake! So with some slight of hand i managed to swop the item out with something equal in size weight and wrap it back up and 'pretended' to post it back to them today when i went to the shops... i don't like lieing but i couldnt think of anything else. I think i managed to conceal my embaressment pretty well :thumbsup: and just tried to act 'supprised' as they were about what had arrived.
For a brief period i almost told them. I was trying to word it in my head, and would have said "I think i should tell you the truth, I think I might actually want to be a girl, I have been quiet about it so i dont cause anyone any embaressment or problems (including myself) until i know for sure. The appointments with the therapist for OCD has actually been discussing this issue recentley." I have thought about it twice the past week, telling my mother that is, while she was on her own but it just didnt happen.
My mum said something strange though later about it..
"Sorry if i embarresed you today. I was just supprised, thought they were a free sample or something till i saw your name on them. I didnt know if i should have put them in your room or not..."
Put them in my room? So she thought maybe i had actually ordered them, for me.... +? The fact that they seemed to be very quiet about it and then 'present' it to me like evidence was a bit suspect, like they expected me to break down and say "Yes yes! They were for me"... but maybe im just being paranoid. hehe.
The therapist i see for OCD, has been going through the CDing with me. He told me that i should carry on exploring and that im not hurting anyone, i indicated to him that i would like someone in my family to know, as i feel guilty but he said that he does not think im ready to tell other people just yet. Not until i figured out what it is for myself at least. He booked me another appointment next week (i usually go monthly) so ill see what he has to say. But this was a close one... i have come close to being found out once or twice before (mainly leaving nail polish on my toes and forgetting to wear socks and walking barefoot.... very close shaves with that).
Anyhow, I live at home with my parents and today nothing appeared to arrive for me. Which was disapointing but not unexpected, they might have sent them second class post. Well it seems something did arrive, but the person that sent it had put the address on and my name was 'obscured' so my parents opened it thinking it was for them.... :eek: Not knowing where this item came from for no reason, when they looked at the recept and saw my name they got even more confused.
So i got greeted with that this morning :o
"We opened this thinking it was for us, but it says its for you. Lace-top stockings?"
I knew when she showed me the opened packet somehow what she was about to say...well there was a moments pause. Then i went to the emergency 'Plan Z' stating that the person on eBay had sent me the wrong item. Yep all a big mistake! So with some slight of hand i managed to swop the item out with something equal in size weight and wrap it back up and 'pretended' to post it back to them today when i went to the shops... i don't like lieing but i couldnt think of anything else. I think i managed to conceal my embaressment pretty well :thumbsup: and just tried to act 'supprised' as they were about what had arrived.
For a brief period i almost told them. I was trying to word it in my head, and would have said "I think i should tell you the truth, I think I might actually want to be a girl, I have been quiet about it so i dont cause anyone any embaressment or problems (including myself) until i know for sure. The appointments with the therapist for OCD has actually been discussing this issue recentley." I have thought about it twice the past week, telling my mother that is, while she was on her own but it just didnt happen.
My mum said something strange though later about it..
"Sorry if i embarresed you today. I was just supprised, thought they were a free sample or something till i saw your name on them. I didnt know if i should have put them in your room or not..."
Put them in my room? So she thought maybe i had actually ordered them, for me.... +? The fact that they seemed to be very quiet about it and then 'present' it to me like evidence was a bit suspect, like they expected me to break down and say "Yes yes! They were for me"... but maybe im just being paranoid. hehe.
The therapist i see for OCD, has been going through the CDing with me. He told me that i should carry on exploring and that im not hurting anyone, i indicated to him that i would like someone in my family to know, as i feel guilty but he said that he does not think im ready to tell other people just yet. Not until i figured out what it is for myself at least. He booked me another appointment next week (i usually go monthly) so ill see what he has to say. But this was a close one... i have come close to being found out once or twice before (mainly leaving nail polish on my toes and forgetting to wear socks and walking barefoot.... very close shaves with that).