Fear is the mind killer

[Andie Elisabeth]

And when I thought I have finally made my mind to overcome it I got shot back. The therapist with who I tried to make an appointment with doesn't have a contract with my insurance company. Crap, she's probably the most experienced one in my country, at least what I've heard.

Nevertheless she pointed me to sexological institute (Psychiatrist specialized in sexology is a key figure in my country). And they have a contract with my insurance company. The head of this institute seems to be LGBT friendly, I googled him. Right now I am trying to overcome my fear that lashes back every time make another step forward.

TL;DR: I just needed to vent my fear. I am moving forward.

[the_shark]

Vent all you like. It's more than nessesary at times. Good luck with your new therapist.

Hey, you can do this. You are brave and all of us on here have faith in you and your journey.

Best wishes,
Adam

[Jorja]

Fear is a normal human response to making a move like moving forward. It is the fear of the unknown. You will look back on it in a few months and say, meh, what was the big deal.

[Andie Elisabeth]

Little update: After couple of hours I was able to push through, bad luck, no one answered. At least I have their number at the top of my list on my cell phone. Tomorrow is D day

[elizabethamy]

Don't give up, Andie! You need this connection, and you need it now. Go for it!

[Andie Elisabeth]

So I had to scare myself a little bit more, I couldn't make myself to dial the number, but I've got an appointment. Sheesh, in less than 48 hours (45 hours 12 minutes). (^_^)

[LisaMallon]

Know the feeling well. I had researched this totally, knew the issues .. and kept putting it off. And off, for 2 years.

Until a TG friend was around and I finally, in front of them, made the appointment.

I have a PhD in procrastination.

[Andie Elisabeth]

I am back from first session of therapy. It was uncomfortable because talking to a man about being trans is weird. Anyhow I'll have to see another therapist (who is not a medical doctor) next week. The down side is he's a man too.

Right now I am just scared what will happen next.

[AudreyTN]

I am back from first session of therapy. It was uncomfortable because talking to a man about being trans is weird. Anyhow I'll have to see another therapist (who is not a medical doctor) next week. The down side is he's a man too.

Right now I am just scared what will happen next.

can you not find a woman doctor? I couldn't go to a man doctor because I am very distrusting of men and I don't feel comfortable at all, especially with something like this. unfortunately my endocrinologist is a male, but I only have to see him every now and then, so I can deal with that.

[Andie Elisabeth]

I wanted to make an appointment with woman therapist but it would stall the process by at least a month and half because I don't know my schedule at uni yet. Not to mention I'd have to change my insurance company which I can do only once in 12 months, the catch is 6 month notice and the change will be valid from 1/1/2014. And my budget doesn't allow me to pay in cash right now.

[Traci Elizabeth]

Fear is a normal human response to making a move like moving forward. It is the fear of the unknown. You will look back on it in a few months and say, meh, what was the big deal.


:iagree: .

[Babeba]

You are facing your fear. You are allowing it to flow over you and through you. Soon the fear will be gone and only you will remain.