The urge is back

[Elizabeth Marie]

For a little more than three years my crossdressing has been pretty dormant. I have continued to lurk around this site, and about once every two or three months I would get dressed (no makeup) for an hour or so just for physical release. Once I was done, I would just put everything away for another two to three months.

Well, that seems to have changed. In the last week, I have been out dressed three times. Last Thursday morning, I thought it was just going to be a dress and release session; Instead, I got the urge to put on makeup and go out dressed. I ended up buying a pair of boots at Payless. On Sunday night, I went out dressed to buy gas and and some groceries. This morning, I went out to one of our local malls and just walked around a bit, then stopped at a park on the river. I'm already planning to go out dressed this Thursday and next Monday and Tuesday.

This has kind of caught me by surprise, but pleasantly so. I have been very happy the last few years even with the dressing dormant, but right now I feel I have the best of all possible worlds.

Just had to post this.

[TeresaL]

What is with this urge to go out in public? It's hitting me strongly too.

As I'm learning how to speak in the female range, I am having great satisfaction talking with others as I am out. As I was discussing wig conditioners with the SA at Salley Hansen, she gave me this look, and I outed myself.

She then told me, "i was just deep in thought trying to think where the product is." Then she said "did you say you are not a woman?"

I said "yes", and tried to explain.

Undaunted, she kept telling she couldn't believe it, then touched my face and asked where my beard was. She said that in no way, shape or form could she tell that I was anything but a woman... Even my voice was undetetctable.

So I want to go out, socialize, and enjoy life as a woman. Will I eventually get clocked? Maybe, but hopefully it's few and far in between times.

[Kaz]

Not all of us have the urge to go out, but I do... and I can't explain it at all. It is ingrained. Elizabeth Marie, I have had lapses but for the last 6 years or so I have just accepted that this is me... but I still periods when I don't do much. At the moment I am working a lot from home and get the opportunity to dress most days and nights, but not make-up etc... my wife lives with me and is not 'that' accepting!

It is now 3 months since I did a full Kaz transformation and I so miss it... It hurts... The more you do it the more it becomes 'normal'... the more you leave it the more you need to get involved when you do get back to it...

I am already planning my return... and I shall be out and about with a vengeance!

[Beverley Sims]

Always have the urge to present as a woman.
The urge does go up and down, as the weather gets warmer the urge increases.

[Barbara Ella]

Oh my goodness Elizabeth Marie. Do you see what you have started. Beware of the full on Kaz assult. they leave you speechless. I too know the feeling. I have only been out four times in my one year, but i do miss it so, and had that feeling yesterday, but for wife reasons cannot go out whenever the feeling hits. I have to plan ahead, and that is difficult.

The feelings that catch you by surprise are the most satisfying i think. Things just start, and keep on feeling good, and just keep on developing, and before you know it, you are fully dressed and heading out the door. Much less worry when they happen spontaneously. Enjoy them.

Barbara

[kimdl93]

Welcome back. We missed you ;)


You've followed a pretty familiar path. I bet that most of us initially assumed that we were fetish/sexually motivated CDrs, only to discover that the desire to dress had diverged from the sexual motivation. I don't know for certain, but I think that going out and socializing en femme is a way of validating ourselves as humans and as transgendered people. In a sense, escaping the confines of our closet makes us "real".

[Amy R Lynn]

There must be something in the air. I REALLY want to spread my wings and let this beautiful butterfly fly. I have yet to make an appearance outside of my bedroom. I have a few friends that are spportive and want to go with me. So I don't have to go at it alone. I just have to find the right time, and I still have to shave down. Can't be a convincing woman with my fur coat attached. Off with the Hair!

[May(be)]

Is there a Genesis for these feelings that you can trace them back to? Did you recently watch a movie or TV show CD related? Did you catch a whiff a particular scent that reminds you of dressing? Was there a sale at Victoria's Secret? just curious. I fund my urge is sparked by certain triggers.

Also, that was a very profound observation, Kim!

[Kaz]

Oh my goodness Elizabeth Marie. Do you see what you have started. Beware of the full on Kaz assult. they leave you speechless. I too know the feeling. I have only been out four times in my one year, but i do miss it so, and had that feeling yesterday, but for wife reasons cannot go out whenever the feeling hits. I have to plan ahead, and that is difficult.

The feelings that catch you by surprise are the most satisfying i think. Things just start, and keep on feeling good, and just keep on developing, and before you know it, you are fully dressed and heading out the door. Much less worry when they happen spontaneously. Enjoy them.

Barbara

Woah! Full on Kaz assault? Apologies... just a case of typing too fast... as our good friend Az Azeel reminds us... before you speak put your brain in gear! :)

I should heed that advice more often!

It is nerve racking actually... going out, that is. I love it but it continues to scare me and I am not in the same league as some here. I don't really do socialising - all I want is to be able to walk around and feel good in myself. If I ever get there, I will probably want to go further... that is my nature... I don't like to stand still... but I have been at a limiting level for a while now. Over 3 months of not going out... yeah, I have plans... but the confidence levels have dropped enormously! Will I do it? Well, that is to be seen!

You take care... this is a rollercoaster that we are on... sometimes up and sometimes down... When we are down we need our friends... When we are up... we also need our friends! :heehee:

[Gena Gurl]

Elizabeth, me too! I have not dressed in over 5-6 years Wife would not approve outside just wearing panties.) and now divorced for 5 years I cought the fever to dress and as you all know once you cach it, it takes over like wildfire. Add a supporting GF and I have blossomed. I have never ventured out, but my friend is so wanting to take me out, she thinks I can pass. I have been thinking about it and it is now consuming a lot of my thoughts. I told her that I will go out not this weekend but next and she was so excited and said that she will have to do her best make-up yet. So, here goes, I will give a report of that evening (Going to a CD friendly club in Dallas.) wish me luck

[Kaz]

Wishing you look Gena!

[Kaz]

Is there a Genesis for these feelings that you can trace them back to? Did you recently watch a movie or TV show CD related? Did you catch a whiff a particular scent that reminds you of dressing? Was there a sale at Victoria's Secret? just curious. I fund my urge is sparked by certain triggers.

Also, that was a very profound observation, Kim!

Hi May,

I think this would be a great topic for a new thread - I am sure you would get a lot of responses... xx

[Elle1946]

I call it the roller coaster effect!

[CONSUELO]

I have experienced the same fluctuation in desire. Sometimes I just have to be dressed as frequently as possible and these feelings may last weeks or months. Then I have periods when the desire is almost dormant. During these "dormant" periods I still dress exclusively in knickers and sleep in a nightgown, but that seems to be enough. It is strange and frustrating and I cannot relate it to any other changes in my feelings. It would be a good thread topic.

[BLUE ORCHID]

Hi Elizabeth, I dress almost every night and some nights when I don't
want to dress I worry that maybe I'm loosing the desire to dress.
I can't imagine going years.

[May(be)]

Hi May,

I think this would be a great topic for a new thread - I am sure you would get a lot of responses... xx

It's all yours. I have a different thread lined up for tomorrow that I am pretty excited to post about.

[Barbra P]

Unlike the tide that rises and fall on a regular schedule, the Pink Fog can roll in totally unexpectedly.

[docrobbysherry]

When a "fetish" CD finally grows up and moves on!:sad:

But, I guess growing and becoming a TS is INEVITABLE! :straightface:

Bye, Elizabeth! Call or email once in a while, won't u please?

We love u!:hugs:

[Julia Stevens]

I lose the desire to dress sometimes. I feel like I just can't be bothered with it. It always comes back though.

[Michelle (Oz)]

Such interesting comments. Four years since I've dressed and gone out ended yesterday. The pink fog has descended big time. Today was awesome shopping and dining out. Oh, wow ... still trying to come down from an Everest high.

I knew after 3 people went by today that I don't pass but that's not a surprise to me but not one bad expereince. I have tomorrow morning then sadly back home to an unaccepting wife ... what a bummer.

Is that what is meant by the roller coaster ride?