Learned more

[Dani Alana Taylor]

So I was the only one home for the past three days and I was really excited because I got to dress the whole time (except for classes on Thursday and Friday and hockey once) but I was really excited about that. Wednesday was the longest I have ever been dressed. The longest before that was maybe 7 hours but this time it was from about 7 to 12. I even went out driving that first night in black boots a skirt and a shirt with a leather coat, and of course wore my first wig the entire day.

Crossdressing is always more of a sexual thing for me but at times I think it feels almost right. Only wearing the clothes part. However with doing it the whole day, and going through the normal outfits a girl wears in a day, you know the yoga pants and tank top when you get up, then eventually got dressed into an everyday skirt and shirt outfit, then during dinner put on hose a nice tight black dress with cute heels as if I was going out for dinner, then back into yoga pants an a Victoria secret pink hoodie wich is so comfortable. To get ready for bed, changed my mind.

Well I planned to sleep in panties a bra and a tank top but by the time I was ready for bed I did not want to wear woman's clothing at all anymore. So I took it off and went to bed. Next day was my first day of classes for my new semester and I relized then with being a guy again that I really do like being a guy. As much as I like wearing woman's clothing at times, I like checking out girls more haha.

So finally that takes me to yesterday afternoon. I put on a nice dress and, let's say pleased my self, then left it on to see how I felt after the rush and couldn't wait to be a guy again. So this all tells me alot more of where I am at which is I like crossdressing for the thrill of it but as for the other aspects, don't please me as much and I just like being a guy.

If you read all this thank you haha and I'm just really happy to have a better understanding of where I'm at.

[Jordan-NH]

I have very similar feelings as you. I have days where I just love being dressed up and then there are days that I actually have no desire. No idea why one day to the next. Sometimes it's sexual, sometimes not. I'm finding the not a lot more these days, but then some days I need it to become aroused. But exactly like you, if I pleasure myself, I have no desire to be with Brittany afterwards. I'm at the sage in my life now where I don't really try to figure out why one way or the other anymore, I just go with what ever feeling hits me. I will admit that there is something wonderful about yoga pants. I don't even own men's pajamas anymore. Every morning, yoga pants and my favorite Old Navy tee. And don't even get me going on Victoria. Damn her incredible style and foolishly high prices!!

[Ann Thomas]

I had to laugh in understanding reading your story. I went through the same thing at your age. As I got into my 20's the desires for women won out over crossdressing, so I quit for at least a decade. Then the desires got stronger and stronger again (I think that goes along with the normal reduction in testosterone as the male body ages), and I found that just in order to stay focused on life I had to dress female. Otherwise, the desires made daily living difficult. It's hard to be focused on sex all day long when you need to be focusing on work, for example. By dressing female, I can focus on the work much easier.

If you're anything like me, and you're looking for a life partner, be sure to find one that is fine with crossdressing, and not just in the bedroom for sexual fantasies, but for all the time. I so wish someone had told me that when I was your age! Things would have been so different for me! (For example I would have changed the social circle I had entrenched myself in, in search of one more accepting of CDs.) You may not see that in your future at this point but you should plan for it anyway to be on the safe side.

I have two kids, both a little older than you. I told the same thing to my son when he turned 18. He also crossdresses a bit like you describe, but more often wears androgynous clothes at this point. Crossdressing runs in my family - or more like gallops (to steal a line from Arsenic and Old Lace).

Hugs,
Ann

[anonymousinmaryland]

I believe we all have these feelings. Some days it's drab, some days I wake up and GOTTA HAVE IT ON. (the bra, or whatever) ASAP. NOW!

[Miriam-J]

You're far from alone. There are many of us who fully enjoy being a guy while also fully enjoying the experience of dressing en femme - frequently or occasionally.

My wife is very supportive of my dressing, including shopping together for women's clothes and assistance with appearance. But my 20-year-old son living with us does not know, and we agree that telling him would not be compatible with his current mental state and understanding. Hence, when we summer when he is unfortunately without job or school, like this last one, means I have far fewer opportunities to dress up and I gain even more desire for it. When I do have opportunity I find it to be very stimulating at first, then relaxing as I allow myself more time. Now that college has begun again for my son and I have more opportunities, I find that I can relax while dressed from the beginning - and can take the time to experiment more with makeup, clothing, and accessories. This is much more satisfying. I also find that it's much easier to give it up and dress as a guy again a few hours later.

As you read on this forum you find many variations from this theme, but since I've joined the forum many months ago I've learned that a noticeable portion of us are close to this experience.

Miriam

[Sarah Doepner]

I like the way you reflected on this experience; You Learned more. We are often told that to be happy we need to live in the present and that's what happens when we go with the flow and recognize how comfortable we can be once we are dressed en femme. But it is so important to look back at what you did and how you felt about it too. We are constantly learning about our world, the people we are with and often neglect learning about ourselves. I say good for you! I'm still learning and hope, not just on your gender but for your life, you keep learning.