cdsammy80
09-09-2012, 02:45 PM
Hi,
Up until now I have been using Sammy as my name as it was a simple (and not very inventive) version of my actual name.
When my GF and I went away recently I got to dress each evening that we were away and didn't really feel as if I could enjoy my girl role, being called Sammy just made me feel as if I was me in a dress rather than the girl I wanted to present as.
So I've been thinking about changing my alter ego name to Robyn, I like the name, feel like it suits me and feel comfortable with it.
Since my GF hasn't known about my CDing for very long I don't consider it a problem, but I wonder if she will, perhaps she will think I am trying to transition (which I'm not, just trying to get more comfortable with this whole CD odyssey). She is hugely accepting of the whole CD thing so I'm pretty sure it will be fine.
GF issues aside the real issue for me is, does this make any sense? Does feeling more comfortable with a name completely different to my own making me more able to accept my girl role seem logical?
Perhaps the distance it offers between my RL self and my CD self enables me to act more in the role I want to without feeling like I am just myself in a dress.
It's weird, but just thinking of myself as Robyn when dressed (yes I've already dressed and tried out my new name) makes me feel like it's OK to walk in a feminine way and act more feminine (or at least what I consider more feminine). When I'm referred to as Sammy it brings me crashing back to this being what I consider as a corruption of my male self and I feel more like a bloke stumbling around in heels.
Make sense?
xxx
Obviously I'll also have to do something about my forum name (I guess I'll have to talk to the admins)
Up until now I have been using Sammy as my name as it was a simple (and not very inventive) version of my actual name.
When my GF and I went away recently I got to dress each evening that we were away and didn't really feel as if I could enjoy my girl role, being called Sammy just made me feel as if I was me in a dress rather than the girl I wanted to present as.
So I've been thinking about changing my alter ego name to Robyn, I like the name, feel like it suits me and feel comfortable with it.
Since my GF hasn't known about my CDing for very long I don't consider it a problem, but I wonder if she will, perhaps she will think I am trying to transition (which I'm not, just trying to get more comfortable with this whole CD odyssey). She is hugely accepting of the whole CD thing so I'm pretty sure it will be fine.
GF issues aside the real issue for me is, does this make any sense? Does feeling more comfortable with a name completely different to my own making me more able to accept my girl role seem logical?
Perhaps the distance it offers between my RL self and my CD self enables me to act more in the role I want to without feeling like I am just myself in a dress.
It's weird, but just thinking of myself as Robyn when dressed (yes I've already dressed and tried out my new name) makes me feel like it's OK to walk in a feminine way and act more feminine (or at least what I consider more feminine). When I'm referred to as Sammy it brings me crashing back to this being what I consider as a corruption of my male self and I feel more like a bloke stumbling around in heels.
Make sense?
xxx
Obviously I'll also have to do something about my forum name (I guess I'll have to talk to the admins)