melissacd
11-21-2005, 11:43 PM
I have been reading posts here for well over a year. I have made a few posts as well, expressing my feelings and my situation. I have learned much about myself, but I have much more to learn. I read about other CDers who were up front with their SO's and while there have been some blow outs I am amazed (and pleased) with the number of cases where it has worked out at some level.
If I knew even 8 years ago what I have learned since reading things on the Internet, perhaps, just perhaps, the way that I handled my own situation may have worked out better than it did. An important thing that I have learned from reading the stories of others is that we must learn to accept who we are, we must embrace who we are and we must stand our ground when revealing that fact to a significant other. If we back down, if we show guilt, fear, embarrassment about this, then we are saying in a non-verbal way that regardless of what our words are their judgement of us is correct. They are right to feel threatened, hurt, insulted, betrayed...
I can see now that even though it is painful (and it certainly was that) that we must be proud of who we are, accepting of who we are, we cannot give any ground on who we are. Now I am not proposing that we rub it in anyone's face, especially an SO. I am not proposing being mean, nasty, selfish...I am proposing that we draw a line in the sand, state most clearly that that is who we are and that no amount of bullying will change who we are, no demand to stop will change who we are, we must remind them that that is who they fell in love with, it is the fabric of our character...
I can see clearly now that if I stood my ground, perhaps the outcome today would be very different.
Mel
If I knew even 8 years ago what I have learned since reading things on the Internet, perhaps, just perhaps, the way that I handled my own situation may have worked out better than it did. An important thing that I have learned from reading the stories of others is that we must learn to accept who we are, we must embrace who we are and we must stand our ground when revealing that fact to a significant other. If we back down, if we show guilt, fear, embarrassment about this, then we are saying in a non-verbal way that regardless of what our words are their judgement of us is correct. They are right to feel threatened, hurt, insulted, betrayed...
I can see now that even though it is painful (and it certainly was that) that we must be proud of who we are, accepting of who we are, we cannot give any ground on who we are. Now I am not proposing that we rub it in anyone's face, especially an SO. I am not proposing being mean, nasty, selfish...I am proposing that we draw a line in the sand, state most clearly that that is who we are and that no amount of bullying will change who we are, no demand to stop will change who we are, we must remind them that that is who they fell in love with, it is the fabric of our character...
I can see clearly now that if I stood my ground, perhaps the outcome today would be very different.
Mel