Just wondering if I can ask a few questions? FtM answers.

[Kimberlyfaye]

Hey guys.

I was hoping to ask you a couple of things if that's cool?
I'm on the other side of the fence so to speak, and I was wondering what it's like being a FtM? What is it that makes you want to be male? I know this is silly of me to ask as you will no doubt say the same thing as I would about wanting to be female lols. I see females as elegant, perfect and beautiful. And males as, well cavemen. Sorry that sounds mean but I am genetically one and I would like not to be. I mean no offense to you guys, I just can't work out why anyone would want to be male :S

Also when you are in male mode who are you attracted to? Male, female? And do you find yourself attracted to MtF or male CDers?

One last question, how do you find male clothing in terms of comfort and options? How do you feel about wearing male clothes and underwear compared to female ones?

I'm really curious to find out what it's like for you guys. Hope you can enlighten me :)

Hugs x

[mistunderstood]

Ok sorry for the late reply my computer connection went down. Now I do not know if I can enlighten you any but I will try.
Being a FTM: It is hard. I have conflicting things in my head all the time. I see a nice looking woman and first thing go's through my head" nice rack or nice butt" then I have " women are not sex objects they have brains". When it happens it hurts my brain. I am a strong supporter of equal rights. I like being a guy because with guys it is easy to blend in with the crowd. Guy's do not like to talk about personal stuff like serious body issues. Fart jokes are ok or size you know what I mean. Most of the time clothes do not matter. I like guy clothes because they are comfortable easy to wash not a lot of color choices and they cover you. Well except butt cracks. But I learn to by big and tall.
I am bi. I started out lesbian then as strait male then bi. I do not know if I would date a cd'er but I am open to possibilities.
As for the caveman thing yes I can be that way but only when I can be home by my-self for the day. I do like to watch T.V. in a t shirt and boxer's. I like football,boxing. I like old cars and music. I am learning to make chain maille. I would like to make my own swords and shields some day. I do not have room right now but someday.
Hope my answers helped.

[Kimberlyfaye]

Thanks Aaron. It certainly helped with a few things. I am surrounded by guys where I work and I know what you mean about them not talking about things. There are alot of jokes and banter. Some of which is slightly sexist. I've spent my life being more at home around women and although I can have a laugh with the guys sometimes, I still hate being around them most of the time. Despite being so feminine Inside I am blessed with both mindsets, male and female. So I like football, women, cars and all that male stuff yet I also love dresses, shopping, clothes and makeup.
When I see a girl the first thing I think is "Why can't I be a girl." Followed by "I love that outfit."

For me girly clothes are the best. I love the vast amount of choices. I can completely understand your point about comfort. Some female clothes are very uncomfortable. Especially when you have bulges where women dont :S

Getting on to the attraction part. I find myself attracted to females all the time. Whether dressed or not. I've summed it up in other posts as me being a lesbian in a male body. Yet from my male CDer point of view I wouldn't have any problem being with a FtM. That's the only reason I wanted to ask all of you guys about it as I find it confusing why I feel that way. Which reminds me I need to find a gender specialist :)

Again thanks for replying. I admire what you guys go through even though personally I think you're mad wanting to be boys hehe ;) Just kidding

Kim x

[mistunderstood]

May be for your thinking about being with a FTM you still know they are a bio girl. I can understand that thinking. I take no offense to that. I have learned that we as people have complicated thought processes. You love who you love and that is all it matters. We all have to have a open mind about things.

[Kimberlyfaye]

The reason it's confusing is more because I would want a FtM to be a guy. And me be a girl. That's why I don't know what I am. I've noticed some of you go through the same confusion as men.

[Raell]

I'm a bigender 60 year old female to male who recently joined this forum. I'm still in denial, hoping to muddle through pretending I'm female, feeling like a guy in drag when I go my teaching job. I'm mentally about 40% female so I can't get an operation, as my male side desperately wants to do, because my female side kicks up a fuss. My male side, "Raell," is a two dimensional, non-communicative knuckle dragger, just wants to build new inventions, watch and play sports, wear the baggiest, most comfortable clothes possible (which he wears the SAME CLOTHES every day unless going to work), oogle every pretty female in sight, take wild risks, but has no interest in social activities unless adventurous activity is involved. I don't have much of a female side, but she likes to be clean, be pretty-in a classical, muted way, and wear jewelry. She also is interested in ecology, protecting wildlife, loves cute babies, etc.

I design and sew my own clothes, even my underwear, so my underthings are totally comfy, androgenous, never bind no matter how active I am.
As for who attracts me, Raell reacts to women, but it's almost like a shadow reaction. Basically I feel no attract to either gender. If I've been in a long-time close relationship with a male, sometimes they can wear me down and get me to marry them but once they see that I'm not the obedient little wife they expected (for some reason) they take off, but we keep on being "male" pals, as before. Once in a relationship my libido is 10 times that of most males (they all tell me) and I do wild stuff, switching roles, costumes, etc. My last ex loved it though.
But once not in a relationship, I become indifferent to sex..like I can take it or leave it.
Right now I'm not even sure what orientation I am, but I surmise my both my genders are straight.

[Ryan A.]

Hi! I'm new here, this is my first post! hehe

Well, I'm a male crossdresser, so I like to live in both genders! I love being a girl, but I also feel that I have a boy inside of me, that sometimes come out!

I'm also a feminist, well, genders, sexuality and society is something that facinates me, I like studying them, and then someday I noticed that I was part of it!

Also I believe that a person can wear "male" clothes, but consider itself a woman, and a person can wear "female" clothes but consider itself a man.

But your question is something that I questioned a lot inside of me... I don't think I'll never get an answer, but something that I believe is reincarnation, ok y'all think I'm crazy, but whatever, I believe and this make sense to me: I was a male in my other life, and in this one I was born a female, but I still got parts inside of me that are not used to it.

I don't know kkkkkkkkk I love both things! Well... I mean, a woman can dress "man's clothes" and still consider herself a woman, so why I'm not like that?

Well, in my mind, as a woman I feel attracted to things that are called "woman things", and when I see "man things", I become attracted as a man!

The pleasure that I feel when I put make-up, dress and high-heels is the same pleasure I feel when I cover my breast and put socks in my underwear pretending that is a penis kkkkkkkkkk

Oh and about the shaving, I don't make it fix in a gender! Sometimes I don't shave my body as a woman, and sometimes I shave as a man!

HOLY SHIT, I WROTE A LOT KKKKKK sorry if there's a mistake, english is my second language :)

[Felix]

Well first of all and without sounding awful I have always been male my brain has always been male it was just that my body wasn't male in the way that it should have been because of a birthing defect which happened in the womb at about six weeks gestation. So for me and many others its not a case of wanting to be a man we already are men things just have to be put right through hormones and surgery. I know this will vary depending on circumstances and how people perceive themselves. But for me this is how it is :)
I may have spent many years in denial of the facts but once full acceptance was reached then there was no turning back and it was full steam ahead to fix things.

My preference has always been females even though because of my upbringing I did marry to a quite efeminate man lol I went for the feminine qualities in him. I'm not saying I didn't question things such as my sexuality while going through transition but I always knew from a young age my preference was women :) I did start transition saying I may be gender queer but this soon fell by the wayside as the testosterone took hold and I accepted the fact that I had always been heterosexual and a straight male :) ......Felix

[JackieJake]

Being a FtM crossdresser can be frustrating, not many people know that I am a crossdresser because I know there would probably be a lot of people that think its weird, especially my friends. I'm not sure if my mom knows I crossdress but I when I would ask for guy clothes she gets mad at me and it makes me mad so I would buy them secretly or get unisex clothes. I HATE almost all girl clothes, I think a lot of girl's clothes are boring, but that's just me. I like some dresses though. I don't know exactly what makes me want to be male, I think like a male and not at all a girl so maybe that's why, it just feels right when I crossdress.. I went to this show Saturday and there was this guy there and I thought to myself, "Wow, I wish I looked like him." I am bisexual and when I crossdress as a guy I feel mainly attracted to females but I have never been attracted to MtF or male crossdressers. And I find guy clothes really comfy and better looking than female clothing. :)

[mistunderstood]

A while ago I was messing with my girlfriends lipstick and I put it on wow I looked like a bad MtF cross dresser. Not trying to be rude or mean. I just looked bad.

[Ryan A.]

A while ago I was messing with my girlfriends lipstick and I put it on wow I looked like a bad MtF cross dresser. Not trying to be rude or mean. I just looked bad.

When I dress as a guy, I look like Justin Bieber LOL 'cause he have child-feminine traces, but I'm not like the others that joke about that, he's not less man for "not looking that man"...

The details are the main thing! I'm still trying to figure out how to look more male! I looking for tutorials in the internet, and I really like the make up that Lady Gaga did when she dressed like Joe Calderone, her male alter-ego!