My life isn't great,

[Kimberlyfaye]

But there's always hope.

Now more than ever I want to dress 24/7. I'm going through some tough times at the moment. I might lose my job and have to move back in with my parents. I haven't got alot of money and I don't really have any prospects for another job. I don't know what I'm going to do. This place is my only outlet. And a bit of a rough road in terms of my relationship, nothing to do with problems between us, more problems for us. I hate my life right now.
In my life I have my female outlet and the chance to feel feminine. And I love my partner. She wants a girlfriend and I really want to be that. I'm lucky to have someone like her. She is so supportive. More so than just being accepting of my dressing, she prefers me doing it! Despite all these problems I'm happy. I like my life. Sure I have problems and life looks bleak but it could be alot worse. It might get worse, I don't know what's in store for me next. But maybe I should just keep my girly head held high and stand tall in my heels!

Sorry ladies, I just had to have somewhere to vent. Speech over. I love this place and you're all inspiring to me :)

Hugs

[bobbimo]

Hi Kim,
sorry to hear your having some of life's up and downs.
But it sounds like you have the right idea, send your fears and worries out here and if we can help we will, if not then we will give you a cyber hug and be hear to listen.
You have a great start with a GF that enjoys Kim. Don't lose her. and if you gotta be the boy to get ahead for a bit.. then you will enjoy the Kim times even more.
Good luck and read my signature. its always come true for me.
Bobbi

[Lorileah]

Vent away. It helps to let it out. My only advice (and hope for you) is that often when you are younger things look tougher. But usually they work out in the end. You may have to take it back a little and regroup but things will look up. Hang in there

[Kate Simmons]

I guess it's not too bad Hon. You went from hating your life to loving it in the same posting. ;):)

[suzy1]

You vent girl, that’s what we are here for.

If it’s any help my life was finished a few years ago. There was no hope. It was the end.
Now my life is amazing!!!!

Hang in there. You’ll be fine.

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[stacycoral]

Kim, girl you vent we all need to, sorry to hear about your trouble, hugs

[kimdl93]

Well, Kim, you're entitled to a vent. What do you do for a living, BTW? I guess if a job loss is looming, the most important thing to do is to start looking for employment options that will allow you to continue an independent life with your GF. Make that your focus!

[reb.femme]

I might lose my job and have to move back in with my parents.

Hi Kimberly,

With this part I can totally sympathise. I had to move in with mine years back for a short period of time but it felt like an eternity when you have experienced 'freedom'.

In addition to my pm suggestion, the place mentioned is very gender accepting too!

Reb

[Jorja]

Venting is ok, we all need to do it at times. I agree with Kim. If you are losing you job, then a new job is what you need to maintain your independence and freedom to live as you want. No one has a good or even great life all the time. There is a lot of hard work, blood, sweat and tears that go into forming what others see as a great life. When you are on the outside looking in, it all looks so simple.

[Barbara Ella]

This is the place to come to Kim. You say you hate your life, but then you say you like your life. This is the eternal position occupied by youth. Uncertainty is the rule. It can be disconcerting and confusing, and add more burden to the daily grind than you are used to. Given time, and years, you will develop coping skills. As you say, it could be worse.

Make sure you are happy with your today. Plan for the future, but just don't let it be the focus of your thoughts. You need to focus on the present, and particularly the positives you have, and work through the negatives on a day to day basis.

glad you vented, stand tall.

Barbara

[Amy A]

Hang on in there Kimberly, at least you've got your looks! Your girlfriend sounds great as well, hang on to her.

I had a scare a couple of years ago with the company I worked for struggling to make ends meet. I ended up deciding to leave, and everythings gone great (career wise anyway!) in ways I never expected since then. I stressed about it so much at the time, and couldn't see a positive future, but it all worked out.

I guess I'm trying to say keep optimistic, sometimes good things come from bad times.

Hope it all works out for you, another great avatar by the way!

[Gillian Gigs]

To use an old quote, "tough times never last, but tough people do". As you are also an English girl, I will quote possibly you greatest Prime Minister. Churchill said, "when you are going through hell, just keep going". Don't forget you partner, draw together and help each other through this time.

[MicheleCooper]

After reading your post and the people who responded, you have an awesome support system. Parents allowing you to move back in, a girlfriend who loves the Kimberly side, and people here who will listen. With that much love and care surrounding you, you will be back on your feet in no time!

[Kimberlyfaye]

Thanks everyone. Apart from my SO this is my happy place. I've now been laid off so I am looking for a new job. Hope something comes around soon. Or I'll be jobless and pennyless. Had to give my male side a hug. He deserves it, poor boy. Us girls are good when it comes to that :)

And now since things can't get much worse I'm telling my mother about me. I'll let you know how it goes.

Hugs x

[kimdl93]

Kim, sorry tohear about your layoff. Best of luck with your job search! Keep plugging away at it. If let the warmth and joy of Kimberly show through, even when your en drabbe, you'll get some very positive results!

[BLUE ORCHID]

Hi Kim, We are always here for you need some one to listen to your stories or a sholder to lean on.

[Jennifer Marie P.]

Everyone has troubles at some point but it works out in the long run so keep up your girly head up.

[sometimes_miss]

Kim, you have a girlfriend that supports you and that includes your crossdressing. You've hit the lottery. Everything else doesn't matter worth a damn. You can always get a job, but it might not be the job you want. Get used to that, only in recent times have people been able to pick and choose what they did for a living. My dad certainly didn't want to be a janitor, and my uncle didn't want to drill oil wells. Find a manager and offer to work for free for a month to see if he likes you; if he insists on putting you on the books, tell him you'll sign over your paychecks to him as a guarantee that he'll want to keep you on, and he only has to pay you if he keeps you. I got two jobs that way in my lifetime. Work your ass off for your boss, and they will find a way to keep you, or help you get another job if you get downsized. Do more than your job description when you do get a job. Never, ever complain. Come in early, and stay late, even if you have to punch out and then go back to finish the job. Tell him you like to feel like you're on salary, that you get paid a certain amount to do a job, and don't expect overtime just because you weren't able to finish it in the time alloted. You'll be amazed at how people respond to someone who is a good worker.

[Tracii G]

Kim you can vent here anytime thats a healthy thing to do.
At least you had parents nice enough to let you come back for a while.

[docrobbysherry]

"When life gives u lemons", u look on the brite side of life, Kim. As well u should! U r a young, pretty girl with your whole life in front of u. And, continue to count your blessings. It sounds like u have SO MANY!

[Beverley Sims]

If you are likely to lose your job due to your crossdressing activities, taper them off a bit.
You can always come back but you need to be able to earn money to live and buy clothes even. :)

[Maria in heels]

Kimberly...try to remember that life is truly a roller coaster...you have great ups and downs, its just a cycle and hopefully it won't last long-especially with your girlfriend. If she enjoys Kimberly, then you are on the high, no matter what happens with the job

[RainyNightGirl]

Kim, hang in there girl. I am thinking about you and I hope things will get better for you soon. You have your GF, and the two of you will pull through this together.

((HUGS))
Natasha

[Amy A]

Sorry to hear about your job. So many people struggling at the moment, it doesn't seem fair.

You are at least lucky that you have some things that no one can take from you. It's not an easy path we take, but you seem to be living it to the fullest, and you should be proud of that.

Good luck with the job hunting, and your mother!

[Cynthia Anne]

Kimberly keep that head up and keep smiling! With your atttitude it won't be long before you are flyin' high above the pink clouds!

[Brianna612]

If you want now would be a good time to apply for jobs as Kim. Don't fret Life will get better and in time it will level off. At my low I was going through a divorce and had to move out, child support was set based on my current job, one month later the company closed their doors without notice. What a blow. If you believe in a higher power trust that power to get you thru the tough times and to help you prosper in the good times. You'll be too busy looking for jobs to get depressed. Your GF sounds terrific and if you want to go full time what a gem.

[Maria 60]

Sometimes its funny how life falls, there was this older man who worked on the same job site and every morning for 2 years he would say good morning and start complaining on how much he hates his job and hates working and his life. I changed job sites and I didn't see him for a few years and last week I seen him and asked him how he was doing. He said to me that he was off work because a pipe blow in his face and spent over a year in the hospital, and he said the funny part of it all was every morning he would sit by the window and couldn't believe how bad all he wanted to do was to go to work. When I herd that all at once a problem that I was complaining about a minute ago didn't seem like a problem at all. For example your complaining about something and some one is reading this and saying how lucky you are for having a accepting wife. Go figure. I hope in time it will all works out, just stay positive.

[Chardonnay Merlot]

Hold your GF tight, hold hands , stick together and just keep on going Kim..I wish I had a partner who was supportive like yours is.
It's rough out here, but fortune favors those who don't quit :)

[Lady Slipper]

Hang in there Kim, nowhere to go but up! :) You already have a leg up over many of us with an accepting SO, no to mention youth and looks ;), stay positive and vent all you want, we'll listen!

Hugs,
Stephanie Marie