Fordgurl
09-24-2012, 06:39 PM
I know I rarely post on here but to me this was a double-event worthy of a lengthy post for me. Over the weekend I worked my way up to telling my best friend of over 20 years that I crossdress. I always was reluctant to tell him despite trusting him very much, as he always gave me the vibe of being extremely homophobic, and stereotypically closed-minded in general. But I was met with surprise and great joy in finding out that he was absolutely accepting and even very interested. I showed him a fair bit of my wardrobe (which was a first) and even then he didn't seem at all bothered. He shared a long ago personal secret about himself as well. (which most people I tell seem to blurt something shameful). I don't know if they do it to comfort me or because they feel the need to get it off their minds, or whatever. Either way it was an insanely stress-relieving experience to know that my best friend can still be my best friend. Hopefully things will work out well!
On another note, feeling somewhat confident, the next night I was having some (many) drinks with a newer but very dear female friend of mine, who already knew plenty about me and that I crossdress. After much talking and contemplating I finally found the courage to show her some of my clothes and eventually decided to dress in front of her. It was possibly the most terrifying moment of my life haha. I hesitated when I came back in the room but I did it. It quickly became a feeling of 'feeling right'. I always feel right when I do it alone but have been extremely afraid of actually showing anyone. It was late in the morning and I passed out still dressed. When we woke up I thought I might feel awkward or panic but I still felt great about the whole thing. I'm not sure when it may happen again, it still makes me nervous but yet I can't wait to do it again.
Anyway, this weekend has been a possibly life changing time for me, I hope for the better, I feel empowered and nearly stress-free for once. I am always a pessimist so for me this was a complete upper. I am now able to live a bit more freely as I just moved out of my parent's house into my own. I can spend so much time dressed and do what I want. I have a very private location so I can even go outside in my yard unseen. Maybe my life is coming slightly together for once. It is all happening so fast that it scares me but it feels great to have some freedom.
On another note, feeling somewhat confident, the next night I was having some (many) drinks with a newer but very dear female friend of mine, who already knew plenty about me and that I crossdress. After much talking and contemplating I finally found the courage to show her some of my clothes and eventually decided to dress in front of her. It was possibly the most terrifying moment of my life haha. I hesitated when I came back in the room but I did it. It quickly became a feeling of 'feeling right'. I always feel right when I do it alone but have been extremely afraid of actually showing anyone. It was late in the morning and I passed out still dressed. When we woke up I thought I might feel awkward or panic but I still felt great about the whole thing. I'm not sure when it may happen again, it still makes me nervous but yet I can't wait to do it again.
Anyway, this weekend has been a possibly life changing time for me, I hope for the better, I feel empowered and nearly stress-free for once. I am always a pessimist so for me this was a complete upper. I am now able to live a bit more freely as I just moved out of my parent's house into my own. I can spend so much time dressed and do what I want. I have a very private location so I can even go outside in my yard unseen. Maybe my life is coming slightly together for once. It is all happening so fast that it scares me but it feels great to have some freedom.