Jess Marie
10-18-2012, 08:56 PM
A family member of mine whom I was sorta close to but not really had been in a coma for about 6 months, he "woke up" last week and had no memory of roughly 3 years previous to getting in the car accident.
He doesn't know who his daughter is, has no clue who the president is, and is completely blind to the fact that around a year ago he lost his job and they were really struggling. Anyway, I am not on here to get any pity or anything like that. This situation has taught me not to take anything for granted. But, anyway, it did start that thing between my ears.
Most of us, if not all, can trace our first memories of crossdressing, no matter how minor, to our mid childhood (8-13ish). They call this period our developmental years because this time period shapes who we are and who we will become. Now, some of us were pushed to crossdress by a friend or sibling and some of us just wandered into it by ourselves out of curiosity.
If our memory reset to our childhood, say a week before your first experience, yet you are still the same age you are right now reading this. I am 20, so my memory would jump back 12 years and I wouldn't know anything that happened between then and now.
Do you think, without any crossdressing memories, that you would still do it? Would you still be the woman you are today because it is more than memories, it is who you are, or do you think it would be like it never happened and you would find all the clothes in your closet and assume your wife ran off without packing?
I cannot answer this question myself at all. One of my most prized possessions is my feminine side, my inner woman, the center of my core. I rely on the woman within me on a daily basis. But, did I develop Jess over the years into what I needed, or has she always been within me and I have only discovered her? No matter how much soul searching I've done, I still cannot answer this question.
I invite you to search through your inner self and share what you think about yourself. Do you truly believe that without any memory at all of crossdressing or the woman you've developed over the years would still be there if all memories of her was wiped clean? Or do you think that she lives on in your head and not in your soul?
He doesn't know who his daughter is, has no clue who the president is, and is completely blind to the fact that around a year ago he lost his job and they were really struggling. Anyway, I am not on here to get any pity or anything like that. This situation has taught me not to take anything for granted. But, anyway, it did start that thing between my ears.
Most of us, if not all, can trace our first memories of crossdressing, no matter how minor, to our mid childhood (8-13ish). They call this period our developmental years because this time period shapes who we are and who we will become. Now, some of us were pushed to crossdress by a friend or sibling and some of us just wandered into it by ourselves out of curiosity.
If our memory reset to our childhood, say a week before your first experience, yet you are still the same age you are right now reading this. I am 20, so my memory would jump back 12 years and I wouldn't know anything that happened between then and now.
Do you think, without any crossdressing memories, that you would still do it? Would you still be the woman you are today because it is more than memories, it is who you are, or do you think it would be like it never happened and you would find all the clothes in your closet and assume your wife ran off without packing?
I cannot answer this question myself at all. One of my most prized possessions is my feminine side, my inner woman, the center of my core. I rely on the woman within me on a daily basis. But, did I develop Jess over the years into what I needed, or has she always been within me and I have only discovered her? No matter how much soul searching I've done, I still cannot answer this question.
I invite you to search through your inner self and share what you think about yourself. Do you truly believe that without any memory at all of crossdressing or the woman you've developed over the years would still be there if all memories of her was wiped clean? Or do you think that she lives on in your head and not in your soul?