helena.gcd
10-28-2012, 02:52 PM
Hi girls!!!
i have been all day with a huge smile on my face and i realized that it is because lately i'm really enjoying my crossdressing life at a level that i've never imagined.
in the last 30 days i have been out 5 times in Madrid, doing normal life but dressed enfemme. Shopping, restaurants, bars and discos have been the destination of my trips. Four of those times i got dressed at home and then drove to the city instead of taking a hotel room there. I'm feeling more comfortable with this, getting to a point in which i'm starting to think that i don't mind if people find out my secret. Those days my routine has been getting ready at home, go to the parking and pick the car and then drive to madrid. I live in downtown in a small city so till i get out of it i have to drive slowly (10-20 mph) in small and busy streets. I keep looking at faces of the people i pass by, looking for a reaction, but they don't do anything unusual, so i guess they just see another woman driving.
Once i got to Madrid i simply did what i went for, usually a bit of shopping and meeting with friends to have a couple of beers or lunch or dinner. I just go to normal places and i feel accepted and wellcomed everywhere. SAs usually very friendly and happy to help. Waiters take orders without hesitation even when my deep voice breaks any kind of illusion my appearence could create. Other women in the lady's room are polite and don't mind to do a small talk while waiting. Of course that sometimes i get some looks and i notice that i don't pass in the short distances, but nobody seems to care, neither do i.
I also have noticed that i'm getting less and less stressed about the moment of getting out of home. Everytime it becomes easier. I remember that one year ago i left my house dressed to attend a halloween party and i was pretty scared. Last night i simply got dressed, putted everything i needed in my purse and went to the car without any fear or hesitation.
Earlier, this summer, i told a friend (a GG) about my secret. She is very cool with it. I usually show her photos of what i do and we talk about lots of stuff. Having somebody who knows both parts of me has been of a great help. Talking with her has improved my acceptance of myself and since she knows both sides i felt that this is becoming more "real". Till yesterday she had only see me in photos, but as i arrived home quite late (7:30 A.M :o i know, i know) and she was going to work early, i sent her a whatsapp to tell her that if she wanted to see me dressed i could go downstairs a few minutes before going to bed (my home is in her way to work). She said that in two minutes she will be here, so once again i took the elevator and went to the street. When see saw me, her jaw dropped. She was smiling and couldn't believe her eyes. She checked my appearance from every angle, my make up, my wig.... everything passed the tests:D
I told her briefly about the great night i just had, showed her the photos i took and after lots of compliments and goodbyes kisses and hugs, she kept sending messages on her way to work. I feel great about having a so accepting friend and i think that she had a blast seeing the real me not just in photos.
As i have said before, i'm getting to a point were i don't care if somebody finds out. Not only that, i'm also feeling that i want more, being able of doing what i want without having to lie to my friends about where i've been last night or the other day. I'm seriously thinking about telling a few of my best friends. I think that they will accept it. They wont be thrilled but they can bear it. So i'm thinking about going out dressed in halloween night. A couple of them maybe get some costumes so i will go dressed out as a witch or female devil. It will be a good way to test the waters. I will have to downgrade a bit my appearance to not look very well put together, but i will be able to check their reactions without risking too much. Lets see how it goes...
Thanks for reading, all i'm doing wouldn't have been possible without the help of the great women in this forum.:hugs:
Hugs,
Helena
i have been all day with a huge smile on my face and i realized that it is because lately i'm really enjoying my crossdressing life at a level that i've never imagined.
in the last 30 days i have been out 5 times in Madrid, doing normal life but dressed enfemme. Shopping, restaurants, bars and discos have been the destination of my trips. Four of those times i got dressed at home and then drove to the city instead of taking a hotel room there. I'm feeling more comfortable with this, getting to a point in which i'm starting to think that i don't mind if people find out my secret. Those days my routine has been getting ready at home, go to the parking and pick the car and then drive to madrid. I live in downtown in a small city so till i get out of it i have to drive slowly (10-20 mph) in small and busy streets. I keep looking at faces of the people i pass by, looking for a reaction, but they don't do anything unusual, so i guess they just see another woman driving.
Once i got to Madrid i simply did what i went for, usually a bit of shopping and meeting with friends to have a couple of beers or lunch or dinner. I just go to normal places and i feel accepted and wellcomed everywhere. SAs usually very friendly and happy to help. Waiters take orders without hesitation even when my deep voice breaks any kind of illusion my appearence could create. Other women in the lady's room are polite and don't mind to do a small talk while waiting. Of course that sometimes i get some looks and i notice that i don't pass in the short distances, but nobody seems to care, neither do i.
I also have noticed that i'm getting less and less stressed about the moment of getting out of home. Everytime it becomes easier. I remember that one year ago i left my house dressed to attend a halloween party and i was pretty scared. Last night i simply got dressed, putted everything i needed in my purse and went to the car without any fear or hesitation.
Earlier, this summer, i told a friend (a GG) about my secret. She is very cool with it. I usually show her photos of what i do and we talk about lots of stuff. Having somebody who knows both parts of me has been of a great help. Talking with her has improved my acceptance of myself and since she knows both sides i felt that this is becoming more "real". Till yesterday she had only see me in photos, but as i arrived home quite late (7:30 A.M :o i know, i know) and she was going to work early, i sent her a whatsapp to tell her that if she wanted to see me dressed i could go downstairs a few minutes before going to bed (my home is in her way to work). She said that in two minutes she will be here, so once again i took the elevator and went to the street. When see saw me, her jaw dropped. She was smiling and couldn't believe her eyes. She checked my appearance from every angle, my make up, my wig.... everything passed the tests:D
I told her briefly about the great night i just had, showed her the photos i took and after lots of compliments and goodbyes kisses and hugs, she kept sending messages on her way to work. I feel great about having a so accepting friend and i think that she had a blast seeing the real me not just in photos.
As i have said before, i'm getting to a point were i don't care if somebody finds out. Not only that, i'm also feeling that i want more, being able of doing what i want without having to lie to my friends about where i've been last night or the other day. I'm seriously thinking about telling a few of my best friends. I think that they will accept it. They wont be thrilled but they can bear it. So i'm thinking about going out dressed in halloween night. A couple of them maybe get some costumes so i will go dressed out as a witch or female devil. It will be a good way to test the waters. I will have to downgrade a bit my appearance to not look very well put together, but i will be able to check their reactions without risking too much. Lets see how it goes...
Thanks for reading, all i'm doing wouldn't have been possible without the help of the great women in this forum.:hugs:
Hugs,
Helena