RachelDee
11-28-2005, 07:30 PM
Well i had a bit of an incident tonight, i was posting on this forum and while i was typing out my post i happened to turn around, to look at the time and my dad was stood at the back of me reading what i was writing... :eek:
He didnt see too much i think just 'gender' and a few other words so he thought i was talking about being gay. He wanted me to let mum read what i wrote (i obviously minimized it instantley when i saw him there - gave me a heart attack anyway :P) and well i said its not something for other people to read, but they said im posting it on a forum so other people will be reading it... I managed to put them off anyway and then it wasent mentioned until i came out of the bath later.
My mum was on her own as i was walking through with a towel around me - she wanted to know what i was hiding, and couldnt tell them, im pretty sure she was upset that i wasent telling her something. I said id tell her after christmas its nothing that cant wait and well, she asked if i was gay at first. Which of course i answered no, then she guessed i had some female clothes, from opening the package for me by accident last week (DAMN THAT LABLE) and well i couldnt just leave it at that, though she asked me what else anyway... so i just told her. I actually remembered that story line from Coronation Street with a women on there called 'Haily' seems everythings been done before nowerdays lol. She asked me what was happened with the therapist, not sure if she is thinking if im going to get 'cured' or im going to change into a girl :) but she left it there....
She asked me if i wanted her to tell my dad.. I told her its up to her i didnt say anything because i didnt want to upset anyone. I thought Dad wouldnt take it too well, he already calls me 'wierd' now. Well she isnt saying anything for now i think, not until after Christmas.
Well i will just have to see how it goes and how she takes it. She said of course she isnt 'happy' about it but she didnt want me to hide things from her.
I feel odd, its not something that i feel proud to tell people. You know all the media and such shows things like this as really sick and bad. Mum and Dad know about the OCD and that adding to it isnt very nice feeling, put me right off the clothes i have now... feels unclean to wear them. Like ive just admited a bad thing.... Not that i want to be anyless female, id be female in jeans and a top :) I just think some of the clothes girls can get are really pretty and they have much more choice in styles and color... so i bought some (eBay). Then it kinda started becoming a habbit... I like buying clothes and obviously skirts and such are more feminin and so i wear whatever i can when i can (when im alone ofc).
Well there it is... I will await to see what happens and if there is any Fallout. :confused:
He didnt see too much i think just 'gender' and a few other words so he thought i was talking about being gay. He wanted me to let mum read what i wrote (i obviously minimized it instantley when i saw him there - gave me a heart attack anyway :P) and well i said its not something for other people to read, but they said im posting it on a forum so other people will be reading it... I managed to put them off anyway and then it wasent mentioned until i came out of the bath later.
My mum was on her own as i was walking through with a towel around me - she wanted to know what i was hiding, and couldnt tell them, im pretty sure she was upset that i wasent telling her something. I said id tell her after christmas its nothing that cant wait and well, she asked if i was gay at first. Which of course i answered no, then she guessed i had some female clothes, from opening the package for me by accident last week (DAMN THAT LABLE) and well i couldnt just leave it at that, though she asked me what else anyway... so i just told her. I actually remembered that story line from Coronation Street with a women on there called 'Haily' seems everythings been done before nowerdays lol. She asked me what was happened with the therapist, not sure if she is thinking if im going to get 'cured' or im going to change into a girl :) but she left it there....
She asked me if i wanted her to tell my dad.. I told her its up to her i didnt say anything because i didnt want to upset anyone. I thought Dad wouldnt take it too well, he already calls me 'wierd' now. Well she isnt saying anything for now i think, not until after Christmas.
Well i will just have to see how it goes and how she takes it. She said of course she isnt 'happy' about it but she didnt want me to hide things from her.
I feel odd, its not something that i feel proud to tell people. You know all the media and such shows things like this as really sick and bad. Mum and Dad know about the OCD and that adding to it isnt very nice feeling, put me right off the clothes i have now... feels unclean to wear them. Like ive just admited a bad thing.... Not that i want to be anyless female, id be female in jeans and a top :) I just think some of the clothes girls can get are really pretty and they have much more choice in styles and color... so i bought some (eBay). Then it kinda started becoming a habbit... I like buying clothes and obviously skirts and such are more feminin and so i wear whatever i can when i can (when im alone ofc).
Well there it is... I will await to see what happens and if there is any Fallout. :confused: