Inna
12-14-2012, 02:45 PM
As I glimpse over one other thread I took away sense of doom and fragility we all must become friendly with. One way or another we will become overwhelmed with these feelings when we set out on this most incredible and unbelievable journey.
It is inevitable that we face gates of hell, and walk right in, with fear of unknown, rejection, pain and suffering, yet we do it, because we have just realized that we truly never lived, loved, never look upon this world with internal peace and serenity of knowing one self.
That is all we want, just to be able to take a breath with our own lungs, love with our own heart, to have a sense of true self, whole, one body one mind.
All that said above is all we want, the environment around us, however, has quite another need. All those around us need to see through the facade of REAL and into our hearts and as we ask them to see the real us, they see, well, REAL, yet WRONG us! The unlearning process is as frightful for them as it is for us.
We never had a choice in choosing characters and their intrinsic personalities within the people we know, and for some Transgender, their entire clans abandon them and vow to never look in their eyes again. Perhaps I was a lucky one, I only lost few friends and two loved ones.
What the most important step in this whole process is, at least in my understanding, is that we are after love, true and pure, unconditional, but love of one self. With this love we begin to see the world as it was intended, wonderful, colorful, and magical. What is though more precious, those that are around us, do start to see this spark in our eyes, they know it is something beautiful, powerful, and life giving. After a while they want it as much as we do.
But for that they them selves need to glimpse into our pure eyes.
It is inevitable that we face gates of hell, and walk right in, with fear of unknown, rejection, pain and suffering, yet we do it, because we have just realized that we truly never lived, loved, never look upon this world with internal peace and serenity of knowing one self.
That is all we want, just to be able to take a breath with our own lungs, love with our own heart, to have a sense of true self, whole, one body one mind.
All that said above is all we want, the environment around us, however, has quite another need. All those around us need to see through the facade of REAL and into our hearts and as we ask them to see the real us, they see, well, REAL, yet WRONG us! The unlearning process is as frightful for them as it is for us.
We never had a choice in choosing characters and their intrinsic personalities within the people we know, and for some Transgender, their entire clans abandon them and vow to never look in their eyes again. Perhaps I was a lucky one, I only lost few friends and two loved ones.
What the most important step in this whole process is, at least in my understanding, is that we are after love, true and pure, unconditional, but love of one self. With this love we begin to see the world as it was intended, wonderful, colorful, and magical. What is though more precious, those that are around us, do start to see this spark in our eyes, they know it is something beautiful, powerful, and life giving. After a while they want it as much as we do.
But for that they them selves need to glimpse into our pure eyes.