sweetjessica
12-21-2012, 01:03 PM
Ok. So, it's been a week of HRT. I just thought putting my feeling down thus far. So the changes so far .. Let's say a lot - specifically mentally.
So here goes -- Days 1-3 or 4 - not much changes in my mood or anything, except there is a sense of calm in me. I know this because I can see it in my driving (less aggressive on the road), the way I am talking to people. My talk speed has like so come down. I also feel I am also talking more softly, I feel this because a few people have asked me to speak up (usually I am a prettttyyyy loud talker :heehee: ) .
I think it's still early for est to directly cause all these changes, but I guess my mind is finally coming to terms with who I am.
Days 5-7 - Well the last few days have been a roller coaster ride - Not sure if hormones should cause mood swings this early, but my god - just today for example - I came back from work feeling ECSTATIC (yes in capital letters), i was just happy and smiling. My flatmates were like why are you so happy and beaming to yourself. I had absolutely no idea whatever. GOD it was just amazing. Oh BTW my flatmates don't know that I am transitioning.
Well whateveer - getting back to the topic - hmm, the happy place feeling was not destined to last forever it seems. What happened was that my flatmate passed some stupid comment (i think it was so 'duh' that I even dont remember ne more what it was) - Well that comment just ruined it for me - for some reason I nvr felt more angry right there.
OMG I had just gone from feeling overjoy to totally murder in a second - wow, is this what a mood swing feels like ? OMG this is sooo scary .. If this is like a mood swing or something, how long is this supposed to last?
Well this is not just one time - it like happened couple of time over the last few days - where I have gone like happy-sad-angry-happy in minutes, but not with the intensity that I felt today - I literally wanted to pull my hair out and scream.
I think there have some physical changes as well - but it must just be in my mind.
1) i feel my skin has softened a bit - not sure though (hmmm...)
2) I am on a weight loss diet -- the 1-2 pounds that i have shed this week have come from the area just above the belly button - this has like made my 'man love handles' :o:o feel more prominent
Other than these feelings / changes that's it. Nothing else, I am yet to come out to the world. Only one GG friend (who is a doctor) knows, obviously --
Not putting any pictures this time - because I am feeling a bit lazy :heehee::heehee: ..
Well here is one post. And yes thank you sooooooo much for taking time to read my blabbering ... guess this is the result of my excitement .. :)
a big HUG to all and xoxo ~ Jessi
So here goes -- Days 1-3 or 4 - not much changes in my mood or anything, except there is a sense of calm in me. I know this because I can see it in my driving (less aggressive on the road), the way I am talking to people. My talk speed has like so come down. I also feel I am also talking more softly, I feel this because a few people have asked me to speak up (usually I am a prettttyyyy loud talker :heehee: ) .
I think it's still early for est to directly cause all these changes, but I guess my mind is finally coming to terms with who I am.
Days 5-7 - Well the last few days have been a roller coaster ride - Not sure if hormones should cause mood swings this early, but my god - just today for example - I came back from work feeling ECSTATIC (yes in capital letters), i was just happy and smiling. My flatmates were like why are you so happy and beaming to yourself. I had absolutely no idea whatever. GOD it was just amazing. Oh BTW my flatmates don't know that I am transitioning.
Well whateveer - getting back to the topic - hmm, the happy place feeling was not destined to last forever it seems. What happened was that my flatmate passed some stupid comment (i think it was so 'duh' that I even dont remember ne more what it was) - Well that comment just ruined it for me - for some reason I nvr felt more angry right there.
OMG I had just gone from feeling overjoy to totally murder in a second - wow, is this what a mood swing feels like ? OMG this is sooo scary .. If this is like a mood swing or something, how long is this supposed to last?
Well this is not just one time - it like happened couple of time over the last few days - where I have gone like happy-sad-angry-happy in minutes, but not with the intensity that I felt today - I literally wanted to pull my hair out and scream.
I think there have some physical changes as well - but it must just be in my mind.
1) i feel my skin has softened a bit - not sure though (hmmm...)
2) I am on a weight loss diet -- the 1-2 pounds that i have shed this week have come from the area just above the belly button - this has like made my 'man love handles' :o:o feel more prominent
Other than these feelings / changes that's it. Nothing else, I am yet to come out to the world. Only one GG friend (who is a doctor) knows, obviously --
Not putting any pictures this time - because I am feeling a bit lazy :heehee::heehee: ..
Well here is one post. And yes thank you sooooooo much for taking time to read my blabbering ... guess this is the result of my excitement .. :)
a big HUG to all and xoxo ~ Jessi