andrea lace
01-07-2013, 01:49 AM
Hello girls it hasn't been long now since coming out to my s.o and to be honest it has been a roller coaster ride of ups downs and its feels like I've even gone sideways too.Before coming out i did try every dirty tactic in my arsenal to try and push her away.The reason i tried to push her away is a was sure once I told her she would do the same to me so or so i thought.I have always loved my s.o and I'm sure she feels the same but could she love that part of me that i have hidden for so long, I thought not.My logic being that if she left me I could be who i wanted to and no one would find out about that part of me. Well i was wrong so much for women s intuition i take it us cross dressers don't get that. I am still feeling a little insecure at times i have taken advice from many of you and good it has been but still i feel exposed and vulnerable.Andrea is coming out to play today and i do feel excited i used makeup the other night and resembled a butch panda bear I didn't look feminine at all but it felt different inside i guess more work will have to be put in.i will speak to you all soon as i feel writing down my feelings help me instead of trying to explain them.