Gone like the wind

[katlee]

Hi Everyone,

I have been lurking on the forums for a while, but I just recently registered. I am wondering if anyone else goes through a desire to dress really feminine and have the feeling that a completely different feminine persona takes over. Once uh my male needs are met:brolleyes:, I have no desire to dress feminine nor identify myself as Kat. I am not sure if this true CD or if I am just weird...

[janet54]

Kat. I am sure most of us have gone though this you dress and once things are done you feel guilt and shame. And don't want any part of it. No you are not weird this is just a process we all have done. I did it when I was younger and I think most of the girls here will tell you the same thing. Good Luck.

[Camille15]

I think it's normal, and it happens to me too. And not because of guilt or shame either. More like a chemical switch that goes off in my brain. Not only do I lose interest in CD'ing, but I also often become irritable for a day or two, as if my testosterone levels are way up.

But I've found as I've gotten older, and explored my CD'ing more, I've found ways to lessen, and even stop this. It all depends on how frequently I "meet my needs", as you put it. When younger, I'd meet them more often, as well as every time I dressed. This left me feeling as you described, and even irritable sometimes. But I found that if I meet those needs less frequently, say only once per week at most, then it's much less pronounced afterwards, and I can still stay in touch with my female feelings. If I can go 2 weeks, then I feel almost no ill-effects at all, and have even stayed dressed afterwards.

It's hard to fight the natural urge to meet your needs. I think as you get older this gets easier. But I've also found that it helps to remind myself that if I do, I'll lose those feminine feelings for a number of days, and I like them too much to want to let go of them. So this serves as a counter-balance against other urges. Hope that helps!

[Wildaboutheels]

http://www.crossdressers.com/forums/showthread.php?185646-sexually-stimulating/page5

[Ms. Laura]

Well, at some point, you may, umm fulfill that urge. Then, decide it was too much work getting done up and leave it on. Once that happens a couple of times, after not reacting to GUILT. You may find that you have an amazingly enjoyable, peaceful experience being girly than when you were turned ON.

I think that you have to work through the guilt and shame. They are NOT appropriate emotions in my opinion, but it took 30 years for me to get there. Once they go, dressing/transforming becomes....different. More beautiful.

[Teri Ray]

Katlee,

What you describe appears to be part of a normal CD progression. That is to say that there are no real norms in dressing just phases and feelings. Passion to dress is like weather it changes. LOL but beware of the Pink Fog. I catches up with us all I think sooner or later.

[monalisa]

Each person reacts differently which is the same as why we dress. I too have experienced the guilt but always come back to dressing. Now it seems better and more relaxing.

[Beverley Sims]

Let us just say that where you are is in the early stages of a progressive activity called cross dresing.
You can probably read here how you liked clothes at 5 makeup at 7 wig at 8 boobs at 9 and so on.
Welcome to the forum and may you have an enjoyable stay.

[Kate Simmons]

The bottom line is that sometimes if we don't have enough femininity in our life, we need to create it.:)

[katlee]

The bottom line is that sometimes if we don't have enough femininity in our life, we need to create it.:)

I feel this feeling a lot. I never want to impose my sexual fantasies on my SO, so I create this alternate persona internally. I think I am going to try to enjoy dressing more without guilt. For those who have gone to a transformation service, any recommendations?

[Dana3]

I think that for a lot of us, this is pretty much a "Which came first, the Chicken or the Egg" type question. But I believe that once you've gotten older? You will find that it becomes less and less important variable in the total equation. Even if I were to become asexual, the feminine side of me would remain. Its been the lifelong social, cultural, family, religioious indoctrination since youth that has lead most of us to the complete and total rejection of anything and everything feminine if you were born male.

[AllyCDTV]

Once uh my male needs are met:brolleyes:, I have no desire to dress feminine nor identify myself as Kat. I am not sure if this true CD or if I am just weird...
That pretty much describes what I go through. I've always preferred blonds with bangs and big boobs, so I kinda created one. I've thought that once I make a decision to stop crossdressing, pulling up some porn and using that to satisfy my male needs will go a long way to helping me to stick to that decision.

[katlee]

So...after a car ride...I am starting to dig to deeper into what I enjoy and what I don't enjoy. I currently go see a therapist who helps me with mild depression. One of the things that help people deal with depression is that they have some control over something. I am thinking that this feminine side that I am creating internally and externally is allowing me to control something in my life. The simple decision of whether or not to buy a corset or if I want to give myself raccoon eye shadow 9_9. The more and more I think about these decisions, the happier I become. I know that I haven't done either of those actions, but hey sometimes it is the thought that counts. Sorry if I am really self obsessed on these forums, but I figured that this is a good as a time as any to focus on ME, MY ENJOYMENT! :). Bonus points if anyone gets the last reference.

[Danielle tights]

That sounds normal and familliar to me also, i always seem to meet my needs with every dress up sesion but as i have said before my girl time seems to be getting less and less frequent.

[Karren H]

It's never really been the reason I dressed...... or much of a part of my dressing..... and I rarely have any male "needs" anymore....

[BLUE ORCHID]

Hi Katlee, It depends on my mood s to dressing csual or to the NINES.

[Aylineira]

Katlee, you're probably normal in the aspect that you get aroused while dressing. No need to be ashamed to relieve the male part of you. As for the depression part, it's a very well known fact that even top figures of companies (CEOs and Directors) often underdress to help with the stress that work gives them.

[NeKoi]

I don't think (but not very sure) that I'm similar to what Kat has described, but I noticed that at times of being more emotional, the desire to crossdress increases for me. Probably a sign that there's something going on with the brain and bodily reactions.

[CassandraSmith]

The original post describes me in my early years. Now, it's different and about getting into feminine stillness or activities--so I'm either dancing, perfecting my walk, trying to figure out makeup, wondering if I should alter my voice, watching a movie, etc. etc.

I'm guessing that this thing has a typical progression and I'm somewhere in the middle--a pair of panties isn't enough but HRT is too much.