Have I always been this way....

[Stevie]

Have I always been this way and just never knew it. Before I really got into dressing I have been told that I walk like a women. Talk with a soft voice and even when I smoked it was like a girl. Even my personaty is femine. I seem to be able to communicate with other women better than i do with other men. I never really had a man figure in my life to show me anything different. I just copied what I saw. Even though I acted like a women I knew that I am a man and my desires are that of a man.
Now when I dress in my female clothes they feel natural on me. I move in them like I move in my man clothes. This seems weird to my.

[ArleneRaquel]

Hon,
I love your post. I was first 'accused' of walking like a girl circa 1959, I was age 11. Best Wishes in your journey darlin.

[kimdl93]

You're asking the question then providing the answer. It seems you already knew.

[darkbeauty]

Gee I don't know...but if that's you in the rubber...you've got no problems....

[Leah Lynn]

I'm sure it was always there for me. I knew I was different at age four.

Leah

[Angela Campbell]

Sounds like my story. For me...I always knew. It just took a while to embrace it.

[Beverley Sims]

You have probably always been like you are and as you dress regularly now you are starting to realise that this is you all along.

[Angie G]

Don't worry about it girl. Just enjoy it hun.:hugs:
Angie

[Kelli<3]

I know what you are saying and I have some of the same feelings. There were signs and things about me that were different than average boys going back to my first childhood memories. I fit in with the boys well enough but I always had secrets and thoughts I wouldn't dare tell another soul. It took until this past year in my early 30's to start realizing who I am and what all of these feelings and desires mean.

Looking back at my childhood I realize that almost all of my friends the first few years of school were girls. I wasn't interested in many of the typical boy things like GI Joes, action figures, super heroes and such but I did like toy cars. I also tried on my sisters clothes and envied the pretty dresses the girls got to wear. Of course I was ashamed of it and always thought there was something wrong with me and no other boys did or thought these things.

I always was attracted to girls like a normal boy but there was always admiration and envy along with the normal attraction. I'm still confused about a lot of things but I'm at least trying to be open and accept myself. It is still frustrating and I feel like I'm a long way from figuring all this out. Just be you and be happy, now if only I could do the same...

[JenniferLynn0370]

I'm kinda in your position...or was...I have always LOVED the thought of being a girl/woman. I have also been accused of being feminine at times where I wasn't even thinking about what I was doing...walking, talking, gesturing, reading directions, etc...I used to tryto be aware of my actions so I could compensate and act more manly, but I gave up and just try to be myself now. That's worked out really well. I am embraced at work as "one of the girls" for the most part. I love it and hope it never changes! Good luck!

Hugs,
Jen

[PaulaQ]

I've always thought people who said "I was born this way," or "I've always been this way" about a behavior were fooling themselves and rationalizing their choices.

It turns out, though, that the joke is on me. As if I really think back on it, and am honest with my self, I've always been this way.

Serves me right, huh?

[k lynn]

I have been told on many occasions I walk and act like a woman I just say thank you and move on if those people only new what they just said really made my day been this way since age 4

[Tara D. Rose]

I know just how you feel. I have heard these words all of my life. Many times I was told you talk like a girl, not in the way I presented my words but just from my opinion. Sometimes I would catch myself as being such without trying. It took a whole lifetime to see it. Now I see it so clearly.

[Jenni Yumiko]

Stevie - for me it wasn't until the actual realization that I was a crossdresser that I looked back on myself through the years and realized the same things you did. My wife and best friend say a lot of my mannerisms make more sense when I told them I was. I don't think it's weird, just unrealized until you make the connection.

[Vickie_CDTV]

The way one moves, talks etc. as a man is not necessarily liked to the desire to dress. I have known plenty of folks who, when en drab, walk like linebackers and talk like sailors etc. and yet they also happen to dress.

[Mollyanne]

I think once you accept who you are it is so much easier to deal with.

Molly

[Kate Simmons]

When I first started working when I was 18, some used to accuse me of being a "male impersonator". It is what it is. Sometimes I wonder just who is "impersonating" who though.:battingeyelashes::)