Sarahgurl371
12-11-2005, 12:49 PM
Okay, I have recently been thinking about the whole addiction vs. being true to myself / ourselves. With a recent thread about a young person struggling with this all, I thought I'd put this out there for any ideas from the wise ones here.
What is the difference between an addict and my / our behavior? Addicts sneak, manipulate others and situations, and steal away time, and resources, for themselves to engage in thier addiction. Having an alcoholic in the family, I have seen first hand how thier behavior can affect others.
I have snuck around, I have manipulated sitiuations, I have borrowed resources, (never stole), I have stole away time for me to be by myself. The difference I think is that I have had to, in the past, do these things to be MYSELF. Whether that is real or imagined, my perception that I have to be alone to be myself, that is. I feel that when I am dressed, I see MYSELF in the mirror. While sometimes there are other reasons, but even THOSE reasons, I feel as being true to myself.
So, do addicts feel that when they are engaging in thier addiction, that they are being true to themselves? I tend to believe that an addicts "thing" is to avoid the inner termoil that they have been unable to deal with. So they occupy thier brains with the addictive behavior. Or is the PLEASURE from the behavior just so intoxicating, that they crave it all the time.
How do we / you split this hair?
Geez, someday I have gotta lighten up!
What is the difference between an addict and my / our behavior? Addicts sneak, manipulate others and situations, and steal away time, and resources, for themselves to engage in thier addiction. Having an alcoholic in the family, I have seen first hand how thier behavior can affect others.
I have snuck around, I have manipulated sitiuations, I have borrowed resources, (never stole), I have stole away time for me to be by myself. The difference I think is that I have had to, in the past, do these things to be MYSELF. Whether that is real or imagined, my perception that I have to be alone to be myself, that is. I feel that when I am dressed, I see MYSELF in the mirror. While sometimes there are other reasons, but even THOSE reasons, I feel as being true to myself.
So, do addicts feel that when they are engaging in thier addiction, that they are being true to themselves? I tend to believe that an addicts "thing" is to avoid the inner termoil that they have been unable to deal with. So they occupy thier brains with the addictive behavior. Or is the PLEASURE from the behavior just so intoxicating, that they crave it all the time.
How do we / you split this hair?
Geez, someday I have gotta lighten up!