Julie Hall
03-25-2013, 12:03 AM
It has been a very long time since I last posted. I am still trying to figure myself out but have made some significant strides. I am no longer transfixed with suicide, although it is in the back of my mind - it is not my first thought of the day. My counselor and I have been working throughout this time period.
Most importantly, I have begun to venture out in the world as Julie. I've been to my mother's a couple of times and last week went to the mall with a local CD/TG group for dinner, makeup tips at Bare Escentuals and shopping. I can't describe just how euphoric that trip has made me feel. To be accepted, in a real life situation - even now it brings tears of joy.
I am now actively looking for opportunities to go outside dressed and interact with people. I even stopped on the way home from my mother's today and bought a sandwich all by myself! I do need to be cautious in my new found bravery - I don't want to put myself in harms way - but I no longer want to hide.
I know for some here this is pretty elementary, but for me it is huge. I am now considering and will probably go through with living female outside of work all the time. Again nothing huge as I have normally done that - but always restricted to my apartment - that is the barrier I am tackling next. In the future will come changing at work. I'll let everyone know when that becomes imminent.
Julie
Most importantly, I have begun to venture out in the world as Julie. I've been to my mother's a couple of times and last week went to the mall with a local CD/TG group for dinner, makeup tips at Bare Escentuals and shopping. I can't describe just how euphoric that trip has made me feel. To be accepted, in a real life situation - even now it brings tears of joy.
I am now actively looking for opportunities to go outside dressed and interact with people. I even stopped on the way home from my mother's today and bought a sandwich all by myself! I do need to be cautious in my new found bravery - I don't want to put myself in harms way - but I no longer want to hide.
I know for some here this is pretty elementary, but for me it is huge. I am now considering and will probably go through with living female outside of work all the time. Again nothing huge as I have normally done that - but always restricted to my apartment - that is the barrier I am tackling next. In the future will come changing at work. I'll let everyone know when that becomes imminent.
Julie