Anne2345
04-02-2013, 09:25 PM
Over the past year and a half or so, I have come out to most of my closest friends. Of my siblings, I have two sisters, one of whom I came out to a while ago.
The sister I came out to previously has been wonderful with me, and our already strong relationship has become even stronger since that time.
I haven’t come out to my other sister, though, because I have not believed she would accept me. In fact, I thought that if I ever came out to her, that she would somehow hold it against me, and look at me in a different, yet negative, light. As a result, I have been too scared and nervous to bring it up to her, so I haven’t.
I haven’t, that is, until just the other day. I have spent the past several days visiting my parents and my sisters. In anticipation of my trip, I thought much about the pros and cons of letting my sister in on the deal.
Without spending the time to rehash the paranoid analysis of an over-thinking, nervous, and irrational tranny, I decided the best thing to do was to come out to my other sister. Actually, it wasn’t so much of a decision as it was the recognition of and giving into a necessity I felt to do so.
So come out to her I did. Although I was certainly a little nervous, it was otherwise a surprisingly easy thing to do. Even more, although my sister had many questions, and we have talked about it off and on a lot since my coming out, I now know she supports me, and loves me no less than she did before.
I feel bad, though, because like so many others, I did not previously give her the benefit of the doubt. I did not trust her and what I thought would be her reaction to me. Of course, I didn’t trust myself, either, so trusting another was all the more difficult, if not impossible, as a result.
Regardless, and thankfully so, I was proven wrong yet again. In this regard, my support group is all coming together – both friends and family. I know I will need more than just this in the future, but I also know that I can’t do this without them.
And I cannot express enough how much I love both of my sisters. My sisters are both absolutely amazing. They make my life sooooooo much better, sooooo much easier, and sooooo much more complete knowing that they are both in my corner, and that they are both there for me in my time of need.
The sister I came out to previously has been wonderful with me, and our already strong relationship has become even stronger since that time.
I haven’t come out to my other sister, though, because I have not believed she would accept me. In fact, I thought that if I ever came out to her, that she would somehow hold it against me, and look at me in a different, yet negative, light. As a result, I have been too scared and nervous to bring it up to her, so I haven’t.
I haven’t, that is, until just the other day. I have spent the past several days visiting my parents and my sisters. In anticipation of my trip, I thought much about the pros and cons of letting my sister in on the deal.
Without spending the time to rehash the paranoid analysis of an over-thinking, nervous, and irrational tranny, I decided the best thing to do was to come out to my other sister. Actually, it wasn’t so much of a decision as it was the recognition of and giving into a necessity I felt to do so.
So come out to her I did. Although I was certainly a little nervous, it was otherwise a surprisingly easy thing to do. Even more, although my sister had many questions, and we have talked about it off and on a lot since my coming out, I now know she supports me, and loves me no less than she did before.
I feel bad, though, because like so many others, I did not previously give her the benefit of the doubt. I did not trust her and what I thought would be her reaction to me. Of course, I didn’t trust myself, either, so trusting another was all the more difficult, if not impossible, as a result.
Regardless, and thankfully so, I was proven wrong yet again. In this regard, my support group is all coming together – both friends and family. I know I will need more than just this in the future, but I also know that I can’t do this without them.
And I cannot express enough how much I love both of my sisters. My sisters are both absolutely amazing. They make my life sooooooo much better, sooooo much easier, and sooooo much more complete knowing that they are both in my corner, and that they are both there for me in my time of need.