Suzanne F
04-30-2013, 12:16 PM
I just returned from visiting my family and friends where I grew up. It was quite emotional and I took some big steps. The first part of the trip I stayed with my parents. Early on the first day I showed my mom a picture of me in full femme mode. I asked her what she thought of this pretty girl. She looked hard at the picture and then back at me with a puzzled look. I told her it was me. I said my wife and I were playing dress up. She smiled and said I should go out with my wife for a girls night. I just smiled. Later she told me she thought it was an unknown daughter that had contacted me! Ha ha! I have been out 3 times with my wife but I did not say anything further. That night my sister came over an we were having fun in the kitchen. She made a remark that a friend of hers had a quite feminine husband and they thought he was gay. It just cut through me. I asked her if she thought I was feminine. She said of course not. I said well I am! Look at this picture. She was stunned and then said, "You look very pretty." We went into the living room and started talking to my mother. I told them everything and how I had always wanted to know what it felt like to be a girl. I told them I had been dressing the last 3 months and had been out in public three times. I cried a little as I explained and answered their questions. My mother came over and hugged me and said she was glad to have another daughter too! My sister said that I was her brother and she loved and supported me. We then talked like 3 girls for another 2 hours. It was wonderful!
I spent the rest of my trip at one of my cherished friends, a lady who is a counselor. She had roses in my bedroom that she said were my coming out bouquet . I had told her by phone a few months ago about Suzanne. She laid out some dresses of hers for me to try on and we also went to a wig shop. Later that night we went to dinner with a transgendered lady who had fully transitioned 9 years ago. It was the first time I have been able to meet one if us in person. Her courageous story floored me. She had been through hell to be who she was. We spent dinner and a few hours later talking and sharing our stories. It was so nice to not feel alone.
It was an emotional trip and I am very drained. I feel so blessed to have a supportive wife, family and friends. What a journey I am on !
Suzanne
I spent the rest of my trip at one of my cherished friends, a lady who is a counselor. She had roses in my bedroom that she said were my coming out bouquet . I had told her by phone a few months ago about Suzanne. She laid out some dresses of hers for me to try on and we also went to a wig shop. Later that night we went to dinner with a transgendered lady who had fully transitioned 9 years ago. It was the first time I have been able to meet one if us in person. Her courageous story floored me. She had been through hell to be who she was. We spent dinner and a few hours later talking and sharing our stories. It was so nice to not feel alone.
It was an emotional trip and I am very drained. I feel so blessed to have a supportive wife, family and friends. What a journey I am on !
Suzanne