Jacqui
12-18-2005, 02:55 PM
I have had dreams in the past in which I was a passable woman, but last night I had a very strange dream "fragment."
That is, it didn't seem to be connected to anything and it just sprung out of nowhere and didn't last long.
I was looking down at my belly (as a man) and noticed that it was larger than it had ever been before. In fact, it was dropping below my waist line. I took my hands and put them around my waist under the bulge and then began to massage my larger belly. I felt unusual smoothness and warmth. I had two thoughts at the same time: 1) I knew that I was pregnant; 2) I couldn't feel anything kicking, but I knew that I had life inside of me.
Without trying to add any post-dream thoughts, I remember knowing that I was a man, but somehow being pregnant. My concern was to get black maternity spandex slacks that were not too feminine so that I could wear them to work and not reveal myself as being pregnant.
The only other thing I remember was the thought that I would go deep into the pregnancy and then lose the child. I felt a huge sense of loss and sadness at this prospect and for the first time totally empathized with women who suffer miscarriages.
This dream fragment seemed to last less than a minute, yet when I awoke... as well as now, I can't get it out of my mind.
Jacqui
That is, it didn't seem to be connected to anything and it just sprung out of nowhere and didn't last long.
I was looking down at my belly (as a man) and noticed that it was larger than it had ever been before. In fact, it was dropping below my waist line. I took my hands and put them around my waist under the bulge and then began to massage my larger belly. I felt unusual smoothness and warmth. I had two thoughts at the same time: 1) I knew that I was pregnant; 2) I couldn't feel anything kicking, but I knew that I had life inside of me.
Without trying to add any post-dream thoughts, I remember knowing that I was a man, but somehow being pregnant. My concern was to get black maternity spandex slacks that were not too feminine so that I could wear them to work and not reveal myself as being pregnant.
The only other thing I remember was the thought that I would go deep into the pregnancy and then lose the child. I felt a huge sense of loss and sadness at this prospect and for the first time totally empathized with women who suffer miscarriages.
This dream fragment seemed to last less than a minute, yet when I awoke... as well as now, I can't get it out of my mind.
Jacqui