Paula Blair
12-18-2005, 06:49 PM
Several years ago, I had a very bad experience when I came out to my wife, which included talk of divorce. We went through months counseling, and I was treated for depression. I gave up dressing and eventually threw all my girl-clothes away.
Now the good news! Almost a year ago, we bought a house in Connecticut. I am retired, and am living in the new house. However, my wife is still working, for another few months, in New Jersey. So, I am alone during the week, and she joins me on weekends. Anyway, the old urge came back, and I have started dressing again, to a limited extent. So far it has just been underwear (I wear a bra, panties and pantyhose under my male clothes) and a pretty pink nightgown.
I really didn't like having to stop on weekends, so this past Friday I told her that I had started wearing pantyhose. I didn't mention the panties, bras or nightgown. She asked me why. I mentioned the cold, the support of the hose, and the comfortable feel. She probably suspects that there is more, but at least she is ok with this much. After the last experience, when she refused to even look at my female wardrobe, I am now free to wear at least a little feminine clothing.
This may not seem like much, but to me it is a fantastic improvement.
I plan to advance very slowly. Hopefully, some day I will be able to come all the way out of the closet.
I have not posted much on this forum, but have appreciated the support I have gotten, and have read some very good advice.
I love you all.
Paula
Now the good news! Almost a year ago, we bought a house in Connecticut. I am retired, and am living in the new house. However, my wife is still working, for another few months, in New Jersey. So, I am alone during the week, and she joins me on weekends. Anyway, the old urge came back, and I have started dressing again, to a limited extent. So far it has just been underwear (I wear a bra, panties and pantyhose under my male clothes) and a pretty pink nightgown.
I really didn't like having to stop on weekends, so this past Friday I told her that I had started wearing pantyhose. I didn't mention the panties, bras or nightgown. She asked me why. I mentioned the cold, the support of the hose, and the comfortable feel. She probably suspects that there is more, but at least she is ok with this much. After the last experience, when she refused to even look at my female wardrobe, I am now free to wear at least a little feminine clothing.
This may not seem like much, but to me it is a fantastic improvement.
I plan to advance very slowly. Hopefully, some day I will be able to come all the way out of the closet.
I have not posted much on this forum, but have appreciated the support I have gotten, and have read some very good advice.
I love you all.
Paula